Benzos obsession

[jayjaysleepyhead]

Hi folks again im newish and hope this is the correct forum. Anyway even though im not taking or buying any i am definetely letting the subject of benzos take over my life and time im constantly looking up all different kinds of them including the newish rc ones i visualise having tubs of each of them its crazy also any sort of benzo question on here i sort of enjoy having an input to it if i can,i habe just recently stopped taking big amounts im on 4 mg now of diazepam and its once a week nothing really. I think it feels like someone has died as they played a huge part in my life for over 20 yrs its like im grieving them because im refusing to try and get them i could get them but i know where my addiction took me back then i was on 40 ml of diazepam daily prescribed 69 mls of methadone prescribed and i was using heroin and crack daily plus topping up with street valium and temazepam now its 4 mg of diazepam soon to be 2 mg and 45 mls of meth reducing 5 ml a fortnight and i dont use any sort of illegals so i just gotta sfop obsessing as im now realising where all my time goes does anyone else do this with drugs

 

[SociallyAwkward]

Yes. I do the very same thing you do and I too am very fascinated by benzos. I read a lot about them, like to try out new RC's and whatnot... I also have some on prescription. I don't use them very much, mainly cause I know how addictive they are and cause I need them for my anxiety at times but they are often on my mind.

 

[kleinerkiffer]

I'm going to close this, as you already made a more or less identical thread (I moved that one over to The Dark Side)
Feel free to PM me, if you have any questions