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(NSFW) Microdosing and watching less extreme pornography

nancy145

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This is kind of embarrassing, but I watch some pretty hardcore porn, like gangbangs and stuff. I never thought it negatively impacted me or anything, it was just what I got off to.
I started microdosing LSD a few weeks back, and one night after taking a dose I had an absolutely horrific nightmare. A cult of men carrying guns broke into my home and gangraped a woman in front of me, and all I could do about it was tell my parents to stop them (I think that symbolized my overrelience on them). I was so incredibly scared and felt so horrible for the woman. My parents called the police and the dream ended when the cop cars pulled up.
Earlier that day, I was watching a compilation video, and finished right as a scene came on that was over the edge of what I enjoy, I found it rather disturbing. I think thats what caused the nightmare.
I know and always knew the difference between real sex and what happens in porn, but it wasn't until that nightmare that I realized how it influences your subconscious. I realized watching such extreme videos is unhealthy, and even though I know it's not real it still affects my brain in negative ways.
Since that nightmare, I've been trying (especially on microdosing days) to watch softer, more normal porn, and have actually been able to enjoy "vinilla" videos whereas I used to not be able to. I'm hoping to rewire my brain to like normal stuff again. Extreme porn is unhealthy for the subconscious, and if it wasn't for that LSD induced nightmare I wouldn't have realized it.
I just wanted to document this to help add data to potential effects of microdosing.


(Edit) a lot of people here are saying there's nothing wrong with watching hardcore porn, and that's true for many people. I don't believe that's true for me because I have trouble enjoying actual sex. Last time I hooked up with someone I had to lie about needing to get home because I was just bored. The way it wired my brain made it so I can't enjoy sex like most people.
 
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The Axe

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That sounds like a pretty oedipal trip, did it cross your mind that you need to stop tripping and wanking, get outta your parents house, and get a girlfriend?

That just seemed the interpretation to me. Kinda like dreaming of different colored electrical wires, then waking up and wiring something that you left hanging the day before.
 

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Porn (or non mental sexual fantasy...because really even just fantasizing when you masterbste is just mental porn).
Can be a very healthy sexual outlet as long as it doesn't become an unhealthy obsession.
Do not be disturbed by what gets you off as long as its 1000% consensual.
Everyone discovers what their individual fetishes are they dont decide them. In fact, I'm not really interested in defining human beings as gay or straight or bi or pansexual or whatever...human sexuality is extremely complex like some people get off by rubbing up against trees ( a real legit fetish) how do they fit into the gay/bi/straight category or whatever.
We are sexually just whstever our fetishes happen to be and thats something we must discover for ourselves.
Keep in mind that a person who gets off on being degraded is NOT necessarily being degraded by what appears as harsh treatment in hardcore porn.
Comedian Niki Glaser admitted she loves watching hardcore gangbang porn on Joe Rogan's podcast and I suspect it's more common with women than most are willing to admit publicly.

 

PriestTheyCalledHim

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This is kind of embarrassing, but I watch some pretty hardcore porn, like gangbangs and stuff. I never thought it negatively impacted me or anything, it was just what I got off to.
I started microdosing LSD a few weeks back, and one night after taking a dose I had an absolutely horrific nightmare. A cult of men carrying guns broke into my home and gangraped a woman in front of me, and all I could do about it was tell my parents to stop them (I think that symbolized my overrelience on them). I was so incredibly scared and felt so horrible for the woman. My parents called the police and the dream ended when the cop cars pulled up.
Earlier that day, I was watching a compilation video, and finished right as a scene came on that was over the edge of what I enjoy, I found it rather disturbing. I think thats what caused the nightmare.
I know and always knew the difference between real sex and what happens in porn, but it wasn't until that nightmare that I realized how it influences your subconscious. I realized watching such extreme videos is unhealthy, and even though I know it's not real it still affects my brain in negative ways.
Since that nightmare, I've been trying (especially on microdosing days) to watch softer, more normal porn, and have actually been able to enjoy "vinilla" videos whereas I used to not be able to. I'm hoping to rewire my brain to like normal stuff again. Extreme porn is unhealthy for the subconscious, and if it wasn't for that LSD induced nightmare I wouldn't have realized it.
I just wanted to document this to help add data to potential effects of microdosing.
Can you switch to vanilla gang bangs or orgy group sex scenes? Or just embrace that vouyerism of rough sex is just a sex fantasy? Or why not get into BDSM or bondage?
 

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Porn (or non mental sexual fantasy...because really even just fantasizing when you masterbste is just mental porn).
Can be a very healthy sexual outlet as long as it doesn't become an unhealthy obsession.
Do not be disturbed by what gets you off as long as its 1000% consensual.
Everyone discovers what their individual fetishes are they dont decide them. In fact, I'm not really interested in defining human beings as gay or straight or bi or pansexual or whatever...human sexuality is extremely complex like some people get off by rubbing up against trees ( a real legit fetish) how do they fit into the gay/bi/straight category or whatever.
We are sexually just whstever our fetishes happen to be and thats something we must discover for ourselves.
Keep in mind that a person who gets off on being degraded is NOT necessarily being degraded by what appears as harsh treatment in hardcore porn.
Comedian Niki Glaser admitted she loves watching hardcore gangbang porn on Joe Rogan's podcast and I suspect it's more common with women than most are willing to admit publicly.

She sounds hot! Kink dot com was great when it was filmed at the armory in SF. The scat stuff is nasty though.

The look on their faces is hilarious!
 

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Yes. Porn is extremely harmful.
It basically rewires your brain to be a cuck.
Cuck is a man who likes to get cheated by her wife, he'd like to watch.
As you watch porn you are watching other men fuck women you'd like to fuck.
Then you get used to satisfying your sexual needs this way.
You basically get cucked constantly and soon you'll be up to shit like open relationships and other scams.
It's you subconsciously wanting to get the porn experience off your woman, which is - you want other men to fuck her.
Also, focus on getting pussy. Like what the fuck? You fuck your own hand? That's the best you can do?
Great.
Here's a song for you.
 

PriestTheyCalledHim

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Yes. Porn is extremely harmful.
It basically rewires your brain to be a cuck.
Cuck is a man who likes to get cheated by her wife, he'd like to watch.
As you watch porn you are watching other men fuck women you'd like to fuck.
Then you get used to satisfying your sexual needs this way.
You basically get cucked constantly and soon you'll be up to shit like open relationships and other scams.
It's you subconsciously wanting to get the porn experience off your woman, which is - you want other men to fuck her.
Also, focus on getting pussy. Like what the fuck? You fuck your own hand? That's the best you can do?
Great.
Here's a song for you.
What if you or he watches porn of women masturbating alone? When I watch hetero porn that is the type I like.
 

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Porn is cancer in so many levels. Even if can sound as a unpopular opinion: avoid it. You will have 200% more drive, energy, confidence and focus.

Go for the real thing: real chicks
Personally, I prefer watching porn with AND having sex with real women.
Your limit is your beliefs...why be so self limiting?
You might as well argue that playing soccer prevents you from achieving a great discovery in quantum mechanics because your spending all your time playing a game instead of research....well not everyone is an einstein...or a Pele'.
It's like arguing that drugs are inherently evil because SOME people misuse them....not everyone is you.
 

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What if you or he watches porn of women masturbating alone? When I watch hetero porn that is the type I like.
Well, it's not getting cuck'd by anyone else than cameraman, but it's still bad since if you're going to go so low you're going to watch solo why not just go to a bar and try to get the real thing?
 

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Well, it's not getting cuck'd by anyone else than cameraman, but it's still bad since if you're going to go so low you're going to watch solo why not just go to a bar and try to get the real thing?
I can't understand why you must seperate porn from having sex with actual women???
Watching porn with girls is pretty much the best thing since sliced drugs!
You can do both things! Also, apparently being a "cuckhold" is a real fetish for some men AND women...why do you care so much about someone else's fetish?
 

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not intended to diagnose, treat, cure, or prevent
Since that nightmare, I've been trying (especially on microdosing days) to watch softer, more normal porn, and have actually been able to enjoy "vinilla" videos whereas I used to not be able to. I'm hoping to rewire my brain to like normal stuff again. Extreme porn is unhealthy for the subconscious
It's not that I disagree with what you're doing, but the choice of words here is a really good example of how we get conditioned to look at ourselves in "objective", dehumanizing/mechanical/judgmental ways.
Since that nightmare, I've been trying (especially on microdosing days) to watch softer, more normal porn that doesn't make me feel bad afterwards, and have actually been able to enjoy reach orgasm while watching "vinilla" videos whereas I used to not be able to. I'm hoping to rewire my brain learn to get off to like normal stuff that is less discomforting again. Extreme porn that I regret after I watch it is seems unhealthy for the my subconscious
 

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Well, it's not getting cuck'd by anyone else than cameraman, but it's still bad since if you're going to go so low you're going to watch solo why not just go to a bar and try to get the real thing?
There is a disease pandemic right now, and not everyone likes hook ups or sex with strangers. I have had women who we were hooking up and they wound up stalking me.
 

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I've had some extremely disturbingly graphic sexual dreams before. Shit that makes me go "what the fuck?" for a few days after. Usually happens when I'm withdrawaling from cannabis or fall asleep on psychedelics.

I wouldn't worry about it too much. I'm not a fan of hardcore porn but I have had some really fucked up dreams.... I'll leave it at that. Some are so disturbing I don't want to talk about it here lol...
 

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There is a disease pandemic right now, and not everyone likes hook ups or sex with strangers. I have had women who we were hooking up and they wound up stalking me.
Well, that's irresponsible - you're right.
With most women, I aim for long term and if I don't with a certain women, I have straight up declined to fuck em.
The reaction is priceless when you deny women sex.
Aim for long term relationships, hookups are boring and I like to work for a woman. If she's too easy she means nothing to me.
 

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Porn is cancer in so many levels. Even if can sound as a unpopular opinion: avoid it. You will have 200% more drive, energy, confidence and focus.

Go for the real thing: real chicks
Who are you? Fellow enlightened man. I respect you.
Salute brother. Let's destroy the porn-cucks together.
 
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