I wrote this poem in 2016. And 5 years later nothing has changed.
THERE WILL ALWAYS BE THREE OF US IN THIS RELATIONSHIP Me n U and the evil drug that bought us together. We chose the pipe as OUR choice but i should have known in due course. You would choose the power of the steel over what we had I cant compete with the love you feel for that rush. And all i feel is that painful gush as the tears roll down my face, I know deep inside you would rather be with the needle than waste that feel on the pipe. What hurts the most is i don’t even care you choose needle over pipe its the betrayal the deciept and lies that you tell. The truth has now been buried along with your soul. Im sick of you treating me like a pest, i see the look you give me when i walk in and you are just about to get that rush, you don’t care what your doing to me. The feel of that steel is all you need. I believe you now i know which hurts even more . Hopefully one day when im long gone you will stop and think why didn’t i just be honest with her, she didn’t care i use the needle, she is addicted to the evil one just the same. I loved you with all my heart, but you are long gone now and you will never come to the truth that would bond us for life I just wanted it to be you n me Ive tried every way for you to tell me about your secret life. But you have injected a knife through my heart . As the days and weeks go by i feel the hate for me you feel. Is growing every day. I don’t want this to end bad, i still love you, i know how strong that feel is, im sick of fighting to get the truth. Its tiring and depressing I didn’t make you have that first shot you chose to. And by ending this nightmare i know i will miss you , but you have died along time ago. You wont becoming backfrom your love affair you have broken me and i don’t deserve it. I deserve to be happy, and after some time i know i will be happy obviously you wernt my soul mate after all. Your soul has been buried along with the truth.
I am hoping someone can explain to me why he hides his use from me. It is controling my life. Somedays , i try so hard to ignore the dry reachess in the shower or when his buyers come over i pretend i dont here them clearing there throat.... but fuck me its hard . It feels like everyone around me is taking the piss out of me... i am a everday pipe smoker for 10 years. I been around dealer
THERE WILL ALWAYS BE THREE OF US IN THIS RELATIONSHIP Me n U and the evil drug that bought us together. We chose the pipe as OUR choice but i should have known in due course. You would choose the power of the steel over what we had I cant compete with the love you feel for that rush. And all i feel is that painful gush as the tears roll down my face, I know deep inside you would rather be with the needle than waste that feel on the pipe. What hurts the most is i don’t even care you choose needle over pipe its the betrayal the deciept and lies that you tell. The truth has now been buried along with your soul. Im sick of you treating me like a pest, i see the look you give me when i walk in and you are just about to get that rush, you don’t care what your doing to me. The feel of that steel is all you need. I believe you now i know which hurts even more . Hopefully one day when im long gone you will stop and think why didn’t i just be honest with her, she didn’t care i use the needle, she is addicted to the evil one just the same. I loved you with all my heart, but you are long gone now and you will never come to the truth that would bond us for life I just wanted it to be you n me Ive tried every way for you to tell me about your secret life. But you have injected a knife through my heart . As the days and weeks go by i feel the hate for me you feel. Is growing every day. I don’t want this to end bad, i still love you, i know how strong that feel is, im sick of fighting to get the truth. Its tiring and depressing I didn’t make you have that first shot you chose to. And by ending this nightmare i know i will miss you , but you have died along time ago. You wont becoming backfrom your love affair you have broken me and i don’t deserve it. I deserve to be happy, and after some time i know i will be happy obviously you wernt my soul mate after all. Your soul has been buried along with the truth.
I am hoping someone can explain to me why he hides his use from me. It is controling my life. Somedays , i try so hard to ignore the dry reachess in the shower or when his buyers come over i pretend i dont here them clearing there throat.... but fuck me its hard . It feels like everyone around me is taking the piss out of me... i am a everday pipe smoker for 10 years. I been around dealer