Hello. I'm about to share my secret for the first time ever. After tomorrow, I have no idea what kind of shape I'll be in, will I be able to think clearly? Be able to type or focus? I have no idea because I'm about to go without pills for the first time in almost 10 years.
Im so ashamed and i never thought I'd tell anyone what I've been doing. But I stumbled onto this site, and it cant be a coincidence. I've been using prescription pills for what seems like a lifetime. Like most stories, mine started with a car accident, surgery and one prescription. You won't beleive what I use. Codiene. I use 700mg a day. Each and every day. I never ever miss a day. Imagine what my kidneys and liver look like. I'm probably lucky to be alive
I'm married for 22 years and my husband doesnt know. I am a functioning drug addict. I have a middle management job that I work at 50 hours a week. I rarely miss work, and I am responsible for 100 employees. I have No friends. The second that I get home from work I go to bed. Almost every waking moment that I am not at work I spend in my bed. It didn't always used to be that way-at 300mg a day I had a bit of a life-participated in my daughters life, had a few friends, had a life. But the last 3 years have been a total write off. I don't get high from the codeine anymore. I take it to not be sick. I get about 30 minutes of this "feeling"-in that 30 minutes I feel so good and I'm in a good mood, I'm nice to people, I'm my best "me". But it goes away so fast and then I'm back to the depressed me. I live for that 30 minutes every day, and it is the thing I look forward to. It will be the thing I miss the most
im dying and I can feel it. My life isn't worth living and I'm of no worth to anyone. My family would be better without me and I want the old me back. I'm sure my daughter doesn't even remember that person. My husband tolerates me, but that's becasue I make a lot of money, there Could be no other reason why he stays with me. I dont cook or clean, he does the laundry, gets our daughter to all the places she needs to be , ect,
I haven had any energy for so long, I don't remember what it feels like. I'm exhausted after 10 hours of sleep. I never feel like doing anything other than laying in my bed watching Netflix. If I didn't need my job, I would probably never leave my house. I'm pathetic
i can't go anywhere to get suboxone , or any other drug that could help me to withdraw, as I can not have this addiction go on any record. I would lose my job, and that's not an option for me.
i have no pills left. Tomorrow will be interesting. I know I'm going to be sick. I'm off tomorrow then going to take a sick day Monday. Maybe Tuesday as well. Then I'm off on Wednesday and hopefully I can get through Thursday, Friday and Saturday, because then I'm on vacation for a week-I'm not going anywhere
I have 4 Ativan and 20 gabapentin pills-although I have no idea if they will help me, am I allowed to ask you if they will help me withdraw? Sorry if I broke a rule
i haven't planned this out too well, I know. I bought some vitamins and a treadmill. You probably think I'm an idiot. I do. But I hope you will support me all the same. I can't believe I'm asking you to help me, to be my friend.
I will wake up normal, and my day will be normal, because I don't take my pills until 5pm-but I'm already nervous.
Ok, that's it, that's my secret. I am a drug addict. A codeine addict. And I'm sick and tired of this way of life.
Thanks for listening I hope that you are having a good day
Im so ashamed and i never thought I'd tell anyone what I've been doing. But I stumbled onto this site, and it cant be a coincidence. I've been using prescription pills for what seems like a lifetime. Like most stories, mine started with a car accident, surgery and one prescription. You won't beleive what I use. Codiene. I use 700mg a day. Each and every day. I never ever miss a day. Imagine what my kidneys and liver look like. I'm probably lucky to be alive
I'm married for 22 years and my husband doesnt know. I am a functioning drug addict. I have a middle management job that I work at 50 hours a week. I rarely miss work, and I am responsible for 100 employees. I have No friends. The second that I get home from work I go to bed. Almost every waking moment that I am not at work I spend in my bed. It didn't always used to be that way-at 300mg a day I had a bit of a life-participated in my daughters life, had a few friends, had a life. But the last 3 years have been a total write off. I don't get high from the codeine anymore. I take it to not be sick. I get about 30 minutes of this "feeling"-in that 30 minutes I feel so good and I'm in a good mood, I'm nice to people, I'm my best "me". But it goes away so fast and then I'm back to the depressed me. I live for that 30 minutes every day, and it is the thing I look forward to. It will be the thing I miss the most
im dying and I can feel it. My life isn't worth living and I'm of no worth to anyone. My family would be better without me and I want the old me back. I'm sure my daughter doesn't even remember that person. My husband tolerates me, but that's becasue I make a lot of money, there Could be no other reason why he stays with me. I dont cook or clean, he does the laundry, gets our daughter to all the places she needs to be , ect,
I haven had any energy for so long, I don't remember what it feels like. I'm exhausted after 10 hours of sleep. I never feel like doing anything other than laying in my bed watching Netflix. If I didn't need my job, I would probably never leave my house. I'm pathetic
i can't go anywhere to get suboxone , or any other drug that could help me to withdraw, as I can not have this addiction go on any record. I would lose my job, and that's not an option for me.
i have no pills left. Tomorrow will be interesting. I know I'm going to be sick. I'm off tomorrow then going to take a sick day Monday. Maybe Tuesday as well. Then I'm off on Wednesday and hopefully I can get through Thursday, Friday and Saturday, because then I'm on vacation for a week-I'm not going anywhere
I have 4 Ativan and 20 gabapentin pills-although I have no idea if they will help me, am I allowed to ask you if they will help me withdraw? Sorry if I broke a rule
i haven't planned this out too well, I know. I bought some vitamins and a treadmill. You probably think I'm an idiot. I do. But I hope you will support me all the same. I can't believe I'm asking you to help me, to be my friend.
I will wake up normal, and my day will be normal, because I don't take my pills until 5pm-but I'm already nervous.
Ok, that's it, that's my secret. I am a drug addict. A codeine addict. And I'm sick and tired of this way of life.
Thanks for listening I hope that you are having a good day