So I first got my hands on some Xanax over a month ago and like an idiot I went overboard. Took about 140mg in about 14 days and went through withdrawals as I couldn't get anymore for a week. My last dose was a Sunday, and I didn't even know I was going through withdrawals until probably Thursday. Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday nights just involved terribly vivid dreams, some were very nightmarish, others were just strange and I had a few where I coherently knew it was a dream and was talking to the people in the dream about it being a dream. Those 3 nights are really the only 3 nights I've dreamt and and can actually remember dreaming in a long time. So Thursday night I can't sleep at all. Just lie in bed for a few hours where my mind is just going too fast for me to even think I can try falling asleep so I eventually get up and put on some headphones and game and that kinda chills me out but I still got zero sleep for close to 36 hours. I took some Valerian Root on Friday night and I was able to sleep from about 1 am til 7 am when I had to be up for work so those 6 hours felt heavenly. Saturday at work I still felt a little fuzzy, if you've ever been through a benzo withdrawal you know the feeling where you're head just doesn't feel right at all and you don't feel like you're in the right place or something? It's just an odd sensation.
Anyway, skip ahead a week and the new stuff comes and I'm attempting to be much smarter about it. I'll take 2mg just 2 days a week, and usually on Saturday when I can sleep in as late as I want Sunday, I'll binge on like 6-8mg. Now I've slipped up and redosed a couple times but my biggest worry is will I run into the same types of withdrawals if I can stick to 2mg twice a week with a 3rd day 6-8mg?
My other question is; since I'm only taking benzos 3 days a week, what effect will drinking whiskey the other 4 days per week have on me? How will the two drugs mix and match with each other so to speak?
Any advice would be really appreciated as I'm trying to avoid seizures mainly, but I know I'll never let myself get even 30 days straight into benzos. But I may do 30 days straight of benzos/alcohol just on a schedule like I said and I'm not sure if it'll be sorta the same thing?
Anyway, skip ahead a week and the new stuff comes and I'm attempting to be much smarter about it. I'll take 2mg just 2 days a week, and usually on Saturday when I can sleep in as late as I want Sunday, I'll binge on like 6-8mg. Now I've slipped up and redosed a couple times but my biggest worry is will I run into the same types of withdrawals if I can stick to 2mg twice a week with a 3rd day 6-8mg?
My other question is; since I'm only taking benzos 3 days a week, what effect will drinking whiskey the other 4 days per week have on me? How will the two drugs mix and match with each other so to speak?
Any advice would be really appreciated as I'm trying to avoid seizures mainly, but I know I'll never let myself get even 30 days straight into benzos. But I may do 30 days straight of benzos/alcohol just on a schedule like I said and I'm not sure if it'll be sorta the same thing?