DUDE now it's 115 hours! Thanks for the support! I'm going to switch from counting hours to counting days - so now it's day 5.
Im still not feeling decent. This cold I have is kicking my ass. I just wish I could fight one of these at a time. If I don't feel better Monday, I'm going to the doctor (he knows about my quitting opiates - he is my pain management doctor). Not sure what good that'll do me, my biggest concern is that it feels like it's going into my chest.
Now for some good news - it's raining! For some reason, I always feel safer when the weather mirrors my moods. Walking outside and seeing people having "fun in the sun" just doesn't fit my f'in mood right now. Hard to tell if it ever will again.
Now for some bad news - I feel worse on day 5 than 4. Not sure why, but I'm worried it could be something I'm taking. Yesterday and earlier this morning I took cough medicine with codeine in it...Could that be setting me back? I hope not, it's not much codeine and I did some research and basic math and believe I've taken about 15mgs of codeine, two times in 24 hours. Any advice on how the codeine may be effecting the withdrawal 5 days in would be greatly appreciated!
Another possible solution to why I'm not feeling any better is that I'm being pretty aggressive with my Kratom taper. For the first three days I was dosing as needed. On day 4 (yesterday) I really tried to push it and take less.the last time I had any was at 5:00 pm yesterday - so about 19ish hours ago...I had planned to take some today when it's not tolerable anymore, but haven't had to yet. Maybe it's just being without that crutch as often is making it more intense.
Sorry for all the questions. I guess I just want to see some light at the end of the tunnel...
- VE
ETA - I'm taking the cough medicine for my cough/cold - not to aid in withdrawal comfort. If it's holding me back, I can go with a different cough medicine, this is just what I had on hand. Just wanted to clarify.