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Exhausted Meth - tears and gnashing of teeth as I climb the walls to escape my cravings

Jabberwocky

Jabberwocky

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So far a week since I stopped IV meth properly. Huge emotional turbulence in my house over un-related family matters make keeping things calm and cool very difficult. Every hour brings a new trigger but I’m hanging on for dear life as I don’t have another relapse in me - the next time I jack some meth I’ll never stop. I’m climbing the walls with major craving. It takes my whole will to stay straight and to want to stay straight.

All I can manage is cry alone in my room, try to sleep and regularly walk the dog. Thanks god for the dog. My brain is so damaged from my last binge I can’t think straight about anything. My motivation is disappearing daily but I can’t go back to meth - it will kill me.

‘thanks for chance to vent

this is hard stuff
 
I can't offer any advice as Meth is one of the few vices that I've never had the opportunity to succumb to, but you're doing brilliantly my friend. Keep venting here to your heart's content - I'm sure there will be many others in the same situation willing to provide their support.

It sounds like your dog is your lifeline. He/she gives you the excuse you need to get away from everyone to battle your demons. Stay strong and all the best mate. Things will get better eventually...
 
Hello mate.

Do you have time off work or otherwise a free at least a week? Two preferably.

If not then I suggest you get time as you will need that.

Secondly, do you have a trusted person to check on you? If so then that will help. If going solo thrn I suggest you call a drug counselling hotline immediately as meth cessation needs to be started when you feel exactly like this.

Get a go or drug specialist appt and hopefully they will give you a script for valium, I got stilknox for sleep , dunno if they still do that, also seroquel. If you have a person with you it's easier to ha e a medicated detox with gp help.

You need to go home and have good supply of comfort stuff like Powerade, ibuprofen, codeine if possible, phenergan. Alcohol is fine if you ok with it. Phenergan and anything pain killer OTC will do if no other help.

Good music, good movies, good all the things you like.

You will feel utter shit and confused a few days and sleep will suck . That is why you must have no meth and no implements at all also no phone and no internet messenger. Nothing.

Throw it away or disable the account.

No ability to score does relieve the cravings.

I've done it a few times and have needed to remove any ability to score so I guess you won't be on bl while you detox.

The seroquel helps a lot as does mirtazipine if you get that.

When you have slept and in a few days you will be thinking better and clearer.

Unfortunately then you will have a spike in cravings as you feel better.

This is why you must not have your phone.

It gets better, not easier for a while.

Ok?

Now do it mate.
 
Hang in there Brother!

You can do this!
hang out with your dog and avoid all family drama or stress of any kind.
eat a healthy diet and take some vitamin D and C.
hot Bath’s with Epsom salts will calm you down a lot and help for pain.
epsom salt‘s have magnesium in them and your skin will only soak up the amount that your body needs.
this will rebalance you and relax your muscles.

Keep venting here.
We are all pulling for you!
We all support you!
You have made the right decision.
hang tough.
things will improve.
❤️
 
Right on! Hang in there. Things will continue to get better!

I suggest trying your best to get some exercise, outside if possible. Personally I like hiking and its perfect because you can go as hard as you feel like and you get to be in nature. Take your dog for a nice hike!

Treat yourself to some badass food too!

Good luck
 
Get yourself a tyrosine supplement, it is important to get your dopamine production going the best you can. A good diet, lots of protein, tyrosine, and exercise will help out a shit load in the time it takes to get back to normal!
 
RV Mystery Journey said:
So good it left you high and dry is that it?
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The high has always been the highest - the low is another story...as this post attests. It's been a fun adventure with meth but I hope my time with it is done. Too much of any drug inevitably has a downside I reckon.

I don't recommend meth for anyone and I would discourage anyone from starting with it unless they are indpendently wealthy and have no real world responsibilities or relationships that they value whatsoever.

I only survived my experience because I had been through recovery for other drugs earlier in life and was able to deploy my learnings to my meth use and discontinuation. If I had not been experienced with recovery, and not already on anti-psychotic drugs already I would have been lost for good on meth I reckon. Even then it has proved extraordinarily difficult to stop and stay stopped. Doesn't mean I didn't have some fun though.
 
Today is exactly a week and a day since the last bust in my effort to escape from a binge that began 5 months ago and that went from "i'll just give it a go" to a 1 gram binge every 2-3 days in about 2 months. I've never made it past a week before.

I have followed almost all the advice people gave about getting through the crash and seem to have come through basically unscathed - I spent the day at work today reasonably productively. I notived a big improvement in my cognitive skills when I woke up this morning.

Its funny how quickly things move - 3 days ago I could not concentrate on 1 thing for more than 5 minutes, 2 days ago I had to go to the ER with a panic attack, 1 day ago I was in tears promising (truthfully at the time) my family I would never touch the poison that is meth again. Today I caught myself wondering if just a point to raise my mood would be manageable! Fortunately I beat that idea to death by throwing myself back into my work.

I have to say that I think the key parts of my making it through such a savage comedown were food, sleep, soft music, seroquel, valium, telling my family what was going on and just refusing to worry about any kind of responsibilty like work. I'm not sure whether taking my ADHD dexamfetamine helped or hindered getting through the last week.

I don't think I have another experience like this in me so intend to stay away from meth in future. Those cravings but ... I don't think they have gone for good.

Thanks everyone for the advice and encouragement.
 
Sounds like your serious about it this time. One day a year or two from now you will look back at this thread and feel grateful. Is Seroquel prescribed? It seems to have stabilized a lot of former speedsters including me. Something about a good 8 hours of sleep each night... Exercise has helped too. Gentle cardio for the first year.
 
Dexies would help yet you need them as it is....let's say they would have cushioned the crash.


Nice to see you're feeling better.
 
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