Japhy Ryder
Bluelighter
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- Jun 8, 2020
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I'm pretty sure that there aren't drugs that make you attracted in a way you weren't before. What meth does have though is a very stimulating effect on people's libidos while simultaneously reducing or shutting down inhibition completely. That is a potent combo. It doesn't seem surprising that you might see people's most taboo desires that they wouldn't normally dare indulge.
For men, especially heterosexual men (or at least identifying that way) the more emasculating a desire is the more taboo it is for men(all taboos are kink magnets). I would guess homosexuality or homosexual sexual activities fall under emasculating for some reason. There are whole realms of kink devoted to worlds of men's desires that are unacceptable, whether cross-dressing, femdom stuff, pegging, cuckolding, "forced" homosexual acts. Any non-consent fantasies offer a two-for-one: they relieve one of needing to own their unacceptable desire while allowing a release from being in control.
It's often a sweet respite for men since we are taught from the beginning to be in control. Part of that control is that we are supposed to be sexual aggressors, conquerors. Sex gets defined as something a man does to a woman. That's all fine if its how you like things, and certainly there is no shortage of men and women who like it just fine that way, but its very limiting and straying is costly to your gender identity and security--these are valid fears, I'm not ridiculing "fragile egos" or suggesting anything is "toxic" about these men. Those things are part of the same shaming machine that constantly hammers men into our rigid roles.
It is so sad how many restrictions there are for us, and how rigidly and narrowly manhood is regulated in most cultures. The idea that a guy might need to be doped right out of his mind just to do some harmless sexy things he wants is really awful to me. There's nothing wrong with drugged up lust mania it is needing it to escape your prison. Or worse, that there are men who repress, deny, denounce and ignore their desires so much that they are hardly aware of themselves at all, and the whole idea of looking inward is probably frightening until they're superjacked on dope and let that genie out of the bottle and then after tuck it all back down, filled with shame. Shame where there shouldn't be any. Perhaps worst, is I find people--men or women who have sexual shame often make poor choices, sometimes degrading choices, or worse, unsafe choices. because they don't know any other way to get the sex they need and they feel guilty so deserving of bad things.
Anyway, in that climate we live, anywhere on the internet where folk are talking about meth, there are always these queries popping up, "hey anyone noticing that meth just gays the hell out of dudes?" The tone is always non-committal, a little judgey, a little homophobic, a little racy, a little naughty, a little supportive, a little guarded, a little testing the waters, but always, ALWAYS, concluding that it's about the meth, thereby preserving manhood rules even if you spent the weekend with as many dicks as you could get into you. (I'mefully not chastising anyone here or anywhere else this topic pops up. Hopefully. My bad if i am and sorry since lack of intent doesn't really help if you piss all over someone(not in the sexy way). My intent, though, is more to illuminate that the kind of sexual behaviours and the kinds of conversations about them are both influenced by the same straitjacket.
Hell, my basic intent is just to babble because I'm tweaked on some spectacular drugs and love to type away on the internet. I just can never really confirm how reliable a narrator I am while in that zone. specially if there is also a bit of booze in the picture. Some folk will uninhibit themselves all the way into Calligulan orgy fiends, mine only goes so far as being an over-sharey chatty cathy online, which does feel threatening enough that normally i'm reticent.
Fuck I wish I found meth to be uninhibiting to such unbridled degree like i hear of so much online. I might stuff the baggage off in a closet and actually go out and do crazy wild stuff like just hang out with a girl or get laid any old boring way; or just make out like normal people do every day no biggie.
