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Mental Illness Support Thread V. How do you feel?

LordOfThisWorld

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I find that when I feel excessively guilty it's because I'm depressed. Depression makes me feel like I'm a burden on others and all I ever do by being around them is hurt them.

Also, I can relate to having anxiety from talking on the phone. Actually, I feel way more anxiety talking to someone on the phone than I do talking to them directly irl.
I've been talking to my therapist every week, but my anxiety is not subsiding, I don't think it's working, I don't like talking on the phone either really.

Are we Chemically imbalanced or something? I never use to be this bad, now I wake up anxious and feel like I'll never feel normal around people.
 

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^^ You okay dude?? What's up?

I've been talking to my therapist every week, but my anxiety is not subsiding, I don't think it's working, I don't like talking on the phone either really.

Are we Chemically imbalanced or something? I never use to be this bad, now I wake up anxious and feel like I'll never feel normal around people.
I go through phases where I wake up feeling like that every day as well. It's horrendous. I hope you feel better soon. In the meantime just take it easy on yourself and keep up with the therapy.
 

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I'm having an off day. Feel like shit and my house is a mess, can't seem to feel any enjoyment from anything. I've stopped taking my diazepam (small dose 6-10mg at the most, most days) and I just feel like numb/detached/fed up
Does anyone ever feel 'stuck' with anxiety and/or depression like literally stuck to the spot they're in and feel so overwhelmed with anxiety/pressure on them they can't move? I've had that recently.
 
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I'm having an off day. Feel like shit and my house is a mess, can't seem to feel any enjoyment from anything. I've stopped taking my diazepam (small dose 6-10mg at the most, most days) and I just feel like numb/detached/fed up
Does anyone ever feel 'stuck' with anxiety and/or depression like literally stuck to the spot they're in and feel so overwhelmed with anxiety/pressure on them they can't move? I've had that recently.
Absolutely friend.

I feel stuck in so many ways... But ultimately feel stuck in a place where I can control my drug and alcohol use... Yet gain no ground on my goals or progression towards them. I feel stuck in limbo in a massive way. I have stopped accruing pain in my life but over the last few years have done nothing to capitalize or move on that front.

But hey, as long as I don't regress that's still some form of progress.

You gotta learn to love yourself even when you hate yourself. That's life. Duality.<3
 

LordOfThisWorld

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^^ You okay dude?? What's up?


I go through phases where I wake up feeling like that every day as well. It's horrendous. I hope you feel better soon. In the meantime just take it easy on yourself and keep up with the therapy.
Thank you, even doing therapy I'm still fighting anxiety I can't seem to shake, especially because of my job, there is just no feeling of security anymore, they hire people that can bullshit better than they can work and get on the bosses good side and actually do a quarter of the work than you do, and have less seniority than you do, but seem to get favored more than you do, con artists I call them.
 

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^^ I hate to say it Lord but I think that's the way it's always been man :( It fucking suuuucks. But there will always be those types of opportunistic narcissists (the con artists) who take advantage of hard workers (like you) in order to get ahead of them.
 

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I like to call them arse-lickers. I can't fathom ever being one of them. Try and find another job and even negotiate a better pay? Your employer might miss you and offer you a higher sum to stay? I'm not sure if this is possible and what line of work you are in sorry if this is unhelpful ✌️
Just wanna add to be able to keep your job whilst struggling mentally is an amazing achievement in itself. I couldn't lol.
I'm close to snapping today because my other half has been taking a flaky everymorning since friday - everythings my fault. I'm taking myself out to my brother's it was his birthday the other day. I'll have to pretend I'm ok but it'll still be good to see him. Just a temporary fix untill tomorrow. If I try to break up with him it's emotional blackmail and I'm just not strong enough for that worry just now
 
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