^yeah man, 250mg MDPV is not a small amount. I didn't take it all at once, of course. I vaped it over a few hours - but that's still more than enough to make a man ga-ga, face eatin' crazy.
And just to reiterate: I only posted the above amount about my a-PVP binge (3 grams in less than 3 days) to point out how compulsive a drug it is. For those that aren't familiar with these substances, please know that what I did was extremely stupid and dangerous. I did it because I had completely lost control of my will power.
a-PVP is noticeable for a novice at 10-15mg when vaped. With MDPV the amounts are lower again.
These are seriously potent chemicals.
And while we are at it:
Phenazepam is crazy, crazy stuff lost almost 3 days from dosing just over 2 mg. Real blur of almost zombie like stupor. May have been inclined to eat someone's face if i'd had some stims and pcp in my system!
Phenzepam is a benzodiazepine (ie. same family as Xanax, Valium, Temazepam, etc), but it is NOTHING like any benzo that most people come into contact with. Lovepsychedelics comments above are virtually the rule rather than the exception, regarding memory loss.
Anyone who has phenaz, or who wants to try it (the temptation is there because it's so very, very cheap and long lasting - know this: it is a full spectrum benzo with an extremely long half life and an unusually long onset time (ie. you won't notice anything for a good three hours, and if you are feeling effects before that, you've probably taken too much already). It is notorious for causing lengthy blackouts - full on blackouts - during which people who done things which have ruined their lives.
On top of all that, in my experience, it is not 'fun' or enjoyable in the slightest.
I resisted aquiring phenaz until about two months ago when I realised that I had really developed a dependency on diazepam and etizolam, and that if I were to suddenly run out I would be in serious trouble. So I got some as an absolute last resort.
Guess what? Two weeks ago I lost a bag contain a rather large amount of benzos (all for personal use) and then raced home to get out my emergency stash of etizolam and found.... that it was gone. 150 x 2mg tablets gone. I was stunned, then bewildered, then very scared and the reality set in that thee only answer was that I'd taken them all (not at once) by dipping into the emergency bag now and then, and it turned out that now and then was far more than I thought.
So, it was time for plan Z - that is, PhenaZePlan. The absolute last resort. I am terrified of that drug, but within just a single day I started feeling intense rebound anxiety from the etizolam and realised that I was going to have to risk it, or go to a hospital and fess up. The second option wasn't really an option, so I took a toothpick and dipped it in the bag of phenaz (I have scales, but nowhere near accurate enough to measure 1mg with precision, and I didn't have time to make a liquid solution - I was shaking already).
I used the pointy end of the toothpick and made sure that there was only some powder sticking to the tip, not sitting heaped on there. I then tapped that onto a bit of foil and vaped it. There was almost no vapour. I then sat and waited for two hours, with a sense of doom growing by the minute, by two a half hours the doom sense stopped growing. By four hours I realised that I actually wasn't very anxious.
I continued this - using the minimum amount, two days on, a day off - for a week, and it held me until I got some etiz. I'll say that it is potent stuff, because although I was feeling the WDs and sure as shit didn't feel relaxed or good, the fact is that I managed to get through a week functioning fairly normally, apart from mood swings and occasional minor anxiety attacks.
But knowing what I know about phenaz, I was only every going to use the absolute minimum amount to hold me sane. After I got the etiz and diaz back, I immediately started planning a very slow taper. I never, ever, want to have to rely on phenaz again, let alone any benzo.
