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Faith32

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Hi Faith,

I hope I have some great news for you!

I am also just over 3 months in and I can happily say that I have made tremendous progress with brain blockage and head pressure. For 2 months it felt like I literally had a shotgun blast go off in the top of my head and now I’d say it’s completely gone, or at least not too noticeable at the worst. Still dealing with debilitating anxiety haha, but it’s nice to have a few checked off the list. In no particular order, this is what helped me the most:

1.Supplements - NAC, Lion’s Mane, and Magnesium (L threonate in morning and glycinate in the evening). Honestly, Magnesium was magical for me. Glycinate at night also helps my sleep a ton. Started feeling the effects of both in just days. NAC is a must too.

Other ones I’ve been taking but I’m not sure are as effective for this particular issue are ginkgo, ginseng, rosea, and creatine. However these have been helping my cognitive impairments, which I had very severe, but are also much improved.

2. Wim Hof breathing - just YouTube it or there are some ones on insight timer that I like. This one has you force oxygen into your head, which I think has an added benefit https://insig.ht/tNSfM2TJKab. If thats effective for you, you can also do breathwork classes which are like Wim Hof x10. I’ve been doing the Wim Hof daily for a few months now and I do a breathwork class about once a month or so.

3. Cardio or HIIT - 3x a week minimum.

4. Meditate - I know you said you are unable to right now, and trust me I said the exact same thing for a long time. However, regardless of how scary and foreign your brain feels, you need to befriend it. Let the rest of your system know it’s not a threat, even the compromised areas. In fact, you need to focus on those areas so you can release them of their tension. Be at complete ease with exactly how they are so you can adapt to the changes that have occurred. I know, it sounds like some woo woo BS, but I did some guided sessions with my counselor and I could literally feel blockages being softened during the exercises.

That’s awesome that you are feeling better and it’s certainly an inspiration for the rest of us. I’ll check out all your recommendations. Thank you for the advice and keep us posted as you continue to improve!
 

happy_dude

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Haha, that is one exact phrase an terminology my mates used to use in reference to planning an ecstasy session that night- getting "onnit".

So Happy dude, you were an old timer like me? My own MDMA use stopped abruptly 15 years ago. I don't consider myself to have suffered any recognizable physical MDMA related side effects and symotoms fortunately, over that time.

Yes, I'm a little bit of an old timer. I did MDMA between 2003 and 2005 when my LTC CFS/MCS started. I had no choice but to stop.

Due to the chemical sensitivities and CFS I developed, I believe that my LTC was probably more likely due to something in the ecstasy pill rather than the MDMA. Therefore, I think it makes sense how some people can enjoy MDMA responsibly for years/decades without suffering an LTC.

I used to think that my LTC and CFS/MCS were separate things. It just seemed to coincidental they both started at exactly the same time (the day after taking ecstasy pills). Now I wonder if the people who suffer LTC have something in common with the people who suffer CFS/MCS.
 

Berendje

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When did you last take MDMA? It takes a while to get your full energy back sometimes.

You just need to rest well, conserve and recharge when you can on and most importantly just take the Weight of Your Mind for the moment because there's nothing you can do except trust that time heals because it always does.

I mean I would say that after 12 months of no MDMA use there is going to be a significant let up for a lot of people in terms of energy at least.

Just try and be positive my friend and trust that everything really troubling you will pass and you can work through it but being relaxed about this is the first step.

Keep us updated please at time-to-time we would be interested to hear how are you get on.

It’s nearly 4 years now. I’ve made really good progress when I didn’t work. Work and exercise seems to cause my problems.
 

SpiderBro

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It’s nearly 4 years now. I’ve made really good progress when I didn’t work. Work and exercise seems to cause my problems.

Hi Berendje and rest of BL community,

I have some input on your comment that I think aligns with something I woke up wanting to say and hopefully can be helpful to some of the other folks out there.

So yesterday, after 2 of my best weeks, I woke up with some of the worst anxiety I've had to date. It had been building over the course of a couple of days actually and I was experiencing so much adrenal fatigue, I thought about calling in to work and staying in bed all day. You all know the feeling. Exhausted beyond exhausted. Also, just felt really depressed because after doing great for so long, a setback was a real kick in the gut. I lied in bed for about a half hour before I said "nope, I'm not playing this game with you." I FORCED myself out of bed. I didn't know that energy even existed but I did it. As I got into the shower, the "LTC" sank it's claws in even deeper. The thought of my busy day and all the things I had to do while feeling like absolute death was overwhelming. Something different happened this time though. Where before I would bow down, I felt a certain aggression build inside of me. Out of nowhere, I warrior screamed, "NOT TODAY MOTHERFUCKER!". Keep in mind, I'm usually a very reserved guy. Thing is, I wasn't going to have it. I looked "LTC" right back in it's evil little eyes and told it it can take me down tomorrow, but no matter what it was not going to win today.

And guess what I realized? The "LTC" is completely powerless. It's pathetic. Even at it's absolute most goddamn worst, it couldn't even stop some ordinary guy from living life exactly how he wanted to. I worked the entire day along side it. It tried time and time again to fuck my world up and it simply couldn't. Did the day suck? You bet it did, but I never stopped, in fact I tried harder just to spite of it. After work, I did dog training lessons, went grocery shopping, and went to the gym. I worked out harder than I probably ever had. I was actually on the verge of tears at the end because I was so physically and emotionally drained. When I was driving back all these emotions bubbled up. The "LTC" was going to come in for the kill. Again, I don't know where it came from as I've never done it before, but I could do nothing but scream, "NOT TODAY MOTHERFUCKER." Maybe tomorrow I'll quit. Maybe tomorrow you'll get the best of me, but NO MATTER WHAT, you are not going to win today. I let out several more cathartic screams. Months of built up emotions poured out of me (honestly I probably looked insane to the people in traffic next to me lol). But once again the sad, pathetic, weak "LTC" could do absolutely nothing.

You know why it's pathetic? Because it only derives it's power by preying on compromised minds. Understandably, we are vulnerable right now, and that's why most of the time it wins. It won over me when I stopped going on dates. It won over me when I didn't go on that camping trip. It won over me when I said no to the once in a lifetime job promotion I had been working at for years (in the city I wanted to live in) came up. That's why it wins over people for years and they continue to be sick. But what we have to understand is that even at our absolute lowest point, we are still infinitely more powerful than it. You have the energy within. Your weakness and fatigue is just a trick of your mind and the terror you have of this condition.

So yeah, yesterday was one of the worst days of my life. Who cares? I know I'm going to have a lot more on my road to recovery. But now today, even though I still feel sorta crappy, feels like a breeze. I feel like if I could live my life exactly how I wanted to yesterday, what's stopping me every single day? Yeah, I'm still going to treat my body and mind kindly and give them all the rest they need for my nervous system to heal, but now it's personal when it comes to the "LTC". I've given it everything and now I'm going to start slowly taking those things back.

I read the same mantra to myself every day, and the last words are "I WILL RECOVER". I am going to conquer it or if it's not beatable, we are going to answer the age old question of what happens when an unstoppable force meets an unmovable object.

So who else here is with me? I want to hear more "NOT TODAY MOTHERFUCKER" stories. I know I'm new here and maybe it's not my place, but I'm already sick of reading about how scary "LTC" is, and how debilitating it can be. We all know that. This place is the only one I know of on the internet where we can talk to one another. Nobody else can understand what this is like and we need eachother. So instead of freaking our anxious minds out more, why not share our victories (no matter how small). Change the attitude a little bit. If some regular ol guy on the west coast of the US can take down "LTC" even for just a day, can you imagine how powerful we'd be collectively? If instead of scaring eachother we empowered eachother?

Anyway, just a thought. Sorry for the long rant.

Have a great day everyone.
-Josh
 

ld55

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I thought I could give my two cents about the topic of MDMA abuse. I'll keep it brief since I'm not much of a writer but Ive lurked bluelight and bunch of other drug forums for many years. Never actually posted anything though.

So I used a bunch of drugs for about 10 years but MDMA was the drug that almost fucked me up. It got to a point that I was abusing it so much that I'm embarrassed to even admit it even to other drug users. I remember taking over 1 gram of crystal mdma in one sitting many times and maximum amount I think was 1.5 grams of crystal mdma in one night. What resulted were some really bad symptoms, both psychological and physiological. I think the worst thing was how it screwed up with my ability to sleep. For a long time I thought I could never ever sleep without medication again. Of course there was the basic package of anxiety and depression. Every morning I felt like shit. I thought it would get better through out the day but it doesn't. At the end of the day I hoped that in the next morning I would feel better. That continuous cycle of hope that I would feel better tomorrow was keeping me going.

So, that was like 2-3 years ago I'm glad to say that I feel 98% percent recovered. I stopped using drugs and drinking alcohol but what helped me the most was vigorous exercise. Ive always been in a pretty good shape so it wasn't much of a problem to start going to the gym, swimming and running. For me exercising was the key for recovery and I cant recommend it enough. It is hard for sure but it will make you feel better and you will get through it. Also be easy on yourself and set moderate goals for yourself. Be patient and you will get better. And I think you will grow out of it as a stronger person. I think I have. Party's over.
 

trogere

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I get minor twitching from time to time, often in my eye lids but it has been a minor symptom that has never really concerned me. Waking up in the morning and stretching used to cause twitching and tightness in some muscles. Since I started taking CoQ10 and NADH, the muscle issues (along with most other symptoms) have almost disappeared.

I have read a bunch of reports about people on statine drugs having great results for their legs pains with CoQ10/NADH. I ordered a couple of bottles and I'll give it a try. People with CFS/fybromialgia have lower CoQ10 levels in their body.
 

Samoz

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Feb 6, 2019
Messages
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Hi felow bl
My story began in 11/2017 when i tried my first ecstady pill i will be brief
When i took that i suffered for 3 month of hell
All the symptoms of anxiety you can imagine
Muscle twitching
Tingling
Insomnia
Depression
Burning skin sensation in my back and arms legs
Blurry vision
akathisia
Etc
After 3 month of suffering i went to a psych
He gave me prozac amisulpride and xanax in 10 days almost the symptoms faded exept the depresion after 5 month of treatmant i was 100 % healed
Then i stoped the med by my own ( was stupid )
I started to drink heavily for one month i started to suffer from imbalance i went to the gp he gave prednisone( corticoid hormon stress)
I took it then bam all the symptoms came back in 11/2018
Since that date im suffering and tried the meds again but unfortunately they are not working on me
Im very desperate now
Does any body have an idea why the meds are not working anymore?
If i was healed the first ist that mean there is no dammage in my brain ?
Its been 2 years now
Thanks for helping
 

Macenroe

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Oct 6, 2013
Messages
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Try other meds man!! There is a lot of them.
I tried Seroxat, Lexapro, zoloft, effexor, now I am on seroxat + well utrin and feeling 80% better.
Keep trying don’t waste your time waiting!
 

Miru

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Oct 25, 2020
Messages
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took my first dose of mdma 7 july of 2020. it was pure white crystal. tested with reagent kit. 110 mg. im 73 kgs. i had afterglow effect for 2 or 3 days than terrible anxiety, panic attack, depression, suicidial toughts and other symptom. the first two months were pure hell. the depression faded away the first days of september but i have daily anxiety for all the day. tried 5htp helped me a bit. i had like 10 or 12 days without anxiety and depression. than rebound. i saw a neurologist and he gave me a therapy for this month. im actually on depakin chrono 300 mg two times a day, seroquel 50 mg, and rivotril. i also have racing thoughts when i try to sleep. DP DR and my tought are so intense that i think they are real, like if the events in the thoughts happened for real. will i heal myself and turn normal? sorry for the bad english not my first language.
 

AutoTripper

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I thought I could give my two cents about the topic of MDMA abuse. I'll keep it brief since I'm not much of a writer but Ive lurked bluelight and bunch of other drug forums for many years. Never actually posted anything though.

So I used a bunch of drugs for about 10 years but MDMA was the drug that almost fucked me up. It got to a point that I was abusing it so much that I'm embarrassed to even admit it even to other drug users. I remember taking over 1 gram of crystal mdma in one sitting many times and maximum amount I think was 1.5 grams of crystal mdma in one night. What resulted were some really bad symptoms, both psychological and physiological. I think the worst thing was how it screwed up with my ability to sleep. For a long time I thought I could never ever sleep without medication again. Of course there was the basic package of anxiety and depression. Every morning I felt like shit. I thought it would get better through out the day but it doesn't. At the end of the day I hoped that in the next morning I would feel better. That continuous cycle of hope that I would feel better tomorrow was keeping me going.

So, that was like 2-3 years ago I'm glad to say that I feel 98% percent recovered. I stopped using drugs and drinking alcohol but what helped me the most was vigorous exercise. Ive always been in a pretty good shape so it wasn't much of a problem to start going to the gym, swimming and running. For me exercising was the key for recovery and I cant recommend it enough. It is hard for sure but it will make you feel better and you will get through it. Also be easy on yourself and set moderate goals for yourself. Be patient and you will get better. And I think you will grow out of it as a stronger person. I think I have. Party's over.
Yes recovery, improvement and relief does occur in time. I too took a whole gram of MDMA in a night, much more even, especially in good old scholl pill form.

Like well over 2 grams worth. I feel I recovered well with time.

But absolutely, do not feel ashamed, guilty or embarassed. Just be open, honest, accepting and self-forgiving.

Harming others is more of a case for guilt and shame.
And I may be one of the, if not the heaviest past consumers of MDMA on this forum currently, but I'm not at all ashamed or embarassed.
 

SpiderBro

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Oct 21, 2020
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Hey everyone,

Been working on a compilation of some recovery stories and encouraging words I’ve come across so far:


It’s probably not the cleanest or most comprehensive list, so if anyone has a better one or has additional stories (particularly from thread 6 which was deleted before my time or thread 1 which I cannot seem to find for some reason) hit me up or feel free to add.

So strangely, I’ve read a lot things like on BL like, “the reason you don’t see too many success stories...”. This is perplexing to me because I found like 100 in a quick run through. The ratio of success to fail actually seems pretty extraordinarily high. I’m a member of the forum on healing-anxiety.com and there is virtually no difference. Like any anxiety disorder, there are always people who get stuck in the cycle for years or decades because they are unable to change their thought patterns. In fact, it might be more likely for LTCers to recover because most folks likely didn’t have the severe anxious tendencies and habits before their condition started.

Couple more thoughts on this...

1. For those of you in the future who are just discovering Bluelight, I wouldn’t even bother reading anything else posted on here other than the recovery stories. Listen to what the folks who got better are saying and tune out the rest of the noise. The only other thing you’ll find is a million different theories and tons of anxious energy to fill your already skittish mind with more scary thoughts. This is just my opinion, and I know you’re going to do it anyway, but I at least wanted to mention this.

2. I’ve seen this estimate a lot, and I tend to agree, that something like 95% of posters on here recover (usually within 2-3 years at the max). Yeah this is one of the worst things one could endure, but think about that for a second? There are some pretty horrendous afflictions with a much lower recovery rate. Everything about this is always put in such dark terms (understandably), but in a sense, the first thing someone new to this needs to be presented with is the “good news”. If you put in the work, stay patient, and let your nervous system calm, you’re practically guaranteed to get your life (or close to) back.

3. Think about how many people lurk, recover, and never post? I’d be willing to bet there are more lurkers than active members by a large margin. Anecdotal, but just in my short time with this affliction, I’ve already talked to a bunch of recovered folks on Reddit that don’t even know this place exists or barely came here. One guy who recovered in 8 months said he came here once or twice and they triggered panic attacks so he never came again and was 100% recovered on the shorter end of the typical timeframe.

4. It’s probably just the absolute most nervous people that sign up and end up regulars here. The last thing in the world I wanted to do was create a BL account, but I have such a hatred for this condition I’ll do whatever it takes to get myself and as many people as I can out of this hell. Has anyone ever read what they say to people with anxiety disorders? Stay off of the forums! So again, most of the folks here forever and not getting better are just like the ones you’ll find on anxiety forums for years.

That said, I do still see the tremendous potential this place could have. I’m in a group chat on Reddit where the guys were incredibly encouraging to one another. I joined late but I could go back through the old thread and watch how they all improved over the months because they helped each other and had a positive mindset. I think if the tone were to change to overwhelmingly positive vs negative it would do wonders to helping people instead of mostly just freaking them out.
 

Subban10

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Anyone experienced head twitching/tremor after an abuse of mdma ? (50 pills) and if it go away after long time ?
 

AutoTripper

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Anyone experienced head twitching/tremor after an abuse of mdma ? (50 pills) and if it go away after long time ?
I had numerous unsettling and scary symptoms over my 9 years of heavy use. Not a flicker or even a bare memory of that now. Just try not to worry yourself. It makes no difference except to make you more anxious and unhappy.

The old slogan- What you focus on grows!

So focus on peace, well being, happiness, relief, and trust that it will come. Just have to be patient.

Im very allergic to all and any of the supplements people have reported success with here on this forum, but a basic supplement programme suited towards MDMA recovery may also pay off in the short and the long run.
 

Samoz

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Hey everyone,

Been working on a compilation of some recovery stories and encouraging words I’ve come across so far:


It’s probably not the cleanest or most comprehensive list, so if anyone has a better one or has additional stories (particularly from thread 6 which was deleted before my time or thread 1 which I cannot seem to find for some reason) hit me up or feel free to add.

So strangely, I’ve read a lot things like on BL like, “the reason you don’t see too many success stories...”. This is perplexing to me because I found like 100 in a quick run through. The ratio of success to fail actually seems pretty extraordinarily high. I’m a member of the forum on healing-anxiety.com and there is virtually no difference. Like any anxiety disorder, there are always people who get stuck in the cycle for years or decades because they are unable to change their thought patterns. In fact, it might be more likely for LTCers to recover because most folks likely didn’t have the severe anxious tendencies and habits before their condition started.

Couple more thoughts on this...

1. For those of you in the future who are just discovering Bluelight, I wouldn’t even bother reading anything else posted on here other than the recovery stories. Listen to what the folks who got better are saying and tune out the rest of the noise. The only other thing you’ll find is a million different theories and tons of anxious energy to fill your already skittish mind with more scary thoughts. This is just my opinion, and I know you’re going to do it anyway, but I at least wanted to mention this.

2. I’ve seen this estimate a lot, and I tend to agree, that something like 95% of posters on here recover (usually within 2-3 years at the max). Yeah this is one of the worst things one could endure, but think about that for a second? There are some pretty horrendous afflictions with a much lower recovery rate. Everything about this is always put in such dark terms (understandably), but in a sense, the first thing someone new to this needs to be presented with is the “good news”. If you put in the work, stay patient, and let your nervous system calm, you’re practically guaranteed to get your life (or close to) back.

3. Think about how many people lurk, recover, and never post? I’d be willing to bet there are more lurkers than active members by a large margin. Anecdotal, but just in my short time with this affliction, I’ve already talked to a bunch of recovered folks on Reddit that don’t even know this place exists or barely came here. One guy who recovered in 8 months said he came here once or twice and they triggered panic attacks so he never came again and was 100% recovered on the shorter end of the typical timeframe.

4. It’s probably just the absolute most nervous people that sign up and end up regulars here. The last thing in the world I wanted to do was create a BL account, but I have such a hatred for this condition I’ll do whatever it takes to get myself and as many people as I can out of this hell. Has anyone ever read what they say to people with anxiety disorders? Stay off of the forums! So again, most of the folks here forever and not getting better are just like the ones you’ll find on anxiety forums for years.

That said, I do still see the tremendous potential this place could have. I’m in a group chat on Reddit where the guys were incredibly encouraging to one another. I joined late but I could go back through the old thread and watch how they all improved over the months because they helped each other and had a positive mindset. I think if the tone were to change to overwhelmingly positive vs negative it would do wonders to helping people instead of mostly just freaking them out.
So you think a big chance of recovery for the majority
 

SpiderBro

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So you think a big chance of recovery for the majority

Samoz,

I’ve seen that you post on here quite a bit and honestly man I feel for you. I can tell you are quite distressed. But you gotta quit coming on here looking for reassurance from others. Seeking that relief is the exact opposite thing you want to do when trying to recover from a severe anxiety disorder. It might make you feel better for a few minutes, but the issues perpetuating your anxiety cycle will remain unresolved.

Instead, get educated on how anxiety works and what it takes to fix yourself from within so you can calm your sensitized nervous system. Stay off these forums and perhaps consider some counseling. It’s been mentioned a bunch before but the book At Last A Life is a great place to start. The program on healing-anxiety.com is also very helpful.

Yeah, I do think recovery/resolution is likely for most people, but so what? I’ve only been dealing with this for 3 months. You probably know more about it than I do. Trust in yourself and take action in your own recovery instead of trying to get that quick fix from strangers on the internet.
 

AutoTripper

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It’s probably just the absolute most nervous people that sign up and end up regulars here
Just to make one important point very clear here, because you have laid it out so emphatically in black and white, most people, or at least a lot of members here, joined this forum to participate in general and specific drug discussion, share experience and knowledge, ask questions, brainstorm together, have a laugh depending on the thread, and also to help others by sharing that experience.

Some people like taking drugs, just like some people like racing cars, riding horses etc.

I think it is a huge miscomprehension and assertion to imply shame or a wrong move to simply create an account on Bluelight and participate, as if it somehow makes one weak.

That would be an absurd generalisation. Most members I have engaged with here are like myself, quite vastly experienced with using certain drugs over time, and an interest and passion for sharing their experiences and discussing and bantering on multiple topics, angles and aspects of drug use.

I mean, there is no shame or weakness in becoming a member of Bluelight. That would just be a huge misconception.
This is a very quiet thread here. Only a fraction of a percent of members join this forum to seek advice, guidance, and reassurance here specifically in relation to this topic.

It's a genuine interest, even passion, which draws most people to sign up here.

I get what you are saying, and the exact same thing has been advised before in this exact thread, numerous times.

But everybody has to find their own way of coping, and even if making a BL account only to seek advice and assurrance on LTC symptoms, just maybe that is their way of taking that first step, to get things moving inside, shifting mental energy.

Of course, dwelling in fear, wishing, hoping, regretting and wondering is unconstructive and inconducive to healing.

I had to make this point clear because I strongly disagree with your generalisation and categorisation of BL and it's core purpose and function, and members in general.

Though I'm not rebutting what you say in relation to dwelling in regret and anxiety and looking desperately for someone to say- it's going to be okay!

But even so, if that initial step helps in some way....

Time heals most things. We live, learn, and move on.
 

SpiderBro

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I had to make this point clear because I strongly disagree with your generalisation and categorisation of BL and it's core purpose and function, and members in general.

Absolutely, thank you for making that distinction. I'm referring to a very specific type of BL user for sure. Did not mean to blanket the entire site into that characterization.
 

AutoTripper

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Absolutely, thank you for making that distinction. I'm referring to a very specific type of BL user for sure. Did not mean to blanket the entire site into that characterization.
Hi. Thank you for being so reasonable and accepting my comments earlier. I realy was not attacking, belittle or questioning you. If I follow the meaning ofyour second line, yes I just wanted to make certain in my own mind that is not what you were implying.

I didn't actually think that is what you were suggesting however I wanted to emphasize the point that this is a very broad forum with multiple different threads and I feel can be an incredibly therapeutic social and very accepting communal online platform for so many people to share their passion and knowledge of drugs over time.

This can be a very therapeutic release and a very healthy practice for most people I feel it's simply sharing dead honest life if as we should.

I personally have gotten a lot of Joy out of participating in this forum and sharing my experience because I feel that there are so many truly caring and genuine and highly intelligent and experienced members here and there is so little attitude and such a high level of tolerance and acceptance of each other which I don't see to the same degree on any other forums I have frequented.

So yeah, I think I partly mistook you or wasn't entirely sure, but I was in the immediate aftermath of a 450ug legit LSD trip so please excuse me if I came across a little cranky or reproachful.

But regardless I just wanted to make the point that this is an incredibly wide topiced forum with a very broad range of members who participated for different reasons and the majority for the fun sake I would argue as well as learning.

That was all very kind on kava cannabis and estazolam tonight only so I will leave you there but...

I am sorry I usually warmly welcome all new members do the forum, so very warm welcome my friend.
 

Legitimate_pickle

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Hello everyone. Besides the usual aches, how is your cognitive functions? Such as short term memory, attention and stuff? I'm 2 months in, after doing about a gram. Been doing lions mane, bacopa, as well as all the sober healthy living thing, but i can really feel the impairment, such as walking into the wrong room all the time and stuff. Being a retard is really horrible, whats your timeline on this?
 
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