lionheart90
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https://www.dpmanual.com/articles/drug-induced-depersonalization/
Drink my thirsty friends. Drink and feel better lol.
Drink my thirsty friends. Drink and feel better lol.
Propanol lowers blood pressure. Be careful, one too many and you may find yourself with one (a blood pressure). Try and check your BP before taking.Today I've took 40mg propranolol, 2 times through the day and... wow this destroyed my anxiety. It's not like I stop being worried, but... makes me not care about LTC or my past at all. It's very cheap medicine, and no bad side effects, maybe the worst I've read is reversible hair loss.
My memory is a little better.
Sorry I dont know what you mean by that.Does anyone have ED issues from all this?
Sorry I dont know what you mean by that.
Hi, thanks for elaborating, appreciated. I hope you get some useful feedback. This is one area of MDMA which I never observed, considered or stored any useful oversight or memory of.Erection issues
Erection issues
I used to have a strong libido however, I noticed my erections haven't been as strong since the incident .
I believe it's pshychoclogical, I never had issues. Do you have strong libido? Of the answer is no, then I don't think you should worry.
he will go through health, meditate, you will not hurt anythingHi all,
I've been reading online for about a month now and though I'd ask for some advice and just get some of it out of my system.
I attended a festival this year about a month ago, May 17-19, and not knowing better I rolled all three days. (I've rolled before on these and they are from a trusted source, everyone in our group also rolled all three days, they had nothing wrong after).
In total I ingested orally about 4.5 - 5 pills. I cant remember if it was five because I think I threw a half away.
The first day I took a whole pill (250mg) and had a crazy roll, I re-dosed with another half. The second day I believe I only took one (250mg) (hence I believe I might've thrown away the other half by accident).
The last day I took two whole pills (very stupid I know) and I did not feel ANYTHING. I just felt irritated and angry.
The Monday I got home, nothing wrong. Tuesday comes and I get hit with something I dont want to ever experience again. Extreme DP/DR and depression, along with brain fog, extreme head tension and anxiety. I had a panic attack and went to the ER. They said everything was fine and gave me anxiety medication to sleep that night.
That first week was mainly depression with the DP/DR. That sort of faded first. The second week I just felt light-headed and had some ringing in my ears. The third week I had none of the previously descried symptoms, but I had slight head tension still, and my head would sometimes get very warm, almost like a fever. I would also wake up randomly in the night, but I would usually go back to sleep.
This has now been 4 weeks and I can say I feel like I am at 95%. I still have some slight head tension. Sometimes I'll feel out of it for a few minutes to half an hour. And just slight anxiety. What worries me is the head tension. I'm afraid I've severely damaged myself. I'm also worried about problems arising down the road. My focus is good, my memory is the same as before (I always forget if I lock the door when I leave lol) and I've been doing cardio basically everyday. I try not to focus on the tension and waking up at night, but these two symptoms are keeping me from believing Ill be okay. I did talk to my doctor over the phone, and he said to give it more time, I just want to see what anyone on here has to say about the tension. It seems to be in the back of my head right above my neck area, and sometimes but very rarely I feel it around my forehead.
Thoughts? I'm staying hopeful for a speedy recovery, this has definitely caused me to change my life around in a positive way (more exercise, healthier diet, more organized and focused on my goals).
I appreciate any feedback. Much Love.
I'm coming up to 2 years in October and haven't really improved much all I can say is eat right stop doing drugs and stay away from anti depressantsHey all, currently on month 4.5 of LTC.
I've been experiencing a myriad of symptoms which have impacted my life severely to the point where I'm questioning my existence. Being 19, the future just seems so bleak. I'm smart, attend a go8 uni and had a bright future ahead of me but things have taken a turn for the worst.-
Here are my symptoms:
Depression- Most prominently emotional numbness/blank and apathy, my mood is mostly flat and dull, things that sparked emotion prior to LTC don't affect me at all now. I also lost all interest in my hobbies and things that sparked joy in my life. It's as if the dopamine reward circuit in my brain shut off. Just going through the motions nowadays. Everything feels/is 'meh' at most. No motivation to do anything except sleep. Was obsessed with bodybuilding and fitness before, but nowadays finding the motivation to hit the gym is very difficult. IT feels as though my former self and personality has been completely stripped away from me. Just empty.
Anxiety- Cannot get restful sleep as my mind is constantly racing with thoughts. Wake up feeling like shit, that dread 'ughhh' feeling when thinking about the day ahead. Random bouts of feelings of impending doom during the first month. Random bouts of anxiety occurs that never used to happen, at work I'm constantly on edge, never relaxed and always questioning myself in my mind.
First 2 months I was living in a haze, brain was severely clouded and everything felt fake, as if I was watching myself from a third person perspective.
Cognitive abilities- Short term memory noticeably affected, sometimes struggle to find the right word (this has improved).
Before LTC, I used to do whatever and didn't give a shit, acting goofy, making jokes and always having an opnion in my social circle but now I have nothing on my mind.
I just want the drive and energy for like back. Im so so tired.
Its just so demoralising that the fact its taking so long to recover.
Trying to stay positive.
Hey, real sorry man for your suffering and unhappiness. I want to encourage you to do just one thing- keep hope! It is vital and instrumental here for recovery, or to put it another way- navigating your way out of the Maze you have wandered into is how I like to see it.Hey all, currently on month 4.5 of LTC.
I've been experiencing a myriad of symptoms which have impacted my life severely to the point where I'm questioning my existence. Being 19, the future just seems so bleak. I'm smart, attend a go8 uni and had a bright future ahead of me but things have taken a turn for the worst.-
Here are my symptoms:
Depression- Most prominently emotional numbness/blank and apathy, my mood is mostly flat and dull, things that sparked emotion prior to LTC don't affect me at all now. I also lost all interest in my hobbies and things that sparked joy in my life. It's as if the dopamine reward circuit in my brain shut off. Just going through the motions nowadays. Everything feels/is 'meh' at most. No motivation to do anything except sleep. Was obsessed with bodybuilding and fitness before, but nowadays finding the motivation to hit the gym is very difficult. IT feels as though my former self and personality has been completely stripped away from me. Just empty.
Anxiety- Cannot get restful sleep as my mind is constantly racing with thoughts. Wake up feeling like shit, that dread 'ughhh' feeling when thinking about the day ahead. Random bouts of feelings of impending doom during the first month. Random bouts of anxiety occurs that never used to happen, at work I'm constantly on edge, never relaxed and always questioning myself in my mind.
First 2 months I was living in a haze, brain was severely clouded and everything felt fake, as if I was watching myself from a third person perspective.
Cognitive abilities- Short term memory noticeably affected, sometimes struggle to find the right word (this has improved).
Before LTC, I used to do whatever and didn't give a shit, acting goofy, making jokes and always having an opnion in my social circle but now I have nothing on my mind.
I just want the drive and energy for life back. Im so so tired.
I know for a fact that'll recover, Its just so demoralising that the fact its taking so long.
Ill be off these forums as excessively ruminating on this will do no good and only hinder the recovery process.
Will update when I recover.
Stay positive and keep fighting
Hey man, appreciate your positivity! We are all in this together and its only a matter of time before this becomes a distant memory. And for my usage, I took 400-500mgs~ of MDMA every 4 weeks for 3 months.Hey, real sorry man for your suffering and unhappiness. I want to encourage you to do just one thing- keep hope! It is vital and instrumental here for recovery, or to put it another way- navigating your way out of the Maze you have wandered into is how I like to see it.
A maze can seem like there is no way out and no hope when actually there usually is a way out and keeping that belief to keep looking for it is absolutely vital to actually finding the exit but also to your mindset and emotions and experience while you are in that Maze.
It can be heaven or Hell depending on what we think and believe anything in life can be like that any single experience on any single day if we have overbearing anxiety and fear and negative thought patterns and beliefs we can be having a truly terrible time unable to think and functions and look forward and suffering physically.
I know this because I suffer with extremely severe anxiety myself due to debilitating, complicated and demanding health conditions and I can see how for absolutely no reason other than my mind and emotions I can feel absolutely terrible in every sense physical and mental depending on the thoughts in my head and vice versa when these anxieties are cleared and put to rest.
So please try to be mindful of the fact that things can appear to be so much worse because of thought patterns and conditioning and when we completely believe that things are fixed and that we have no power this can create an illusion of hopelessness and despair.
So I only wish to encourage you and remind you to please hold hope and belief even if you find it difficult at presents hold that thought high and expect to recover without doubting it and without fear.
And yes I wouldn't discourage you from taking a break from reading about and thinking about this subject so that you can gradually ruminate less about it and just focus on taking one day at a time and being thankful for anything you can in life which I'm sure would be a good exercise for you to practice we all have so much more to be thankful for than we keep ourselves conscious of.
I just wanted to ask you out of curiosity and in the interest of objectivity here and learning from all experiences what sort of MDMA usage lead to your LTC?
Of course you don't need to answer that I'm just interested and curious.
Wishing you all the best bro stay strong and like I say hold hope there is always so much more hope and potential than we realise.