What’s your YouTube channel?Alright I'm getting off of here permanently. Still need Seroquel to fall asleep soundly but most things are back to normal. I think I'm at that 90-95% recovered asymptotic line where it'll be 6-18 months before everything goes away completely but who knows.
Times your friend. Of all the things the passing of time is what will make you better though things like exercise and abstinence from drugs are multipliers in your recovery.
I decided to go ahead and self-prescribe ssris to myself. <<snip>>. So if you want to get around a doctor you can order a barrage of SSRIs and then self-experiment.
<<snip>>. I'm taking Setraline for mild anxiety, depression, and to completely kills my sex drive (so I can focus). I'm taking them to change my personality, numb me, make me more effective.
Past few years have been rough and I'm a little older at 36, hits home hard when you lose everything and your a little older.
That's probably in part why I went too crazy on the drugs, moronically. As a white dude I guess I'm just a little more self-reflective, and that's why so many of us opioid overdose, kills the pain of reflection... and then maybe kills you.
Other than a YouTube channel that makes me $1k-$1800 a month I have no sources of income. I'll be a CNA then getting my ADN license for nursing then more from there. I just wish I had been a little more stable when I was younger and figured this out then. Still have other ideas but will wait a bit.
I may switch to Escitalopram (Lexapro) as I've heard some people taking that and going nofap for over a year (y) lol
So glad bluelight had/has all these threads. I haven't read every post in the backlog of recovery threads 1-6/7 but enough to get a comprehensive view and people from all walks of life. So if you haven't, to all those who come across this post in the future, I recommend.
Best of luck to all of you.
Watch out for your Prolactin levels after taking SSRI.Hey peeps!
I'm done with this place but know how bad some of you are hurting. So figured I'd make this post. I've been taking generic zoloft and prozac (yeah I'm combing both) I've never felt this damn good life. Holyyyyy Sheeeaaatttt!!
Yeah, 200mg zoloft and 60mg prozac. YEEEEE-HAAAAAA
Anyway the inhousepharmacy ssris are legit.
So don't be afraid to pull the trigger folks if you're iffy about the SSRIS. Talk about being able to reprogram yourself chemically.
Yeah still need seroqel a little but its getting better. Crew, do what you need to to hang in there.
Don't lose hope. See a doctor and get them to check you!tw suicide
just checking in here
i'm almost six months in to this now and still struggling a lot with headaches/head pressure, dizziness and dissociation. It's really getting to a point now where i am considering suicide. I can't really deal with living like this for much longer and I dont know what to do with myself. I'm only 19 and I have such loving friends and family and boyfriend I really dont want to do this to them but I actually cant deal with it. I already dealt with depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts before this happened to me in January and now this is another reason why i should. all i want is to feel like my normal self again i feel so debilitated and exhausted by this and i dont know when it will come to an end. if anyone has a recovery story who had a similar symptoms to me what did you do to ease them. im just really looking for some reassurance from people who have been through similar because this is so hard and i feel like ive ruined my life and especially these younger years i was supposed to enjoy. i just wish this had never happened i have so much guilt and trauma from this i dont know how to help myself. i just want to be normal again.