Weed not only is worsening the symptoms, it can cause itself dpdr, good news is that at least my dpdr was purely psychological, so once I've accepted it it went awayHey guys ive finally realized that i just have a bad dp/dr, all of my symptoms come from dp dr too and also for the past 3 weeks or so ive started to have headaches and my jaw has alot of tension, it seems like im progressively getting worse but im trying to manage the anxiety and so far deep breaths help quite a bit and they also seem to eliminate my jaw tension, i dont understand or seem to notice any anxiety because i have anhedonia so i dont feel anything, but it seems like my body is in that state, its surreal the past 6 months have felt like ive been in a dream. Ive decided to quit smoking weed as it seems to be bad for dpdr, i only smoked weed during because it seemed like the only thing that helped with my symptoms but i have to try and get better without it to see if it makes a difference
Yeah i realized weed makes my dpdr a little bit worse the next 2 days but when i use it, it makes the symptoms go away atleast. honestly since realizing its all dpdr and watched a few enlightening videos on it i feel like im better everyday, i just need to remove that subconciou anxiety that i get, wich is hard because i dont feel it physically like i normally would so i dont always know its there but it is. Im getting better at recognizing it and changing my mind towards the anxiety and its helping alot, changing my mindset from thinking ”when will this end, if ever” ”i cant wait another 2–6 months life just feels terrible under this condition” to ” its okay its all in my mind, anxiety is causing it and nothing else” has helped alot, and i mean alot just in a few days.Weed not only is worsening the symptoms, it can cause itself dpdr, good news is that at least my dpdr was purely psychological, so once I've accepted it it went away
Yeah i realized weed makes my dpdr a little bit worse the next 2 days but when i use it, it makes the symptoms go away atleast. honestly since realizing its all dpdr and watched a few enlightening videos on it i feel like im better everyday, i just need to remove that subconciou anxiety that i get, wich is hard because i dont feel it physically like i normally would so i dont always know its there but it is. Im getting better at recognizing it and changing my mind towards the anxiety and its helping alot, changing my mindset from thinking ”when will this end, if ever” ”i cant wait another 2–6 months life just feels terrible under this condition” to ” its okay its all in my mind, anxiety is causing it and nothing else” has helped alot, and i mean alot just in a few days.
I didnt believe ever that anxiety could be the cause of LTC, simply because i never even had a panic attack, well ive never had one in my life so i guess my brain works different there, but maybe initially it was caused by chemical disturbances wich lead to anxiety wich lead to the symptoms,
i dont know, but all i know now is that most of symptoms are only here because of my mindset and changing it is the key, im confident ill get recovered before summer or during, wich was my dream anyway, and if i dont, its fine cus i know dp dr is a curable condition, just need to find your focus elsewhere and stop thinking about every single feeling in your body as a negative one especially during the ltc
i swear past few days when ive had even a headache or any sensation in my body, if i close my eyes and focus on the sensation and welcome it, accept it and think to myself that its okay and i dont worry about it, has instantly made the symptom go away, guys i cant recommend this enough, mindfulness is great but its better to be aware of your body and the sensations, put your focus on the sensation and try to enchant it with some positive feelings and acceptance, and only then, your body knows that there is no danger and no reason to output this sensation.
i hope the best to everybody whos having symptoms right now and i hope this post helps you recognize what you might have, also dont be discouraged if what i said doesnt work everytime, if you try and the sensation doesnt go away, atleast your subconcious know that you are accepting it and maybe, next week it wont come back anymore, not only this has helped me with symptoms, it has made me more positive about recovery.
Also for the men in here, you might think this is all bullcrap but i will still say this, as soon as your ejaculate, your body goes into a state where it primarily focuses on making more semen, and everything else becomes less important, its our vital energy that makes men men. Im not saying you should go 3 months without ejaculation but see if atleast every 3 days makes a difference for you, me im almost 2 months without ejaculation and my energy is through the roof, ive even gained some of my libido back, wich is essential
thank you for reading i hope someone gets something out of this comment
Yes you do! Trying to reassure us on something that happened to you a long azz tyme ago!I clearly have a major problem with using the site.
Thank you a lotY’all are sexist. I bet if I was a dude writing the things I write yous would all be like ‘yes brother’. I guess even at the 11th hour boys will be boys.
I’m definitely going after this one. Swear this time. It’s brought back a lot of memories for me, but it feels good reflecting on how far I’ve came. It just popped into my head during lockdown and then hearing about the guy who killed himself really got to me. I didn’t know him personally and I don’t know what other stuff he had going on, but I just think what a waste and that he could have got better if he hadn’t listened to bullshit for years.
There is, allegedly, a known phenomenon after taking MDMA where some people cannot regulate their body temperature correctly for approximately 6 months to 9 months. I don’t know if I believe in this and there is not really any science behind it. It’s not thought to be dangerous, but it could explain why people freak out for a bit and then settle down. Please don’t start freaking out about your body temperature. There might also be something to do with a liver enzyme that some people might be missing? I don’t know, my brain was never interested in the science. Yous are not brain damaged. Some of yous have dedicated so much time to this, you could be a neuro scientist.
I was so scared after my MDMA experience that I slept next to my mum for a year. I would walk around my house saying that I wasn’t inside my body. I would come home from school and I honestly thought that I was about to die. I would ask my mum to hold my hand and tell me stories from my childhood whilst I was slipping away. I genuinely believed I was about to die. I look back and I think 1. LOL-cringe you little lunatic 2. I was so fucking brave.
I had all the symptoms without the benefit of being able to rationalise them with an adult mind. Now I have my own house, my own family, a degree and a great job. After a while the whole experience just becomes another memory. For me, it’s not even a bad memory. It gave me a zest for life. I went all over the world.
Don’t allow yourself to believe that this is anything other than anxiety. I begged my mum to let me get every scan and test even after my routine ones ended and they were all fine. When you hear that little: What if? voice. Just tell it to sit back down. It gets better. It gets so much better. Nobody can tell you how long it’s going take. Everybody is different. Nobody knows if you might need medication or not. Everybody is different. I done it without, but I don’t know if this was the right decision.
When I was growing up everybody watched Skins and it glorified things like MDMA and you get the Miley Cyrus song ‘Molly’ and probs other things now. Then at the other end of the spectrum you get horror movies about drugs that are not really realistic. There is never actually anything in the media that shows the reality of drugs. My mental health was the one thing that I didn’t consider before taking MDMA.
I hope some people got something from my posts. P.s. if you’re worried you’re going to end up crazy like me, don’t be, this is my baseline
hey man,Hey guys. So ive skimmed through almost every page of this thread. Its been interesting seeing everyones progression. Here is my story. I need some help. Im in a dark place.
So this all started after taking M mid Feb of last year (13 months ago). Nothing crazy maybe .25-.3 the first night and a tiny little bomb the next night. Not even half a point. I had a great time, no panic attacks and had a solid couple days of after glow. However a few days after i laid down to take a nap like i usually do (was a pro sleeper) and i noticed my shoulder jerk as i was just drifting off. No problem this has happened before. But it kept happening. A shoulder, my head, my leg etc and this has not stopped since. These body jerks have completely ruined sleep for me. They happen every single night without fail. I became extremely anxious about this and have since gone on to develop muscle twitches (BFS whatever. Im not too concerned about) and strangely a VERY sensitive startle reflex. If something moves to quickly or I see somebody trip or drop something on TV my body will jolt a little bit. I also get the occasional body jerk throughout the day.
I have only seen these hypnic jerks mentioned on here a few times. I cant live with this forever however it doesnt seem to be getting better at all. I have started taking zoloft which is making me feel like garbage and I think making the symptoms worse. I have a history of anxiety before all this. I actually had a year long stint with DPDR in 2013 which I overcame.
I was taking wellbutrin at the time I took the M. I did research before to see if I would die and it seemed that most everyone thought it was "safe" seeing as they work on different systems (dopamine instead of Serotonin) and so many people take the stuff while on it. Every doc I have seen seems to think it shouldnt have been a problem. They are all kinda shocked I reacted like this and several have said it is mood based. Ive had EEG, MRI, blood, sleep study, see a naturopath. All tests were normal. M was from a trusted source and like 20 of my friends have all done the same stuff.
Ive done M maybe 5 times in my entire life. All others have been fine. I cant believe this is happening to be honest.