I will move in one week to my flat share again, was living at my parents house since the ltc started. Im afraid of not managing living on my own and passing out when beein alone and stuff like that.What does your anxiety? Like what are your fears and thoughts and what do you feel?
for me recovery means complete disappearance of symptoms so that's why I didn't count him. I appreciate how much better he has gotten though. And about not taking medication Rphilli, as it was quite the miracle cure for you I understand you feel frustrated about it but there are a lot of people on bluelight, especially severe cases that have really bad experiences with srri's and the likes. Also some nasty side effects can happen. So yea I will rather sit this one out. I didn't have mental issues before this so I feel like I probably won't need them if ever I get back to baseline. Cheers.
Well yes. But I am a delayed onset case which means it first slowly got worse instead of hitting me just from one day to the next. Now it has been at its worst for like 5 months. I am still quite sure it is the drugs cause I don't really have other stressors in my life and I have never been anxious before. Apart from that I am not anxious about everyday things like school or sumthing. I am only intensely scared about my mental wellfare and the fear itself. Also an hypochondriac. But anyways the delayed onset means first it had to get worse before it gets better (its kinda stable now). So I guess that means the getting better starts a bit later you know. This hasn't been an upward track as for most but more of a downward track. Which is sometimes really depressing. Still if I may so myself I have handled this quite well. Being one of the worst cases (anxiety wise anyways, I doubt except maybe coder there's anyone who is as much physically fucked up from the anxiety) I have always gone to school and spend a lot of time in public transport and such. I feel like if I just keep on going one day it almost has to get better you know. Cheers mate.Does it mean you made no progress in this 7 month?
Hey, thanks for the replyHi Ro.
I wasn't thinking of you specifically when I wrote that post, as there are other guys currently on meds too that are considered recovered on here. And I'm not saying they're not. I'm not saying you're not. I remember posts you've written about your recovery earlier (I remember a lot from this forum) and I find your recovery very comforting. But I can't identify with your recovery completely because I've never been on medication or had any issues my entire life. I know you are currently on multiple medications, granted for unrelated issues, and because of that I can't identify completely with your story. I hope this isn't offending in any way, it's just a fact, and the standard I hold for my recovery is relative to my prior state. This will be different for everybody. I know you recovered all the LTC-related symptoms, but it's still hard for me to relate completely.
It's true that not everyone recovers. Sadly, one individual apparently ended up committing suicide due to a long, unimproved LTC, which is very tragic in my opinion.Now, regarding the post I wrote a few days ago. I realize that the point about the ratio of recovered users was uneccasary to make. However, I still believe that saying that everybody recovers no matter what is a fairy tale. Obviously there is no point to keep arguing this, so I'll let it go. I'm just the type of dude that would rather know all the facts however dim, and see what I can do from there. I don't want to turn into some of the guys from an earlier bluelight epoch that used to straight up tell guys that there wasn't any hope and that they had brain damage.
You're probably feeling really stressed out, yes?I believe there is much hope, and this is based on the stories, however few, that we've seen on this site. Including yours Ro.
It's also true that I've hit a rough patch again in my recovery, and it's got me depressed. Actually, the most depressed I've been since very early in my comedown, but it seems to be a rather rational depression. In the beginning my depression was brutal and existential. At that point I would still have been depressed despite winning the lottery. I'm not like that now. I'm just sad that I still have to keep fighting like this. Work is suddenly very hard again, and I'm thinking about how long I can actually keep fighting at work day after day after day.
I'm not feeling the stress directly, but still, yeah, I think I am. I had a long break during the summer (8 weeks), and before that I had some smaller one week breaks here and there, and I always felt very good during the breaks. During summer I felt more or less recovered on many occasions, though I had to abstain completely from alcohol and caffeine.You're probably feeling really stressed out, yes?