I think it was more the way you said it. I agree with you that taking research chemicals doesn't make you a scientist, and I also agree that it can become a vehicle to rationalize dysfunctional drug use. But this doesn't hold up for everyone, and you can also do fruitful experiments without being a scientist.I'm not able to read digital rooms, I apologize. I require facial expression and tone.
There's no "probably" the better option, but I'm withdrawing from this thread.
I will not be able to understand it any further, it seems.
"Never call people not scientists" has been added to my list of social norms I'm really sorry, I didn't want to say anything bad, or derail anything, I was just worried about OP tbh, because he/she wants to take more, and already has difficulty achieving a pleasurable experience, which can be a potentially very dangerous situation.
I find it a bit amoral & weird to give tips and tricks in destroying oneself.