Yeah basically I'm just trying to maintain my erection because it seems like it's always a tease.. where I'll get the mojo/drive to get so fucking hard but when it comes time for action.. I'm pissed off and my girl is patient as fuck with me and goes down on me and that gets me hard but then it's back to the same old shit and I try not to over analyze too much but it's easier said than done. Besides all that I have trauma/ptsd from 4 months ago some fucked up shit happened to me and I don't know if I'm allowed to talk about that on here because it's of the content.. but let's just say I'm glad I overcame that shit and the people who fucked with me got what they deserved.. but one of them got a little too much I think and that shit gave me nightmares. But yeah man I try not to be in my head too much and my girl loves me but I just wanna fucking be able to keep a damn erection and I've already told my primary before what good is it if I have a 9 inch dick if I can't keep it hard and satisfy my chick.. and he didn't seem like he cared. He wants to believe that I'm still a healthy 33 year old with no problems but he forgets that I used meth heavily and I'm on anti-depressants so how could that not effect my libido in any way, shape or form. I need a new doctor that's going to take this more seriously and help resolve the issue instead of just saying, "breathe.. smell the air outside and go for a hike, meditate" Like bro.. I do all that and then some. It's enough for my girl to blow me and me get hard but what is it you don't understand when I tell you I can't maintain an erection possibly because it's the anti-depressants lol I might just come off anti-depressants all together man shit's not meant for men. If anything the anti-depressants are fucking with my TRT. I am on 100mgs weeekly and the last time I got my levels checked my testosterone was 309.. still in the low range.. the fuck?
If you can get your test shots increased a bit that could help (125mg-150mg/week), and maybe you could talk with your doctor about tapering of the SSRIs.
That test level is low and taking more you surely would have an energy and mood lift.
If that works you would be taking only one drug instead of going from 2 to 3 drugs, which given the drugs involved is probably a much better option for you.
If you can't increase your test dose, taking a low dose Proviron every day will have a similar effect by increasing the % of free testosterone (most of the testosterone in your blood, up to 90%, is inactive due to it being bound by SHBG).
Proviron binds to SHBG kicking off the testosterone in the process, and it also has mood, focus, energy and libido boosting properties on its own being a close DHT analogue.
If you have male pattern baldness it will accelerate it, and does not have muscle building properties.