In Memoriam Captain.Heroin

I have confirmed this with family. CaptainHeroin, who has been a senior moderator here for so long, has recently passed away from a tragic OD. He has helped me for very many years with harm reduction, along with countless others. He helped me laugh when no one else could. It is with great sadness I announce this to the BL community. I am weeping.
 
I have confirmed this with family. CaptainHeroin, who has been a senior moderator here for so long, has recently passed away from a tragic OD. He has helped me for very many years with harm reduction, along with countless others. He helped me laugh when no one else could. It is with great sadness I announce this to the BL community. I am weeping.
I am so sorry for your loss. I will pray for all of you and your loved ones. Be safe out there. 💕💔
 
My friend OD'd in my bathroom a few hours. I wrote a post that's in the dark side now. Survivors hell. CH and now Nate.
 
although you may not have known me as igor captain we have crossed paths in the past.

may your soul be granted eternal ecstasy and know that your contributions to the world were great.

you will be greatly missed.
 
I can't count how many old schoolers are dead either from drugs or tragic accidents.
We play a very dangerous game I'm in pretty shocked that I'm still standing and some of the people I consider much more intelligent and knowledgeable than me have passed away. It's beyond sad and for a long time wondered when my turn was. But I think I just made it through. Now I just need to stay sane from the meth, haven't done h in 5 months.
Hope your blessing out up in heaven brother RIP!
 
Haven't been here in a while and I find out CH has passed. What a shock and feeling sad though I barely knew him. He was still a senior moderator when I joined but he than resigned but was still active on bluelight. He seemed to be doing okay when I joined but from what I read he was very depressed. He was a legend and will be missed. After being clean for quite a while something went terribly wrong to make him start again. May his memory be eternal and RIP CH.
 
I'm so sorry to hear this. I didn't know him personally, but he was a familiar name to me on BL, back in the old days. My condolences to those who loved him.
 
I was thinking about you today Andrew. What you would tell me in this situation. What new artwork you would want to show me after I brought it up. Wish I could call you on discord right now. Love you man.
 
RIP Andrew, I can tell you really love Bluelight. 95,000 posts is incredible.

I'm dedicating one of my favorite songs to you.





See you on the other side buddy. <3
 
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I miss you TERRIBLY. You were really SWEET. ♡
 
God it hurts to see someone who worked so hard on helping others accidently hurt himself.

Before i made an account here your information really did alot for me. Thank you for that <3
 
I'm still not doing well. He really explained it.

I thank his friends so much for saying they would be there for support. That is how I know it is starting to be real.

😢😢😢😭😢😭😢😢


Okay I will try again.
 
Pretty upset to hear this. He was a great dude willing to take the time to help and give advice to anyone. He will be missed bluelight wont be the same without him..i.havent been on here much the last few years but he was really a staple member back when I frequented the forums

RIP my heart bleeds for his family and friends, and everyone here on BL will miss him like no other!
 
I now regret putting off joining here for so long, since that hesitation made me miss my opportunity to ever talk to you.
I probably read every single one of your posts, feeling as though we might connect, since much of your obvious issues with chronic depression / suicidal thoughts were a mirror to my own.

... My sincere condolences go out to everyone here who personally knew you. They will have lost that very rare thing ; a real friend.

To me you were the truest voice of this place, and I feel I should thank you even though you cannot now acknowledge the thanks.
I never had the privilege of exchanging thoughts and words with you, through my own negligence. Allow me to wish you peace, comrade, wherever you are.

'O Captain, our Captain!
The prize you sought is won :
Your ship is anchor'd safe at last,
The fearful voyage done.'

(paraphrased from Walt Whitman)
 
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