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Tapering I'm in a world of hell with oxycodone withdrawal. Please help ?

Oxy creeps up

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Hi everyone. I'm still trying to figure out how to navigate this site. I'm sure this has been mentioned a lot. I'm 6 days off oxycodone. It was prescribed. For 2 years on and off but the last 6 months daily. So 100mg of the instant release not the extended one. Technically I was prescribed 60mg but it didn't cover it so I increased myself. I did everything I could to prepare myself. I could tell I was getting psychologically hooked. I've been physically dependant for a while due to long term serious pain. At one stage I was on a total of 140mg between slow release and instant. I got off that with the help of some buprenorphine I had from a previous surgery. This time I only had a small amount.

Anyway I need to know what the hell. Is happening. I stopped on Friday last week. Its not Thursday. I used some of the buprenorphine to get me through. I also had some codiene. I figured that would help. I was in pain and physical withdrawal but last time I only had 3 bad days and was done. I kept taking low dose codeine so say 60mg here and there (for me that's low).

Two nights ago, so night 4, I stopped all the codiene too. Oh my. I was climbing the walls all night. I couldn't lay still. Sitt still. Diarrhea, vomiting, stomach pain, sweat, heart rate. Complete dissociation. No appetite. I got some valium from my doctor. He gave me 5 2mg. 2mg?‍♀. They do nothing. Last night again, up all night climbing the walls. Body aching, have to keep moving it. Can't lay or sit still. I acne so close to having one more dose. I didn't. BUT I did have half a tablet of physeptone which I methadone that was prescribed to me by by pain team. Have I ruined all my work. I'd be a week free of opiods tomorrow. Bjy I've taken. 5mg of methdone last night. I just couldn't do another night of insomnia and agony and pacing the halls when I have so much to do today. I don't wnat to take it again. It seemed to help me get to sleep and not twitch so much.

Is it a bad idea to have a half a tablet tonight again only of the physical withdrawals are severe? Thanks so much if you read this far
 

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Hi @Oxy creeps up - welcome to Bluelight 13823

I'm going to shoot this over to Health and Recovery, where you'll get a better and quicker response to your question.

By the way, did you quit cold turkey?
 

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If you keep taking methadone then you aren't gonna break your opioid dependency. Since it's a low dose you're probably not back at square 1 but you definitely aren't opioid free either - if 60mg of codeine extended your dependency, then 5mg of methadone definitely will. You were nearing the finish line as well at day 6. If I were you I'd prepare for this - having commitments you need to keep while going through opioid withdrawal is a bad idea, you should clear your schedule and try and source some comfort meds. Gabapentin is a huge help, as would be a decent supply of diazapam (12mg!? that's RIDICULOUS) and clonidine is useful for a lot of people as well.
 

Oxy creeps up

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If you keep taking methadone then you aren't gonna break your opioid dependency. Since it's a low dose you're probably not back at square 1 but you definitely aren't opioid free either - if 60mg of codeine extended your dependency, then 5mg of methadone definitely will. You were nearing the finish line as well at day 6. If I were you I'd prepare for this - having commitments you need to keep while going through opioid withdrawal is a bad idea, you should clear your schedule and try and source some comfort meds. Gabapentin is a huge help, as would be a decent supply of diazapam (12mg!? that's RIDICULOUS) and clonidine is useful for a lot of people as well.
Hey,

Thanks so much for your response. Gosh my initial post barely made sense with all the spelling errors. I am so so so annoyed at myself for the methadone. But the measly 10mg of diazepam did nothing and I felt like my body was exploding every five seconds. Today has been hell again. Nausea and vomiting and diarohea. I asked my doctor for help today and he's ignored me. The worst thing is I have a whole box of oxycodone in the cupboard and they are starting to look appealing. I just assumed it would be the same as last time where I was over it after day 3. So the methodone will have sent me back to where I was? Gosh how did I get to this
 

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you’re not even close to back at square one because of 5mg of methadone. don’t keep taking codeine and methadone and random opiates, or you will draw this out longer than necessary.

sucks the doc only gave you 10mg of valium, because i think it would help if you relaxed. you’re not into anything too horrible. coming off opiates sucks, but you’re coming off of 100mg of oxy. and you’ve had a week of greatly reduced doses. you’ve definitely got this. stick it out. and consider giving away or flushing that oxycodone. bet you’d feel better if it were gone.
 

Oxy creeps up

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you’re not even close to back at square one because of 5mg of methadone. don’t keep taking codeine and methadone and random opiates, or you will draw this out longer than necessary.

sucks the doc only gave you 10mg of valium, because i think it would help if you relaxed. you’re not into anything too horrible. coming off opiates sucks, but you’re coming off of 100mg of oxy. and you’ve had a week of greatly reduced doses. you’ve definitely got this. stick it out. and consider giving away or flushing that oxycodone. bet you’d feel better if it were gone.
Thank you. I'm just panicking. I have never felt so awful in my life. My head won't stop pounding and my body feels like lead. I have seen people in heroin withdrawal at work and I'm sure it's the same. I can't flush it as I do have severe flare ups of pain. I've managed to avoid dependency on these meds before by never taking for more than three days. I have no real desire to take one now. I couldn't go back to day 1. The days are getting harder. I thought I was being smart keeping some codeine to ease the oxy but obviously that was ridiculous. I am so over this all. So so silly to go cold turkey from that dose
 

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Have I ruined all my work. I'd be a week free of opiods tomorrow.
Don't beat yourself up. It's never productive.

I can't speak to the chronic pain thing, aside from having an ex wife I lived with for 5 years who had chronic pain. Does your pain mgmt team have a plan for you?

I can speak a bit to recovery tho, having been in and out of it for 20 years, and if there's one thing I'm pretty sure of it's that, this too will pass, and beating ourselves up for slips is not productive.

All those negative emotions associated with withdrawals and slips tend to lead us to just go back to the substance that was causing us to feel bad about ourselves in the first place, which is a pointless and destructive downward spiral.
 

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Thank you. I'm just panicking. I have never felt so awful in my life. My head won't stop pounding and my body feels like lead. I have seen people in heroin withdrawal at work and I'm sure it's the same. I can't flush it as I do have severe flare ups of pain. I've managed to avoid dependency on these meds before by never taking for more than three days. I have no real desire to take one now. I couldn't go back to day 1. The days are getting harder. I thought I was being smart keeping some codeine to ease the oxy but obviously that was ridiculous. I am so over this all. So so silly to go cold turkey from that dose
It's alright, there's a reason why you're feeling this way. It will get better. <3

Stay strong, you're doing a great job.
 

Shortec Stublue!!

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Welcome @Oxy creeps up you are in the right place for support.

As said above don’t be to dismayed, trial and error is to be expected. What I am not understanding is, if you have chronic pain and have A PMC (pain management consultant) you obviously clinically need and will continue to need pain meds. Are you just seeing if you can do it, or intend to find other remedies that are not of opioid nature?
 

Oxy creeps up

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Hi everyone,

Thank you all so much. It's midnight here and I managed to sleep for 2 hours thanks to some diazepam. The restless body syndrome as I've called it has eased a little but it's still caused me to need to get out of bed and get an ice pack due to severe sweating. Instead of moping around I cleaned the house a little. Trying to embrace the insomnia in some way.

I do have a pain management team. They suggested staying on oxycodone as it worked for my pain. They suggested a long taper off them. I should have done this but since my last surgery 7 weeks ago my pain is not so severe. I have a few pelvic conditions that have caused a lot of issues. I have had multiple miscarriages and for the most recent two I was on the oxycodone and I would like to be off it for when I start IVF in December. I also hate how my mind is. I can't work in my profession due to not being able to carry out my work while cognitively impaired. I actually have previously specialised in treating addiction and was a crisis practitioner for MAT programmes. I thought I knew what I was doing when I stopped these meds. I also stopped them because I have developed quite pervasive depression this past year. I started to notice that instead of taking the 1 or 2 I'm prescribed if I had a bad day (emotionally as well as pain wise) I was taking an extra one or two. I also started to look forward to how much they numbed my brain. I'd wake up upset and depressed and as soon as my dose kicked in and my pain eased, so too did my mental pain. So I know it's a slippery slope. I needed to stop for so many reasons.

I'm pretty annoyed with my GP (doctor). He would literally throw Oxy at me any time. Even increase my dose without consulting my pain team. And then the last two days I am asking for diazepam for some relief from these awful symptoms and he's given me a handful of them at 2 mg. And ignored me today when i called and asked for more. If I called and asked for the oxy he would get it for me right away. I don't understand how he can see Oxy as safe and not want to engage me when I want to come off it.

Thank you all again
 

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It's not legal to source here. I haven't been able to find anywhere that sell it. Only import it and I'd lose my job and career if I have any such offences against my name ?
Go get yourself some black seed oil capsules (nigella sativa). I prefer the Healths Harmony brand (not sure what country you are in). You might it very helpful, and it won't set you back in terms of your withdrawal.
 

Shortec Stublue!!

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What country are you in @Oxy creeps up?? UK??

I get it a little clearer now, IVF is your main reason for jumping off may I assume? However as you stated, you know about Opioids and how it is not wise to just CT. Also you have access to an amount that you can easily taper with and minimise your mental and physical distress.

I am also baffled when GP’s will dole out the potent narcotics, but are scared beyond belief with the stigma of benzos. I had a silmilar situation a few years ago. My Inflamatory bowel disease was slowly “erasing ME inside and out, with anxiety multiplied by being flooded with high dose prednisone.

Me: Can we discuss a better pain relief plan? Dr: Yeah sure what pick and mix would you like from the sweet shop? Me: This anxiety is getting out of hand, can we try to tackle it please? Dr: Yes of course, would you like 5 2mg Diazepams to last the rest of your life (slight exaggeration)?

Me: Is that some kind of odd joke?
 
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