alex_anders_8
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A little background info: I'm a 25 year old male living in the UK.
I have been an alcoholic for 6 years (with the occasional 2-3 month abstinance...although no abstinance in the last 18 months). I drink up to 5 bottles of wine a day.
I almost died from very severe acute alcoholic pancreatitis three years ago but otherwise my body seems to be coping okay.
During said period of pancreatitis I was in hospital for 10 weeks. During those 10 weeks I received IV morphine every 4 hours (seriously, six times a day for 72 days). I grew to love the feeling and - once out of hospital - I began crushing and snorting the Morphine Sulphate and OxyContin pills I had (seeing multiple doctors, lying about pain etc) and so I have also been dependant on opiates for three years.
I actually quit my methadone cold turkey not too long ago. I love not being dependent on going to the chemist every day, plus the methadone made me sweat and gain almost 30lbs (3 weeks without methadone and I've lost 13lb without changing my eating habits.
I still shoot up heroin maybe three or four times a week. I also will snort buprenorphine and sometimes take RX opiates (Lortab, Percocet, Oxycontin, Fentanyl...). Just recently I have started shooting up cocaine, too, although one a week at most.
The thing is...I would rather die than not be able to drink alcohol. I have tried sobriety and it just isn't for me. Surely I can't be the only alcoholic who DOESN'T want to get clean?
I have been an alcoholic for 6 years (with the occasional 2-3 month abstinance...although no abstinance in the last 18 months). I drink up to 5 bottles of wine a day.
I almost died from very severe acute alcoholic pancreatitis three years ago but otherwise my body seems to be coping okay.
During said period of pancreatitis I was in hospital for 10 weeks. During those 10 weeks I received IV morphine every 4 hours (seriously, six times a day for 72 days). I grew to love the feeling and - once out of hospital - I began crushing and snorting the Morphine Sulphate and OxyContin pills I had (seeing multiple doctors, lying about pain etc) and so I have also been dependant on opiates for three years.
I actually quit my methadone cold turkey not too long ago. I love not being dependent on going to the chemist every day, plus the methadone made me sweat and gain almost 30lbs (3 weeks without methadone and I've lost 13lb without changing my eating habits.
I still shoot up heroin maybe three or four times a week. I also will snort buprenorphine and sometimes take RX opiates (Lortab, Percocet, Oxycontin, Fentanyl...). Just recently I have started shooting up cocaine, too, although one a week at most.
The thing is...I would rather die than not be able to drink alcohol. I have tried sobriety and it just isn't for me. Surely I can't be the only alcoholic who DOESN'T want to get clean?
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