i appreciate every u just said and i agree with u to some bit but there is a misunderstanding here. let me clarify. i started having this insomnia before i started taking the percs. this insomnia started over a year ago. so i really think the percs have nothing to do with it honestly. but going back to the negative thoughts at night i completely agree. i know that making my mind race at night only keeps me up. but my main issue is staying asleep. just last night i went to bed at 3 am. i woke up at 6, then 7 then 8, then 10. without medication. how could one fix someones problems of waking up in the middle of the night if u think its the negative thoughts, but im in sleep mode when im sleeping and not thinking. i think that only applies to falling asleep. do u get what im saying?
Yes I do, and thank you for the info about the insomnia before the percocets.
I appreciate it and understand fully.
When you are in "sleep mode", your subconscious is in control.
You cannot control this unless you wake up "rebooting" your conscious mind and then finding it difficult to fall back into a "peaceful" sleep.
I know the feeling and it sucks.
What I meant about the meds, was that maybe you managed to experience peaceful sleep or whatever you want to call it.
I may be completely wrong in your case, but from personal experience I always wish for a "dreamless" sleep purely because the damn dreams I have sometimes are things I do not want to be thinking about.
I also then am awake, try get another 1 or 2 hours and feel like shit when I have to go to work or even just get out of bed.
But deep down I know what the messages are that are waking me up, but I just don't want to deal with them.
And because I try and bury the thoughts/dreams or whatever is waking me up, I am not making any progress to rectify simple life issues.
I'm talking about me now, so please don't take this the wrong way.
Whatever is going on in your head that is causing you to wake up constantly is not going to go away by using sleeping medication ( yeah it goes away initially when you fall asleep, but IME it is always there when I wake up).
The only time I feel well rested and positive when waking up are the times when I go to bed exhausted, but in a good way. And these times are few and far between.
So all I am trying to say is that maybe there is an issue that is bothering you and maybe you need quite a few sleepless nights in order to eliminate these thoughts (negative/positive whatever..........) but by taking benzodiazepines and expecting to get a full night's rest and to wake up feeling refreshed has never worked for me or anyone else that I know for that matter.
Therefore I made the suggestion about speaking to a medical professional about what you are going through simply because IMO it is the most positive and productive way in getting clarity.
It is just a suggestion and not an instruction at all.
I can say with confidence, however, that having to rely on benzodiazepines for "sleep" for most of my life has definitely had a negative effect for me in the sense that I am still avoiding issues that could have been "obliterated" years ago and I just had to share this with you.
And I am talking decades here.
I hope you see the positives that I am trying to say here, as that is the only reason why I felt the need to respond to your original post.
Best of luck.
SL