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I Fucked an Escort

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Michael_25

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You may remember me from my thread titled "Can't get a GF cause ugly as fuck". I wrote that I haven't been laid since 2005. Therefore, I decided to hire an escort. It cost me $300 for 40 minutes. It wasn't exactly satisfying. It was more of a business transaction than anything else. Got the usual: blow job, missionary, doggy style and cowgirl. I realised that with a condom, I simply can NOT cum. I only shot my load after she gave me a hand job at the end without a condom.

After it I felt like a loser, worse than before. I thought "Damn, I just paid $300 that most normal people get for free." But ugly motherfucking losers have to pay for sex or remain celibate forever. Fuck my life. It's hookers for the rest of my life or jerking off for the rest of my life. I'm a fucking loser and I know it.

NOTE: Can anyone tell me HOW to bust a nut with a condom on? I can barely feel anything with them on.
 
Michael_25 said:
You may remember me from my thread titled "Can't get a GF cause ugly as fuck". I wrote that I haven't been laid since 2005. Therefore, I decided to hire an escort. It cost me $300 for 40 minutes. It wasn't exactly satisfying. It was more of a business transaction than anything else. Got the usual: blow job, missionary, doggy style and cowgirl. I realised that with a condom, I simply can NOT cum. I only shot my load after she gave me a hand job at the end without a condom.

After it I felt like a loser, worse than before. I thought "Damn, I just paid $300 that most normal people get for free." But ugly motherfucking losers have to pay for sex or remain celibate forever. Fuck my life. It's hookers for the rest of my life or jerking off for the rest of my life. I'm a fucking loser and I know it.

NOTE: Can anyone tell me HOW to bust a nut with a condom on? I can barely feel anything with them on.
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Condoms dont do shit for me. Cant feel nothin so i lose my boner😅 just pull out man. And wash ya dick rite after and make sure to piss. And keep ya chin up man. Thers billions of women in the world. Juat keep trying dude. And have some confidence. Trust me u wont strike out forever
 
I wonder if you are making a mistake trying to equate an escort experience with the sexual experience in a loving relationship. That’s bound to lead to disappointment and other negative feelings possibly including shame. There are perhaps dozens of different kinds of sex. Romantic/Lustful/Stress Relief/Make Up/ Sorry and so on and so forth. Escort / prostitute sex is in a category all of it’s own and possibly needs to be understood and valued as such in order to avoid disappointment. A lot of how good it is comes down to the vibe you give the escort - if she thinks you’re respectful of her and not wound too tight and up for a bit of a giggle as well then the experience might be completely different than if you gave her a less positive vibe. It’s only natural - same interacting with anyone when you first meet them. Obviously since it was your first time you must have had some anxiety and trepidation and maybe high expectations but maybe give it another go now you know what its all about and treat it for what it is: a bit of a fun romp.

As for the condom thing - I feel your pain. I cannot sustain a hard on in a condom for more than a minute so my interactions with working girls tend to be all about other things besides penetration. Most importantly I go in knowing I probably won’t actually complete proper intercourse and will crash and burn. When it happens (as it usually does) I make sure me and the girl share a bit of a laugh about it and that she knows I don’t blame her. Then she gets going on other tricks to get me off. Fortunately where I am most girls will give bareback blowjobs with no condom.

I don’t think hookers are a poor substitute for ‘the real thing’. I reckon they are a special category in their own right and can be appreciated as such.
 
Hey M. Have you considered dating apps? its worth a shot(no pun intended)

in fact, the last time i put and ad up looking for an escort i got a reply from a girl who im actually close mates with now, i did pay her some cash at the start as thats what she was after and thats what I offered, but after speaking for abit and long messages it was clear she was interested and she never classed herself asan escort anyway.

ive seen her a few times and we just got drunk and had sex for hours and she dosent want money as its a real connection/friendship thing.

i know your aussie, so am i, so id recommend going onto locanto and putting an ad up along the lines of "looking for girls nsa fun cash reward" i was on there for about 3 years, only met 1 escort initially, she was 17 which i found put later.. but she was purely buisness. it ran in her family.

Dont give up hope mate, exhaust all avenues. Best of luck
 
Michael_25 said:
You may remember me from my thread titled "Can't get a GF cause ugly as fuck". I wrote that I haven't been laid since 2005. Therefore, I decided to hire an escort. It cost me $300 for 40 minutes. It wasn't exactly satisfying. It was more of a business transaction than anything else. Got the usual: blow job, missionary, doggy style and cowgirl. I realised that with a condom, I simply can NOT cum. I only shot my load after she gave me a hand job at the end without a condom.

After it I felt like a loser, worse than before. I thought "Damn, I just paid $300 that most normal people get for free." But ugly motherfucking losers have to pay for sex or remain celibate forever. Fuck my life. It's hookers for the rest of my life or jerking off for the rest of my life. I'm a fucking loser and I know it.

NOTE: Can anyone tell me HOW to bust a nut with a condom on? I can barely feel anything with them on.
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and that's exactly the reason why i've only banged 2 prostitutes in my life. Feels so fake, i'd rather spend the same amount of money going out with a girl, gaining her trust and then eat her pussyyyyyyyy as a dessert then fuck her brains out haha.
 
Atelier3 said:
I wonder if you are making a mistake trying to equate an escort experience with the sexual experience in a loving relationship. That’s bound to lead to disappointment and other negative feelings possibly including shame. There are perhaps dozens of different kinds of sex. Romantic/Lustful/Stress Relief/Make Up/ Sorry and so on and so forth. Escort / prostitute sex is in a category all of it’s own and possibly needs to be understood and valued as such in order to avoid disappointment. A lot of how good it is comes down to the vibe you give the escort - if she thinks you’re respectful of her and not wound too tight and up for a bit of a giggle as well then the experience might be completely different than if you gave her a less positive vibe. It’s only natural - same interacting with anyone when you first meet them. Obviously since it was your first time you must have had some anxiety and trepidation and maybe high expectations but maybe give it another go now you know what its all about and treat it for what it is: a bit of a fun romp.

As for the condom thing - I feel your pain. I cannot sustain a hard on in a condom for more than a minute so my interactions with working girls tend to be all about other things besides penetration. Most importantly I go in knowing I probably won’t actually complete proper intercourse and will crash and burn. When it happens (as it usually does) I make sure me and the girl share a bit of a laugh about it and that she knows I don’t blame her. Then she gets going on other tricks to get me off. Fortunately where I am most girls will give bareback blowjobs with no condom.

I don’t think hookers are a poor substitute for ‘the real thing’. I reckon they are a special category in their own right and can be appreciated as such.
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yeah i totally agree with you man, banging hookers=/=making love. Making love is totally different, you just can't compare the two. But fucking a good escort while drunk and high is reallly good. Although it's not my thing, i'd rather bang my (girl)friends haha.
 
Atelier3 said:
I wonder if you are making a mistake trying to equate an escort experience with the sexual experience in a loving relationship. That’s bound to lead to disappointment and other negative feelings possibly including shame. There are perhaps dozens of different kinds of sex. Romantic/Lustful/Stress Relief/Make Up/ Sorry and so on and so forth. Escort / prostitute sex is in a category all of it’s own and possibly needs to be understood and valued as such in order to avoid disappointment. A lot of how good it is comes down to the vibe you give the escort - if she thinks you’re respectful of her and not wound too tight and up for a bit of a giggle as well then the experience might be completely different than if you gave her a less positive vibe. It’s only natural - same interacting with anyone when you first meet them. Obviously since it was your first time you must have had some anxiety and trepidation and maybe high expectations but maybe give it another go now you know what its all about and treat it for what it is: a bit of a fun romp.

As for the condom thing - I feel your pain. I cannot sustain a hard on in a condom for more than a minute so my interactions with working girls tend to be all about other things besides penetration. Most importantly I go in knowing I probably won’t actually complete proper intercourse and will crash and burn. When it happens (as it usually does) I make sure me and the girl share a bit of a laugh about it and that she knows I don’t blame her. Then she gets going on other tricks to get me off. Fortunately where I am most girls will give bareback blowjobs with no condom.

I don’t think hookers are a poor substitute for ‘the real thing’. I reckon they are a special category in their own right and can be appreciated as such.
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Your first sentence resounded with me. Banging a hooker is not the same as having sex with someone with whom you are in a relationshihp. Relationship sex is mutual sex -- both parties want it. The hooker I banged wouldn't even look at me if I passed her in the mall. She fucks anyone for $$$. The attraction with the hooker -- or any hooker -- is not mutual.

Sex with a girlfriend would be great, but girls avoid me like the fucking plague. I'm a 3/10 looks-wise, hence I can't get a girlfriend. I've tried chatting up girls in the past but got nothing but negative feedback from them (not only in there words, but their tone and demeanor -- as if I were offending them). It's also hard to meet girls as I have pretty poor social skills and lack a decent personality. I'm a fucking ugly loser with no interpersonal skills so it's no wonder that I haven't had a true GF in my life.
 
js420 said:
Dont give up hope mate, exhaust all avenues. Best of luck
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I've been trying to get a partner since 2005. I really don't know what else to do at this point, and it only gets worse the older I get. Everyone my age is partnered-up, and even if they are single, they have about 1,320 better male prospects than me. I'm at the very bottom of the desirability pole.
 
Michael, I really feel for you. Honestly I do. But I really want to tell you to stop being so down on yourself. I know BL is a place to let it all hang out amongst supportive friends but its hard to listen to that level of self-loathing. If I can give you some gratuitous advice (well, more gratuitous advice) you need to learn some self-love before you go worrying about the love of a woman. Everyone has limitations and everyone has strengths even if it is only their character. You need to get comfortable with the things about yourself that you cannot change and start investing in the things that you can. Find your strengths, no matter how small they seem now and start cultivating then and be proud of them. If you really believe you have none, then start thinking of yourself as a blank sheet of paper upon which you can create something interesting and something to be proud of with a bit of time and effort. Whatever you are lacking invest in learning or acquiring and give up the defeatist mindset.

Looks don’t matter a hoot. The world is full of ugly but interesting and/or charming guys in happy relationships. Set yourself the goal of being one of those guys in time.

Sorry if this comes off a bit brutal. I haven’t slept for 2 days and I get really triggered by pessimism and defeatism. If my advice sucks for you just ignore it but know I only gave it to try and help.
 
I once fucked a black escort in Denmark high as fuck on coke + heroin. It's okay bro. Didn't make me feel anything after, maybe little dumb since i could just put some real work in and get better looking Danish women, but i was feeling lazy and horny.
It's okay bro.
 
dalpat077 said:
Now THIS is for sure "over sharing" as I've just discussed with another good member here just a little earlier today. But fuck it.

I have probably hired about five or six hookers in my life. Always been at a time when I've been single (not in a relationship) and just looking for some company to have a chat with, a few drinks with, and do some drugs. Never slept (or did anything else) with a single one of them. And you would not believe the look on one or two or their faces when time was up and paid for and that was that i.e. thanks for the nice time and have a good night. On one occasion: I was even offered the fee back because I'd paid for the drugs. Obviously I never accepted.

I suppose most here (men anyway) would say that I'm the arsehole. But I dunno. Always had a soft spot for these girls. Put another way: I've never met one that's in the business because they want to be in it. They're usually people with problems and that's the best they can do to support themselves.
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nice one man - you did a very cool thing for those good women
 
Atelier3 said:
Michael, I really feel for you. Honestly I do. But I really want to tell you to stop being so down on yourself. I know BL is a place to let it all hang out amongst supportive friends but its hard to listen to that level of self-loathing. If I can give you some gratuitous advice (well, more gratuitous advice) you need to learn some self-love before you go worrying about the love of a woman. Everyone has limitations and everyone has strengths even if it is only their character. You need to get comfortable with the things about yourself that you cannot change and start investing in the things that you can. Find your strengths, no matter how small they seem now and start cultivating then and be proud of them. If you really believe you have none, then start thinking of yourself as a blank sheet of paper upon which you can create something interesting and something to be proud of with a bit of time and effort. Whatever you are lacking invest in learning or acquiring and give up the defeatist mindset.

Looks don’t matter a hoot. The world is full of ugly but interesting and/or charming guys in happy relationships. Set yourself the goal of being one of those guys in time.

Sorry if this comes off a bit brutal. I haven’t slept for 2 days and I get really triggered by pessimism and defeatism. If my advice sucks for you just ignore it but know I only gave it to try and help.
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This is quality post man. S+ shit once again.
dalpat077 said:
Now THIS is for sure "over sharing" as I've just discussed with another good member here just a little earlier today. But fuck it.

I have probably hired about five or six hookers in my life. Always been at a time when I've been single (not in a relationship) and just looking for some company to have a chat with, a few drinks with, and do some drugs. Never slept (or did anything else) with a single one of them. And you would not believe the look on one or two or their faces when time was up and paid for and that was that i.e. thanks for the nice time and have a good night. On one occasion: I was even offered the fee back because I'd paid for the drugs. Obviously I never accepted.

I suppose most here (men anyway) would say that I'm the arsehole. But I dunno. Always had a soft spot for these girls. Put another way: I've never met one that's in the business because they want to be in it. They're usually people with problems and that's the best they can do to support themselves.

A very long time ago I had one very frightening and one very sad moment though and remember it to this day. Picked somebody up, went to my place, had a few drinks, did (a lot) of coke, and then took her back to where I'd found her. Two days later I just happened to be sitting in the same street waiting for a buddy of mine (for business) and she came walking past. She was so fucked that she didn't know where she was and couldn't walk in a straight line. And it sure looked like to me that she'd been worked over physically real good by either her fucking piece of shit pimp or some sicko client. Tried to speak to her and find out if she was alright and she couldn't even respond coherently nor did she even recognize me i.e. just kept walking along in a daze. That was a real eye opener for me. And I felt so sorry for her because she was a nice and fun and intelligent girl. She's probably dead by now. Very sad. And I'll never forget it.
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Maan, the girls chose that life. Never feel sorry for an escort. Fuck them like the whores they are.
 
dalpat077 said:
Well. Let's agree to disagree (and how is your rehab going i,e, you seem to be on the up and up and in full action since we last spoke)?

For sure there are woman who have chosen it as a profession i.e. talking high class high pay scenario. Actually had lunch with one of those once a long time ago. Most expensive clothes and fancy cars you ever did see.

But your average street girl or low level agency type of arrangement? Nah. The girls are treated bad. And in this country anyway: most of these joints are owned and run by foreigners who couldn't give a flying fuck as long as they get their money (which is usually almost all the girl has made in return for feeding her drug habit: a position which I don't believe anybody wished upon themselves).

But hey. That's just my take. As per my original post above on the topic: I wouldn't say I've a wide range of experience or in-depth knowledge (but I've seen some things, some horrible things, nevertheless).
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I'm not on rehab anymore. I'm still addicted. Well, it's life and the fact of life which can't be doubted is that gummy bears aren't distributed equally.
Well, even men can sell themselves. I know women who have became whores, but i know women who are much worse addicted and don't sell themselves. Some have became extremely good thieves. Stealing clothes, technology etc. for 1/3 price. That's something i can respect.
It's a choice, just like trying drugs, but i agree that after doing it for long time it can be nearly impossible to stop. Specially after losing self-esteem, looks and having couple of STD's.
Maybe my original post was bit rough.
I respect you for asking, didn't even remember you asking last time at first, but it was in Abyss II if i recall correctly now?
Thank you for asking and caring.
 
dalpat077 said:
Yeh. Last time we spoke you were on day 3 and not feeling quite the happy camper. But looks like you're back with a vengeance. Nothing wrong with that either! Lol!

Some of them ain't angels either though let's face it. Somehow a girl was at a party (no idea where she came from, who she was, or who invited her). Turned out she'd stolen a cell phone from a friend of mine that night. Long story short: we got her arrested on the Friday night. Comes Saturday I went to go check on her and she was so fucking beside herself with withdrawal symptoms from H that I told the police I wanted to drop the charges and they let her go. Honestly: the laugh is probably on me. But hey: I can live with that.
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I usually ask my situations like that, if she was a guy, would i act more harsh? If answer is yes, i will act more harsh. Many men fall on crocodile tears of crooked women. Of course she was nice to you and you did exactly what she was aiming for that. Even i catch myself treating women sometimes better and it's on mens nature to do it, but we really shouldn't since whole western society is in their side.
Get falsely accused and see how true my claim is.
There's a reason why word of woman is worth only half of men in Islam.
 
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