I am a bit worried about urges to reuse heroin

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I have been high on codeine so I'm not withdrawing but even though the heroin didn't seem to get me very high I just have this urge to reuse t I haven't used any since last night so 24 hours+ now I keep telling myself I can have just one more line to help me sleep because it's been 24 hours how long does it take(on average I know it's impossible to tell individually)to get a heroin habit, is it better to use little bits over time or one big bit for pain relief purposes I want to maybe have two lines then next time have one and a half lines and slowly cut myself down maybe I know I'm playing with fire but I'm also a chronic pain patient I'm sure most people would assume I just use it to get high which I do sometimes but I use it mainly to control my crohns disease pain which I'm not gonna get into
 

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If those guys try to derail your thread here it won't be allowed, this is a serious forum.

Pete I'll be honest with you, you should be worried and it's this reason why we were trying to tell you not to try heroin if you already had a codeine problem. But I know it's too late for that now, so don't be too hard on yourself. Many chronic pain patients end up ruining their lives on opiates. Was the codeine working to control pain? If so, you should do your best to forget about heroin and stick to codeine and pretty soon the urges will be less and less strong. If you keep playing with fire you're almost certainly going to slowly do more and more, and then codeine won't do it at all, and you'll need to always be dosing or you'll be withdrawing.
 

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If those guys try to derail your thread here it won't be allowed, this is a serious forum.

Pete I'll be honest with you, you should be worried and it's this reason why we were trying to tell you not to try heroin if you already had a codeine problem. But I know it's too late for that now, so don't be too hard on yourself. Many chronic pain patients end up ruining their lives on opiates. Was the codeine working to control pain? If so, you should do your best to forget about heroin and stick to codeine and pretty soon the urges will be less and less strong. If you keep playing with fire you're almost certainly going to slowly do more and more, and then codeine won't do it at all, and you'll need to always be dosing or you'll be withdrawing.
I really want one line to go bed but I'm just so scared that I'll wake up sick if I just had a line now then tomorrow nigut have half a line of a bit less maybe not half and slowly cut back down that way?
 

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No, you basically have two choices at this point:

1) stop using heroin completely. Flush what you have and never look back.

2) keep messing around with heroin and accept that your addiction is only going to get worse
 

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I thought about trying herion because it's so much cheaper and effective. I would only snort it though because I don't have any veins left from a pulmonary embolism and dvt's from decades ago. Yet, my supplier said If I ever did it, I should call 911 immediately.....she watched her husband die, in her arms from that. He overdosed many times before. Also, if 100 people are telling me not to do something, perhaps one of them are right.
I do get frustrated thinking about the days when so few mg's made me feel the way I always wished I felt, acted, and communicated to others.
One of my heros in life said something so profound, it gave m a better perspective. James Taylor (famous musician) put it perfectly in one of his interviews. As a recovering herion addict, he said something along the lines of: If the person starting a new drug, gets an overwhelming since of relief, it's going to be a long and winding road for them to get sober. On the other hand, if they just liked the effects, but didn't feel too strongly about enjoying the drug, they have a pretty good chance, or better chance, getting over it to find their way back home......or getting off that drug. That was my ah-ha moment. I'd rather be an ass, then a reasonable, warm and fuzzy, addicted, going nowhere person.
Getting free from my DOC, has been a terrible uphill climb. Yet, each time I do better, I feel better. I can enjoy playing my gutair, or crying my eyeballs out watching The sad stories of the musical legends who are apart of the 27 club. The 27 club: Kurt Cobain, Janis Joplin, Jim Morrison, Amy Winehouse.....etc. How freaking sad is that!
 

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Pete I have NO desire to trash any post you make, I saw your at college so I regard you as a teenager that is sulky & trying to be edgy.
In regard to this post I was using heroin BEFORE you were even born.....go figure.

Anyway as that PV username guy said I suggest you QUIT right now, what you are getting into isn't equal to anything you can get OTC from Boots & if you think you are wanting some gear now after ony doing a few lines of what to my eye looked shit quality gear you will end up deep in the shit before you know it. A habit from the gear from first use took me around 4-6 weeks of daily use & the first habit you get you notice isn't that bad so you carry on & it isn't till you have had 2/3 you really understand what hell it is & then you have PAWS (Post Acute Withdrawl Syndrome) to deal with which has pushed me to the brink of suicide (feel free to laugh as I know you will on reading that)

Everyone warned me when I first began (before you were born may I add) but I took no notice, I suggest you quit right now & focus on your education instead. The gear will take over your life, I don't know if you smoke tobacco but imagine the need for a roll up / fag when you wake up & stretch that out for a whole day with added cramp, sweat that smells like boiled veg, planning on robbing stuff from shops etc & that is the basis for a smack habit. You have to deal with the lowest form of humanlife & I'm not being nasty but your NOT cut out for that life mate.

If your posting in the last 48 hours about wanting gear when you got NO habit at all may God have mercy upon you if you carry on, I give you about 18 months before you are getting 1ml's from Boots daily & don't think you can kick a habit on methadone as that shit is 1,000 times worse to come off, I've seen grown men that are tough cry from the withdrawl from that stuff. The heroin thing isn't just a "high" mate it becomes a whole fucking lifestyle & it's a hard one to break. You'll end up with a criminal record, no cash, no veins & no friends (unless you count the junkie scum-fucks you know off road as friends)
 

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Also I'm NOT joking here & this is for your HR too (so I do kinda care kid)

IF you are only doing a single line of gear (I assume your scoring off road) & you are getting high off it watch out!!!!
That photo you posted a few days ago I get more than that off a tooter & even back in the day when I first began that would have done nada to me, maybe the stuff your getting has fent or some other fent analogue in so we would be talking about active does in the mcg range, that will put you right over & you'll be stone dead before you know it.
Not that long ago I scored off my most trusted man & the gear made me mate go really weird after a crank (IV shot) & I smoked some, only 2 lines had me on the itch & by the time I had smoked the lot which only ran to 12/13 lines I was on the gouge so watch out, that stuff may kill a person like you.

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I'm just thinking why do you want to try it so badly? You think it is "edgy" or "cool" to do this stuff? You fancy yourself as the next Kurt Cobain?
IMHO it is people that have a lot of baggage in their life that drift to the gear as they want to kill the pain of life & block events from their mind, you do get the odd freak / simple person (you know the type mate that you see on Jeremy Kyle) I'm not interested in your back story but just think to yourself why do you want to use it so badly?

Heroin makes you feel nice........oh so damn nice, you have no worries on it & the days roll by in a bubble of cotton & then you sleep for 15 hours, damn I am selling it to myself again lol. It's all pure love at the start & then you wake up sick one day at random & think you have a cold or the flu but by that point it is too late.
 
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1 time, that’s all it took, you have to understand you’re under the bondage of sin. We don’t have free will, until I got saved I wanted a changed life. I was smoking meth and masturbating to porn, before that I had a very gorgeous gf and would have sex for hours until I almost committed suicide. Trust me on this. When I gave my life to Christ a profound power broke that chain. I struggled yes but it was a fight I could win. Without that supernatural power my friend it’s a fruitless fight.


PM me if you want anymore council.
 

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No, you basically have two choices at this point:

1) stop using heroin completely. Flush what you have and never look back.

2) keep messing around with heroin and accept that your addiction is only going to get worse
I didn't end up having any last night but I had a tiny tiny line which I got to smoked or chases off I had to sit down for a minute it's so discreet get easy to hide God I've really fucked up haven't I oh well I'm still gonna try to just cut down I know what's it's like now, sort of I haven't tried to get shitfaced I wish I didn't know how easy it was to chase the Dragon I don't know what people are on about saying you need to iv it chasing is strong!
 

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You say that now but will be looking for a vein in the future. Flush it!
what's any good flushing it when I run out of my meds again I want it around to get me though not trying to sound stupid I know it sounds it, but basically I only smoke enough to feel ok I do tiny lines wait 10-30 mins do it again I feel so guilty to
 

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I know man. Trust me I do. I’m sympathetic towards you, never tried H, and I really hope you nip this now. I do understand addiction tho. I’m here if you ever need someone to talk to.
 

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@Pete556 not trying to be funny but you need to quit while you are ahead just like everyone has said its a very hard road to go down
 

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Problem with addictve drugs is when you can quit, you dont want to. When you want to, you can't. You still can, so do it.

As you already have a physical addiction to opiates yes you're likely to get sick easily and your tolerance will skyrocket so codeine will stop working and you'll need loads more to avoid clucking.
 

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Anyway I'm gonna have a cup of poppy seed tea see how I feel I know if already said it but I really appreciate everyone's none judgemental and straight forward advice I didn't ask for this but I know it's not to late
 

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Codeine isn't as innocent as it looks but heroin addiction will destroy your life. Pete we are all wanting to help you mate
 

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Opioid meds are bein sexed up too much. Even codeine is highly addictive but talking about heroin in the same sentence is absurd. It's like a hot chick (the codeine) to a bat or crow (the heroin)
 

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Opioid meds are bein sexed up too much. Even codeine is highly addictive but talking about heroin in the same sentence is absurd. It's like a hot chick (the codeine) to a bat or crow (the heroin)
Yes it’s fickin stupid, it would be like going on subies to get off codein
 
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