Out of the incalculable amount of chemicals I've tried benzos are the only thing that bring me out of the aggressively high strung state I am permanently in. I think I only find them enjoyable because they make other people enjoyable. I HATE other people.
I learned to love other people man it can be done. I can't even tell if it was "learned" or forced on me by some weird quasi-scientific explanation.
Benzos REALLY HELP. Society would look like shit w/o the legit scripts and it should just be OTC.
I normally wouldn't recommend what I did to many people but it was like a "last option" type thing, been mixing/matching all sorts of things for quite some time.
<-- high, baked, don't want to chain smoke all my weed/dabs to feel better w/o brain candy so I'm going to take some hypnotics that tend to work or not work, and probably toss some beer in there and if that backfires I'll be in for one hell of a ride.
This was essentially me ~ 30 days ago, but it was mostly hating myself. "Self" is a macro illusion, really. If you zoomed out and could only see the planet of the earth, you wouldn't see many humans. Zoom in enough to any/every human or non-living being; all made of quarks. You can scientifically understand that the self is illusory.
Just be you DG I like you just the way you are
but you can always change/shift perspectives if needed/desired.