Can I ask what the symptoms are like for you buddy? I randomly quit alprazolam/bzd's after weeks on, and had very little symptoms other than "return of PTSD symptoms" and it was gone within like 2-3 hours, was able to sleep that night, etc.
For me, it's similar to opioid withdrawal in the way that it fucks with my temperature regulation (hot then cold leading to cold sweats, similar to that one gets when they have a potentially serious infection, but not quite that level) in that I'm constantly removing and replacing layers of clothing during daytime and blankets at night.
I also notice the difference with benzo withdrawal regarding the brain releasing excess cortisol (stress production chemical) as it's attempting to regain homeostasis prior to dependence.
I've notice that the cortisol causes a noticable different irritability/short temper than that I've experienced in say methadone withdrawal. That sucks, but it also raises my BPM noticably (PCP almost didn't wanna right me my amphet scripts because of my blood pressure, but I said I was just a little anxious and dehydrated, which wasn't a total lie, but that's not what caused how I was feeling.
The last symptom I notice is sometimes at random moments, I would have mild jerks/tics that was kind of startling.
Sorry for such the long post. I fortunately managed to acquire .5mg clonazepam the same day I got my amphetamine
and surprisingly, I didn't just take a bunch and which is how it usually goes, but rather have been trying to find out exactly how much I need to quell minor symptoms and for how long which takes a little discipline, but knowing you have the fix on you makes the mental much easier.
Bottom line it's been about 5 months of daily benzodiazepine consumption minus a small handful of days where I didn't have any, but the day prior had taken either clonazepam or diazepam so that the dose would hold me 24+ hours for a small dose (.75-1mg) and about 48 for a 1.5-2mg dose.
Sorry it took so long to reply and haven't been posting in my daily DC threads. I'm glad to hear that you've been able to manage to have little to no physical dependence considering the short half life we all know.