The moon is sooo big and bright. As I was walking, I had a fantasy of it coming lower and lower, exploding all over me, finally taking me "home". This has never been home to me. God knows I keep trying to leave this place. All the risky behavior: walking by myself after midnight, going out with complete strangers, overdosing...even death doesn't want me yet.
So I'm stuck, like a vampire wandering aimlessly.