I like this thread. It's actually quite therapeutic one. I have 'bout two words to explain how I feel, but try to find the main and one only wasn't easy.... and yes, I found it and it helped me to take things easier.... My first thought was ''tired'' but I couldn't use it, because it wouldn't explain my feelings at all, the main part was missing, and that's that I feel tired but calm at the same time, but it was just begining to be that nice kind of tirednes.... So calming it is.... Anyway, will keep posting, things are changing, and as I said I like this topic.... shame there are not more people here, I would expect much more, but we'll see. I'm sorry for long post, but I wanted to clear that up. I need people now. Thanks.