Korana
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- Nov 13, 2019
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Hi everyone
I'm 30 and I have Fibromyalgia. I was refused Opiate based medications for my chronic pain over 5 years ago when my body was slammed with pain. Guidelines dictate it's not an appropriate treatment to prescribe, even if your patient can barely walk and screams when touched in certain places.
In desperation to keep my life, I turned to an online doctor and I was prescribed co-codamol. Over the past 5 years I've taken co-codamol and nurofen plus together to control my pain, as tolerance developed I didn't care about the consequences and I took more and more. I reached as many as 11 co-codamol 30/500mg tablets and 20 nuofen plus tablets together in a dose. I would dose at least 2-3 times a day. You can do the math. I've been endangering my life.
I was able to function. It was amazing. I also work in health and social care and do 14 hour shifts. It's no easy feat with Fibromyalgia. I sacrifice lot physically and emotionally. I work with challenging behaviour. But I love my sector and my job and I strive to stay working and progress.
So I took as many Opiates as needed to ease my pain and continue ruling my world. I am a control freak who was always active despite my condition (It actually combacts fatigue if you balance properly) and would try to do everything physical myself. I have two large amazing dogs and ironically... a worse off chronically ill partner who isn't much help in dealing with responsibilities. But that's always been okay. I've just wanted to be enough to keep out world running, warm and happy. I've almost ruined myself in the process.
So it was all up to me. I ended up with serious dependence on codeine and wouldn't last 2 days without pills.
Now I never want an Opiate again. I have benign tumour in my left breast they left in because it was just under removal size. Now I'm facing another emergency scan for hardening tissue in the same breast. Life is amazingly short.It's made me wake up and realise what I've been leaving behind - emotions, experience, intensity, good, bad, scary, great.
I'm on day 4 of withdrawal. It's horrible. I have many supplements and safe meications to help me try and manage. I feel like garbage. I'm feeling the pain of my condition fully along with the pain of withdrawal. I can feel the herniated discs in my back. I can feel the spasms in my hips and lower back from chronic sacrolliac joint injury. Everything is tight, screaming and I am beyond exhausted. But I will make it. I'm just feeling alone. Only my partner and a very close friend know what's happening to me.
Every day I make a list of positives. This morning I was so emotional because of the immense relief of the night sweats ending early. It helped me get a couple of more hours of rest.
Anyway sorry for the long introduction.
I'm just so happy to find somewhere to talk about this. With people who KNOW how this feels and can do this with me.
Much lvoe to you all on whatever journey you're facing.
I'm 30 and I have Fibromyalgia. I was refused Opiate based medications for my chronic pain over 5 years ago when my body was slammed with pain. Guidelines dictate it's not an appropriate treatment to prescribe, even if your patient can barely walk and screams when touched in certain places.
In desperation to keep my life, I turned to an online doctor and I was prescribed co-codamol. Over the past 5 years I've taken co-codamol and nurofen plus together to control my pain, as tolerance developed I didn't care about the consequences and I took more and more. I reached as many as 11 co-codamol 30/500mg tablets and 20 nuofen plus tablets together in a dose. I would dose at least 2-3 times a day. You can do the math. I've been endangering my life.
I was able to function. It was amazing. I also work in health and social care and do 14 hour shifts. It's no easy feat with Fibromyalgia. I sacrifice lot physically and emotionally. I work with challenging behaviour. But I love my sector and my job and I strive to stay working and progress.
So I took as many Opiates as needed to ease my pain and continue ruling my world. I am a control freak who was always active despite my condition (It actually combacts fatigue if you balance properly) and would try to do everything physical myself. I have two large amazing dogs and ironically... a worse off chronically ill partner who isn't much help in dealing with responsibilities. But that's always been okay. I've just wanted to be enough to keep out world running, warm and happy. I've almost ruined myself in the process.
So it was all up to me. I ended up with serious dependence on codeine and wouldn't last 2 days without pills.
Now I never want an Opiate again. I have benign tumour in my left breast they left in because it was just under removal size. Now I'm facing another emergency scan for hardening tissue in the same breast. Life is amazingly short.It's made me wake up and realise what I've been leaving behind - emotions, experience, intensity, good, bad, scary, great.
I'm on day 4 of withdrawal. It's horrible. I have many supplements and safe meications to help me try and manage. I feel like garbage. I'm feeling the pain of my condition fully along with the pain of withdrawal. I can feel the herniated discs in my back. I can feel the spasms in my hips and lower back from chronic sacrolliac joint injury. Everything is tight, screaming and I am beyond exhausted. But I will make it. I'm just feeling alone. Only my partner and a very close friend know what's happening to me.
Every day I make a list of positives. This morning I was so emotional because of the immense relief of the night sweats ending early. It helped me get a couple of more hours of rest.
Anyway sorry for the long introduction.
I'm just so happy to find somewhere to talk about this. With people who KNOW how this feels and can do this with me.
Much lvoe to you all on whatever journey you're facing.
and be easy on your self! Please do not take this as a criticism, but from your post you sound like a Very Driven “A” personality!!! The only way things get done right, are if you do them !!!! Well life does not always get done right. I have learned that acceptance is the solution to all my problems. “ It is what it is...... or it would be different!!!!
