New member, old lurker. Have been meaning to introduce myself but life has been busy under covid19 lockdown.
I'm a long term chronic pain patient. Car accident in my 20s had me put on oxycodone back when opiods weren't considered an issue. Insomniac too on various valium scripts from time to time.
Forced to withdraw from opiods when I moved to a country where very strict rules around drugs (death pentalty) exist. Even people dying can't get access to pain meds
Went for five years on no pain meds and lived with the pain but I was in a tropical climate which helped. Drank too much though and the booze was very much moonshine like. Not great but got u drunk
Fast forward, go back to my home country and am injured again and put on opiods again. Return to the tropical country with my new family when my kid was one years old, and tramadol is the only pain med on offer. It was Prescribed to me by a very kind orthopedic surgeon. Tramadol helped me get my body moving again. Physical rehab, physio, and daily walks so me slowly heal.
I've now been on tramadol (again) for four years but am back in my home country which has a more developed health system. They put me on Lyrica which messed with my brain. I tapered off very high doses of that and it was the worst. It took so much willpower to do it. They put me on gabapentin. I tapered that and quit it just as of two weeks ago
I've been tapering from tramdol now on and off for two years. I stopped and started previous tapers coz of life and just resignation in thinking I'd be on it for life. This site taught me otherwise so thank you!!!
I was on a 400(-50)mg dose and self tapered. After many stops and re starts I decided to bite the bullet and taper while in lockdown due to Covid19.
I went from 400 late last year to 300 to 250 earlier this year. Now I'm finally into the 100s. My aim was 175 by the end of this month but I'm lower than that.
My injuries have largely healed. I'm still in pain but I'm using Acceptance and Comittment techniques to cope.
I'm still on a prescribed dose of 20mg oxycodone per day SR. I've self tapered from that this month and am now down to around 14mg a day.
As of today I'm on my lowest tramadol dose in four years. Today I've had 105mg. No gabapentin. I've taken a small dose on valium to get me through and remained stable in the oxycodone dose of 14 mg (7mg twice daily). Haven't taken second dose yet maybe I'll even try 5mg
I aim to be off tramadol. For good. Then deal with oxycodone with another taper. At least with oxy I will only be dealing with an opiod withdrawal over an SNRI withdrawal.
Overall, I've been on a bunch of various opiods for 15 years with a five year forced break after living overseas where you literally cannot get them.
There's a thin precipice between addiction, dependence, pain, mental health, and suffering. At times I wonder how much my pain meds were masking the emotional pain of being chronically in pain all the time? I do have trauma in my past, violence, and am recovering from hypervigilance. Im still learning about myself and the lack of coping strategies I had.
Sorry if this is rushed. Just wanted to introduce myself
I'm a long term chronic pain patient. Car accident in my 20s had me put on oxycodone back when opiods weren't considered an issue. Insomniac too on various valium scripts from time to time.
Forced to withdraw from opiods when I moved to a country where very strict rules around drugs (death pentalty) exist. Even people dying can't get access to pain meds
Went for five years on no pain meds and lived with the pain but I was in a tropical climate which helped. Drank too much though and the booze was very much moonshine like. Not great but got u drunk
Fast forward, go back to my home country and am injured again and put on opiods again. Return to the tropical country with my new family when my kid was one years old, and tramadol is the only pain med on offer. It was Prescribed to me by a very kind orthopedic surgeon. Tramadol helped me get my body moving again. Physical rehab, physio, and daily walks so me slowly heal.
I've now been on tramadol (again) for four years but am back in my home country which has a more developed health system. They put me on Lyrica which messed with my brain. I tapered off very high doses of that and it was the worst. It took so much willpower to do it. They put me on gabapentin. I tapered that and quit it just as of two weeks ago
I've been tapering from tramdol now on and off for two years. I stopped and started previous tapers coz of life and just resignation in thinking I'd be on it for life. This site taught me otherwise so thank you!!!
I was on a 400(-50)mg dose and self tapered. After many stops and re starts I decided to bite the bullet and taper while in lockdown due to Covid19.
I went from 400 late last year to 300 to 250 earlier this year. Now I'm finally into the 100s. My aim was 175 by the end of this month but I'm lower than that.
My injuries have largely healed. I'm still in pain but I'm using Acceptance and Comittment techniques to cope.
I'm still on a prescribed dose of 20mg oxycodone per day SR. I've self tapered from that this month and am now down to around 14mg a day.
As of today I'm on my lowest tramadol dose in four years. Today I've had 105mg. No gabapentin. I've taken a small dose on valium to get me through and remained stable in the oxycodone dose of 14 mg (7mg twice daily). Haven't taken second dose yet maybe I'll even try 5mg
I aim to be off tramadol. For good. Then deal with oxycodone with another taper. At least with oxy I will only be dealing with an opiod withdrawal over an SNRI withdrawal.
Overall, I've been on a bunch of various opiods for 15 years with a five year forced break after living overseas where you literally cannot get them.
There's a thin precipice between addiction, dependence, pain, mental health, and suffering. At times I wonder how much my pain meds were masking the emotional pain of being chronically in pain all the time? I do have trauma in my past, violence, and am recovering from hypervigilance. Im still learning about myself and the lack of coping strategies I had.
Sorry if this is rushed. Just wanted to introduce myself
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