This sounds strikingly similar to a conversation i had with a good friend of
mine the other day.
Are you confidant? Do you fake it?
My motto has been "fake it till you make it". Like you, i find that as i've gotten older, i'm more confident, i don't need to fake it 1/2 as much. I'm alot more comfortable in my skin, I believe in myself alot more, and i think it's come from facing various adverse situations and finding that i'm a hell of alot stronger than i've given myself credit for. I can now look in the mirror and actually say "hey, kid, you're a bit of an alright". (well, not really, but you get the idea
) There are still certain situations where i think "oh fuck, how will i get through this??" - Most recently when i had to address a group of 100 cadets at work.
I also think it comes from not really caring to much if i don't get on with everyone all the time. Actually resolving myself to the fact that i won't like everyone and not everyone will like me.
On the odd occasion where i've actually discussed this with people (confidence and the sometimes lack thereof - i don't like to admit that i'm not always a tower of strength
), others have been surprised. I've had someone say "Jeez, you're the last person i thought would ever be intimidated by anything or anyone!". It's true though. I've just mastered the ability to fake it when i need to.
I think that for me, this has, at least partially, come from a theatre/singing background. In those situations (i'm just about to walk on stage and i'm shitting myself), I couldn't afford to crack or be seen to be less than completely confident. I just had to forge ahead and it's filtered into other areas of my life. It's not something i consciously do either, i don't stop and think "ok, i have to be really confident now". It's automatic. Both my parents come from a musical/theatrical background, their attitude definitely rubbed off on me, and i think being able to appear confident even when you're not feeling confident is a good thing. Having said that, it's good to be true to yourself, and figuring out ways of really feeling confident, so that you don't have to fake it all the time is a necessity; otherwise it can become very tiring.
I also want to add that when i say fake it, i don't mean that i fake the person that i am, because i don't. What you see is what you get, essentially. I don't change the essence of my personality. I guess that it just means that even when i'm feeling down, i'll always walk with a straight back and my head held high.
Part of my work involves training groups, so I’m far more relaxed in those types of situations now, public speaking does wonders for self-confidence. I also can’t afford to be a bundle of nerves when I’m training people. They notice it and lose interest.
Can you pick the fakers?
If they're a good faker, no. I'll just think that they're confident. If they're really uncomfortable and are having trouble 'maintaining', i'll pick it. I'll usually go and chat to them and try to make them as comfortable as possible, because that's what i'd hope someone will do for me if the situation was reversed. I hate seeing people that feel uncomfortable.
Bad fakers can come across as slightly desparate. They might make what can interpreted as a "confident" comment, but then the look that they have on their face during or after can belie it; It's almost a "you agree dont'you? Don't you? Huh? huh?" look.
Do you think confidant people are more attractive, or do they lose their charm?
Absolutely. I like confident people, even the ones that are faking it
I find it self-belief really attractive and I tend to gravitate to such people. I don't think confidence ever loses it's charm. If a person is being confident to the point of obnoxiousness, then that wears thin for me, and i tend to remove myself from the situation. I love a quietly confident person, not someone that feels the need to broadcast to everyone how great they are all the time.
Is your mum free for dinner tonight?
Not tonight; she’s on her final day of her annual baby Harp Seal clubbing expedition. I’ve passed your number on and when she’s finished harvesting the pelts, she’ll call you. Don't worry, i'll hook a brutha up
As an aside, My mum (before she turned into a cold-blooded baby Harp seal killer) used to sing this song to me when i was little before I went to sleep, and it remains one of my favourite songs. I think it's quite fitting really.
"Smile"
Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...
If you smile with your fear and sorrow
Smile; Maybe then tomorrow
You'll find that life’s still worthwhile
If you just...
Smile, light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile…
So cheesy, i know, but it's stuck with me.
Anyway, that's my .02c for what it’s worth.