- Aug 21, 2020
Hey, that's alright. You're not that person anymore. I know how you feel dude, I jacked a ladies truck at a store with 3 car seats in the back but I did it because my bf showed me the truck with the keys in it and I was fuckin young and stupid and I wanted to show him i was down like he thought I was or more than his ex as fucking retarded as that sounds. Caught a class 6 felony and AZ doesn't allow expungement of felony convictions. That was 6 years ago. But I'll tell you one thing, I've spent the last.. 3-4 years of my life over compensating trying to convince myself and society I'm not a bad person. Fuck that shit I know who I am THIS is who I am. I can't even relate to like... whatever I was thinking when I did that shit. I want to say that I would never do that shit cuz that's how I feel but truth is I did that shit. High af with no remorse even after my sentencing. Too high. The awareness of the weight of my actions and extent of the consequences came gradually years later.I've done some horrible, less than human things when I was addicted to IV heroin and IV cocaine. It's hard to even fathom at this point those actions originated in my brain, and my mind is starting to black them out it seems (as I try to recall some of them), but some will be vivid and clear as day probably for the rest of my life.
I'm not going to relive them by typing them out, but multiple things mentioned in this thread I've personally either done myself or witnessed, including some of the more ... common (injecting unknowns in desperation, I once missed a shot of heroin that was forming an abscess and I sucked it out with a needle and injected it in pure desperation, that kind of insanity) ... items listed in OP. Here I go reliving them, okay, that's enough for now lol.