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Fucked up shit youve done, drug-induced or not

Shardzvark

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I've done some horrible, less than human things when I was addicted to IV heroin and IV cocaine. It's hard to even fathom at this point those actions originated in my brain, and my mind is starting to black them out it seems (as I try to recall some of them), but some will be vivid and clear as day probably for the rest of my life.

I'm not going to relive them by typing them out, but multiple things mentioned in this thread I've personally either done myself or witnessed, including some of the more ... common (injecting unknowns in desperation, I once missed a shot of heroin that was forming an abscess and I sucked it out with a needle and injected it in pure desperation, that kind of insanity) ... items listed in OP. Here I go reliving them, okay, that's enough for now lol.
Hey, that's alright. You're not that person anymore. I know how you feel dude, I jacked a ladies truck at a store with 3 car seats in the back but I did it because my bf showed me the truck with the keys in it and I was fuckin young and stupid and I wanted to show him i was down like he thought I was or more than his ex as fucking retarded as that sounds. Caught a class 6 felony and AZ doesn't allow expungement of felony convictions. That was 6 years ago. But I'll tell you one thing, I've spent the last.. 3-4 years of my life over compensating trying to convince myself and society I'm not a bad person. Fuck that shit I know who I am THIS is who I am. I can't even relate to like... whatever I was thinking when I did that shit. I want to say that I would never do that shit cuz that's how I feel but truth is I did that shit. High af with no remorse even after my sentencing. Too high. The awareness of the weight of my actions and extent of the consequences came gradually years later.
 

OrbitalCombustion

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Ohh boy... Well it's between simply stealing my best friends cell phone so i could go get meth. Orrr...
I was walking thru a park like at 3am and a guy walked past and asked what i was up to. I said nothing. He asked if i wanted to get high, i said yeah I'm down! We walked to his house and he had a fat sack. Like a 1/2 oz prolly. He was about to smoke some and i asked if it would be ok if i slammed some... He said sure, and being the broke, dumb, greedy tweaker i was, i threw more in the spoon than i would usually do, also without testing it out first for strength. I knew i shouldn't have finished pushing that plunger in. Instantly im in incapacitated ecstacy. Whole body buzzing, breathing got real deep and slow. And i couldn't see anything, all blurry. So i did the shot sitting on his bed and fell back when it hit me. He, took full advantage of that and instantly had his cock out wanking it and pulling mine down too. He put mine in his mouth and went to town, then tried to get his hard enough to put it in my ass. I didn't really resist because i couldnt see and i was just focusing on staying calm and not making my almost OD worse. He eventually gave up, and we watched porn silently...
The most shameful time though was when i decided to see if he was home again on a different night....
You are a brave soul. I have been taken advantage of too, except the dick actually entered my ass and the fuck took the condom off halfway through and said it 'fell off' or some bullshit. The things we do for drugs.....also had some overprivileged rich bastard want to cum all over my "Superman" chest in exchange for some bomb meth....and I let him because that shit was dank.....fucking drugs.
 

OrbitalCombustion

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Curious, how is this physically possible? I'm pretty sure you'd have worse issues to deal with than 5-10 pounds of water weight loss at that point. 😧
This was common practice for me. Good meth just made me want to wank it, sometimes I would lowkey do it in front of people. I got called out a few times. In one instance I stayed in a friends bathroom for hours saying I had some gnarley diarrhea....but I was furiously wanking it. I just couldn't stop. Physically possible you say? My body is capable of many vile things, this was one. Trust me, I almost fainted from many of those, or felt things in my body that no person should feel, but it happened. I'm still alive by the grace of God.
 

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I don't think i could let anyone fuck my ass for my favorite drug (ketamine). They'd have to be offering some SERIOUS moneys worth (I'm straight btw) and letting me do a INSANE I.M AND I.V hit first so i was blacked the fuck out while it went on 😂
As addicting as it is mentally i dont NEED it.
Not like H users NEED H.
Or meth users MUST HAVE more meth.
Guess I'm lucky really that its not physically addictive.
Id probably let another male cum on my chest for a few thousand worth IF i could wear a gas mask and ear plugs and shut my eyes during, and we were right next to a running shower/hose with anti bacterial soap at hand, lol.
Id probably let an ugly fat chick piss on me for a gram, mind.
 

4meSM

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This was common practice for me. Good meth just made me want to wank it, sometimes I would lowkey do it in front of people. I got called out a few times. In one instance I stayed in a friends bathroom for hours saying I had some gnarley diarrhea....but I was furiously wanking it. I just couldn't stop. Physically possible you say? My body is capable of many vile things, this was one. Trust me, I almost fainted from many of those, or felt things in my body that no person should feel, but it happened. I'm still alive by the grace of God.

You must be the messiah of degeneracy. Capable of superhuman feats like surviving up to 4 days without water, subsisting only on masturbation.

Waiting for part 2... Not sure if I'd be able to handle it but I'll give it my best shot.
 

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Capable of superhuman feats like surviving up to 4 days without water, subsisting only on masturbation.

He's got the world record beat by 86 hours

We may very well be in the presence of something beyond the capabilities of man here. :)
 

PrincessDiz

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The worst thing I ever did on drugs was fuck a really ugly guy. Biggest regret of my life. He was a right minger.
 

DeadManWalkin'

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This was common practice for me. Good meth just made me want to wank it, sometimes I would lowkey do it in front of people. I got called out a few times. In one instance I stayed in a friends bathroom for hours saying I had some gnarley diarrhea....but I was furiously wanking it. I just couldn't stop. Physically possible you say? My body is capable of many vile things, this was one. Trust me, I almost fainted from many of those, or felt things in my body that no person should feel, but it happened. I'm still alive by the grace of God.
HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH
TOP NOTCH POST I LOVE IT!!!!
THIS IS GOLDEN!!!
The worst thing I ever did on drugs was fuck a really ugly guy. Biggest regret of my life. He was a right minger.
I thought you were right winger too, lol.
 

DeadManWalkin'

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Yeah, I get horny as fuck on speed too.
Once me and my fiancee just went to bathroom in one house and started fucking furiously and she was screaming like a dying pig.. I just heard the home owner turn up the music and there were lots of people in the house.
Sometimes there have been people in my house and we would just close the door and start fucking no fucks given and people definetly knew what was going on since we kept so much noise.
I get so horny after shot I literally sometimes put hand straight to my pants and start stroking. I've done it in front of people too. Lowkey tho, never admitted to it.
 

PrincessDiz

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Yeah, I get horny as fuck on speed too.
Once me and my fiancee just went to bathroom in one house and started fucking furiously and she was screaming like a dying pig.. I just heard the home owner turn up the music and there were lots of people in the house.
Sometimes there have been people in my house and we would just close the door and start fucking no fucks given and people definetly knew what was going on since we kept so much noise.
I get so horny after shot I literally sometimes put hand straight to my pants and start stroking. I've done it in front of people too. Lowkey tho, never admitted to it.
So you had guys watching you, you literally made them cucks! For SHAMEEEEE
 

jhjhsdi

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Sometimes there have been people in my house and we would just close the door and start fucking no fucks given and people definetly knew what was going on since we kept so much noise.
I used to do this with my ex lol
One xmas her 2 kids, sister, sisters bf, mum, mums bf all downstairs with us and we were drinking and we went upstairs to do coke and just started fucking hard and when we came down they were all telling us we were gross lol
I didnt care. Not my family isit 😂
I wouldn't have done it if her dad or brother were there though, out of respect lol
 

DeadManWalkin'

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I used to do this with my ex lol
One xmas her 2 kids, sister, sisters bf, mum, mums bf all downstairs with us and we were drinking and we went upstairs to do coke and just started fucking hard and when we came down they were all telling us we were gross lol
I didnt care. Not my family isit 😂
I wouldn't have done it if her dad or brother were there though, out of respect lol
nahh you cuck the dad too by taking the mother in the sex and fuck the girl and her mother and if he objects you take your leather belt off and smack his ass. ok?
 

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The once and only time i've ever taken the dissociative DCK (which turned out to be contaminated with the more PCP like drug O-PCE) I essentially, and quite accidentally borderline raped my girlfriend.

I'm not a dissociative fan or user really but foolishly took half a gram (a massive dose) of this DCK/O-PCE mixture, combined with a ton of benzos and cathinone stimulants.

The problem was the night before she and I had had sex for perhaps 7 hours straight on those cathinones, so I was still in that mindset.

Hallucinating more than I've ever hallucinated before, while slipping in and out of DCK holes, I thought she and I were playing some sort of sex game. Turns out I'm the only one who was playing.

The next morning I discovered that I was covered in bruises from her try pry my off of her. I do remember going down on her and her trying to push me off with her legs and I thought it was a game. I am a pretty large muscular guy and unusually strong, so there was nothing she could do. I don't remember it all but in my mind I thought it was some sort of dark sex game. It wouldn't have happened if we had not happened to have marathon stimulant sex the night before.

She was actually fine, albeit a bit shaken up. I was mortified when I realized what had happened. It seems to have upset me more than her, as she is quicker to forget.

Even though I regained awareness that morning I was still high for the next 5 days. It was a crazy feeling. Due to the dissociative and stimulating effects of the drug I felt like punching people who walked by, I had a horrible urge to walk into traffic, I couldn't walk next to our TV without a desire to smash it, was afraid to be around knives etc. Dissociative drugs are the scariest drugs hands down.

Oddly at it's peak, before the whole raping incident, I had the most euphoric and intense psychedelic experience of my life. I reverted to the womb, and from there became some omniscient being, knowing all the secrets to the universe. For that I don't regret the experience, despite what happened and the 6 weeks it took for me to feel myself again.

But I'd never do it again.
 
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jhjhsdi

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Due to the dissociative and stimulating effects of the drug I felt like punching people who walked by, I had a horrible urge to walk into traffic, I couldn't walk next to our TV without a desire to smash it, was afraid to be around knives etc. Dissociative drugs are the scariest drugs hands down.
THIS is why i havent and wont try any new dissociates. Although they are my favorite, I don't trust myself on the new potent stimmy ones. K will do.
I was bad enough with this feeling on the tail/manic ends and afterglows of high dose MXE and MXP, especially when a little xanax and alcohol were added.
I think the worst part was i really enjoyed that crazy feeling, and used to want my trip to hurry up and get into that part 🤔
Its probably best I never do high dose PCP either. I did some mad shit.
Glad your gf is ok. I wouldn't worry yourself, at least you didnt do it on a stranger or 1 night stand, im sure she understands.
I've got a real funny feeling I've done a pretty similar thing while on mephedrone and k to an ex too, but my meph days memorys are so blurry.
 

wudbutcher

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You are a brave soul. I have been taken advantage of too, except the dick actually entered my ass and the fuck took the condom off halfway through and said it 'fell off' or some bullshit. The things we do for drugs.....also had some overprivileged rich bastard want to cum all over my "Superman" chest in exchange for some bomb meth....and I let him because that shit was dank.....fucking drugs.
Thank you both, seriously. I never got that bad. I needed some gratitude today.
 
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