Cudi
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In 2014 i had a traumatic experience with LSD. I've got a thread for it way back somewhere, super long. You probably don't need to read unless you want to know why it traumatized me for over a year. I was too young, took too much, smoked pot at the peak, was around the wrong people in wrong environment. Well the other night I rolled off about 140mg of MDMA and was coming down around 4am-ish. Thats when I randomly decided to take a 105ug tab and face this demon that's been lingering in the back of my mind for almost 6 years.
In hindsight, taking acid at the end of a night of rolling was very risky and i still don't know why i did it. It was almost like I had no choice, my mind was like "Now is the time bucko, sack up or get fucked". But it was incredible. Did it all alone, starting in my room and then trekking outside for some time and finding a nice shady spot in a mini field sort of land piece. I think it could have been more incredible if I was well rested and didn't just come down off MDMA. Not going to go in depth about my trip, just know it was calm and beautiful and that facing your fears is a good thing! This post is not to encourage people to trip again after having a bad trip, but just to show that there IS hope and not every trip after a bad one is going to be bad again. Be PATIENT. I waited 6 years and it was well worth the wait. That was the only other time I did it. Never thought I'd do it again, swore to myself I wouldn't (Out of fear). I'm here to tell you there's nothing to fear but fear itself. Cliche but true.
What's everyone's thoughts on tripping immediately after an MDMA roll? Was this a bad idea (I think I already know the answer) and I lucked out to have a good experience? I wish I hadn't rolled because after my trip, I was left with a less pronounced afterglow than I think would've got had I not taken the MDMA and had actually slept before tripping. Also a pesky MDMA hangover headache/comedown lingered after my trip ://// And it may have reduced the LSD's effects both visually and cognitively during my trip, although I did have very cool visuals. Like it could have been more euphoric possibly. I don't know, oh well. Just glad I had a good time ! :giggle:
P.S. - I am also on a medically advised benzo taper right now (clonazepam) and was on 1mg during the trip. I had some nice insights about my drug abuse and mistakes I've made, and how to progress going forward.
In hindsight, taking acid at the end of a night of rolling was very risky and i still don't know why i did it. It was almost like I had no choice, my mind was like "Now is the time bucko, sack up or get fucked". But it was incredible. Did it all alone, starting in my room and then trekking outside for some time and finding a nice shady spot in a mini field sort of land piece. I think it could have been more incredible if I was well rested and didn't just come down off MDMA. Not going to go in depth about my trip, just know it was calm and beautiful and that facing your fears is a good thing! This post is not to encourage people to trip again after having a bad trip, but just to show that there IS hope and not every trip after a bad one is going to be bad again. Be PATIENT. I waited 6 years and it was well worth the wait. That was the only other time I did it. Never thought I'd do it again, swore to myself I wouldn't (Out of fear). I'm here to tell you there's nothing to fear but fear itself. Cliche but true.
What's everyone's thoughts on tripping immediately after an MDMA roll? Was this a bad idea (I think I already know the answer) and I lucked out to have a good experience? I wish I hadn't rolled because after my trip, I was left with a less pronounced afterglow than I think would've got had I not taken the MDMA and had actually slept before tripping. Also a pesky MDMA hangover headache/comedown lingered after my trip ://// And it may have reduced the LSD's effects both visually and cognitively during my trip, although I did have very cool visuals. Like it could have been more euphoric possibly. I don't know, oh well. Just glad I had a good time ! :giggle:
P.S. - I am also on a medically advised benzo taper right now (clonazepam) and was on 1mg during the trip. I had some nice insights about my drug abuse and mistakes I've made, and how to progress going forward.
