risks
don't know if its relevant but i would like to add my experince with what i think were some research chems, here is my experience....
A few weeks ago I was given a couple of strange looking tablet from my a previously on the ball dealer...beige with white spots, crumbly and with a triangle imprint. (usually they make their own pills and such but this time they had gotten them from some collueage)
I was told that "acid" had been soaked into this tablet and that it was really strong...despite this very silly explanation and doing the safety thing first i consumed a quarter to little or no affect. (although i did candyflip that day).
On my 2nd expriement, in a safe and well control enviroment (home) I consumed 3/4 quarters of the tablet. After an hour an half I began to feel the affects. This pill was unlike any tab or microdot that I had ever had (I love acid and as a result am extremely comfortable with it). The rise was completely different, far more physical, I had strong nausea, high temperature and I was fairly uncomfortable (sounds like AMT doesn't it). All this was pretty off-putting until I began to see vibrant patterns (fractals and geometry) everywhere, undulating lines, the whole room changing colors. Unlike any trip I’ve ever consumed. It took all my self-control not to lose it, especially since I wasn't expecting this type of "trip". It was so strong, not so much as a mind fuck that acid is, but far more physical, an engulfing feeling (like i could fall in the colours and lose myself). Although I would rate the trip as an all right experience, not negative, not a freak out, the after affects have worried me far more then anything else.
Since this time I’ve had the unusual feelings occurring, from strange flashback feelings. I've had moments where I feel the trip and I get strange visual hallucinations (breathing room, undulating lines, the feeling coming back on). Memory has also suffered somewhat. Panic and such occur as a result of these previously unexperinced feelings.
After reading far more into the recent advent of research chemicals I'm quite disappointed in myself for consuming something that as explained above may be having unexpected and un-researched affects on my brain. Although I guess this could have occurred with any substances I believe strongly that I was given a research chemical, most likely AMT. I think i'm going to go back to good ole tabs and ecstasy. there a million possible adventures you can have on these wonderful substances without having to expand to group of "fuck you up the ass whilst stealing your wallet" drugs.
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