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<Roliepolie>
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I’m listening to the set that DJ Nitro was spinning when I did my first ever hit of DMT...
dude, that shit is both the best and worst experience of my life!!!
it completely shatters you within 15 seconds of inhaling. You hear a buzzing for like 10 seconds that gets louder and louder for those 10, then it got ear shattering for the next 5, but that was secondary to what I was seeing...
We all know what caricature is, those shitty drawings of you that you can have done of you at the mall or something... ya know the ones with the funny features that are exagerate’s of your body
It looked like when you held the world up to your face on a laminate piece of paper... all of the sudden as the world gets closer to your face for those next 5 seconds, do you start to notice that your no longer staring at just the world, but everything about it has something below the surface... and it scares you. It frightens the shit out of you that for this short pathertic existance of yours you’ve only seen the dirt that’s on top... you feel incredibly wasted by that fact you are shredded to bits by what comes next. You then start to see everything for what it really is and not what you’ve been seeing it as; that shitty 2D image... now you see everything in 4-D prepare to be frightened more!
Now you’re in this world of complete chaos. And for me it seems that this chaos is caused by how unfamiliar it is to you. It’s like being a rich white kid and going directly to the west side of Chicago, or to be in LA in the middle of a shootout while and earth quake and a riot go on around you, but you’re also in a burning building while a vocano is erupting next door.
Now the ecstasy part of this experience is that you can see all of these real things and innevitably change your life because of this new vision of the world, all without having to experience them. And you know for the entirety(all 15 minutes) of the trip that you are safe. That everything will be ok, that eventually the world will go back to "normal" again, but it doesn’t. You’re only 1 minute into the *trip*. But it isn’t a trip, it’s much more of an "experience" than that. It is more real than anything that has ever happened to you.
And I’m not quite sure how to explain the next 15 to 20 minutes fo my life. I don’t think anyone CAN explain it. It simply is beyond the ability to be recognized by the human brain.
"the alieness nature of DMT is utter-alieness"
that sums it all up.
But in words you can understand, but is such a disappoint to what is in actuallity going on in your mind; the entire universe is then analyzed on the same level that you anaylized that 1 small piece of your life. You’ve only scratched the surface of this thing you call life. You are going to be here for a while, and that becomes the next big fear in your life that oyu may never come back from this reality. You may be stuck seeing everything for what it really is and that might very well kill you.
It’s like the story of a man who spends his entire life in prison, he is then released to the "free" world and the stress is just too much. He just dies 2 years later from the stress of living without rules and confines... but he has the best 2 years of his life, because he is free.
That is the nature of DMT to me. That is what I learned from DMT.
I now see everything in life in the way I saw it before, but now I see it as if looking at a piece of laminate paper with life on it. I now know that something is going to be beneathe the surface of life now. Everything I touch is now different to me. I can’t sleep at night because my dreams are to incredible to even understand. So complex is life now that sometimes I just laugh at how beautiful everything is... it makes me feel like the first time I took Ecstasy. I fell asleep after I took the pill and I woke up to what can be described as the most in love I have ever been with life. For the first time in life I finally understood what everything really should mean to me.
It kinda goes back to what Alexander Shulgin said about MDMA the time he took it in the mountains... he turned around and couldn’t look at the mountains because it would make him cry to see something so beautiful. I am crying right now while typing this. I’m so torned in my life. I think drugs have done such great things for me. They’ve really shaped the kind of person I want to be... they’ve also hindered me in the search of how to become that person. I mean, I love them. I’m addicted to them. And I know that I must quit. But I’m scared because I really do receive great gifts from them. I’m so much more open than I used to be.
I will talk to anyone now. And I never fear telling someone how I feel anymore. I’m so much a different person than I used to be, and I like that. I like the kind of person that I have the potential to be. But it seems drugs may also stand in the way of that. I think that some drugs may be ok to continue to use and also not hinder me in this path to becoming a man. I’m not sure which ones the may be.
I know that coke in any form that I’ve been doing it is not going to help me in any way. I know that one has to go. I know that heroin is a beautiful thing; far to beautiful to be doing, especially when you’d sell your family for heroin and it wouldn’t phase you in the slightest to hear em say that if you were a heroin user. You’d nod in simple agreement. Heroin isn’t a good thing at all. NOONE can control it. It may allow you some degree of control, but only enough to fool yourself into thinking you have control. You don’t!
Acid and Mushrooms will never leave my side. I have learned so many things from LSD and Psylocibin and their analogues that it’s unbelieveable the things I have discovered on them. I am indeed a better person not because I use them, but because of the ways that I discover life can be lived while on these wonderful tools.
Ecstasy has already been described here, obviously it’s got perks, but I take it enough that I don’t get depressed for 2 days... it’s more like a week of downward spirals, until then and after a week it’s a big climb back to normalcy. At which time I do it again.
That needs to stop.
Now I’ve reached the 3rd minute of my trip...
Now you see why DMT cannot be, nor would you ever wwant to read about, explained.
I’ve left out about 12831236132163712 trillion ideas which have flashed in my head. and I could recall from memory EVERY SINGLE ONE.
They are stuck with me, and life is different both for the better and for the worse because of it.
If you ever feel like you’re "READY" for this, then you are NOT ready for ACID, let alone DMT.
And god damn the man that thinks that Salvia can’t do the same things for you that DMT can. It has shattered me much in the same way that DMT just did. It will change you. And if you’re one of those type who doesnt like to see both the good and bad in the world, do NOT take this.
If you are NAIVE in any way, it will take that NAIVETY and rip you a new blackhole. In a universal and monstumental way. The experience will be bad for you. I don’t recommend that and Kandy Kids try this one. I don’t recommend that ANYONE try this one. It does you, not the other way around.
-Rolie-
dude, that shit is both the best and worst experience of my life!!!
it completely shatters you within 15 seconds of inhaling. You hear a buzzing for like 10 seconds that gets louder and louder for those 10, then it got ear shattering for the next 5, but that was secondary to what I was seeing...
We all know what caricature is, those shitty drawings of you that you can have done of you at the mall or something... ya know the ones with the funny features that are exagerate’s of your body
It looked like when you held the world up to your face on a laminate piece of paper... all of the sudden as the world gets closer to your face for those next 5 seconds, do you start to notice that your no longer staring at just the world, but everything about it has something below the surface... and it scares you. It frightens the shit out of you that for this short pathertic existance of yours you’ve only seen the dirt that’s on top... you feel incredibly wasted by that fact you are shredded to bits by what comes next. You then start to see everything for what it really is and not what you’ve been seeing it as; that shitty 2D image... now you see everything in 4-D prepare to be frightened more!
Now you’re in this world of complete chaos. And for me it seems that this chaos is caused by how unfamiliar it is to you. It’s like being a rich white kid and going directly to the west side of Chicago, or to be in LA in the middle of a shootout while and earth quake and a riot go on around you, but you’re also in a burning building while a vocano is erupting next door.
Now the ecstasy part of this experience is that you can see all of these real things and innevitably change your life because of this new vision of the world, all without having to experience them. And you know for the entirety(all 15 minutes) of the trip that you are safe. That everything will be ok, that eventually the world will go back to "normal" again, but it doesn’t. You’re only 1 minute into the *trip*. But it isn’t a trip, it’s much more of an "experience" than that. It is more real than anything that has ever happened to you.
And I’m not quite sure how to explain the next 15 to 20 minutes fo my life. I don’t think anyone CAN explain it. It simply is beyond the ability to be recognized by the human brain.
"the alieness nature of DMT is utter-alieness"
that sums it all up.
But in words you can understand, but is such a disappoint to what is in actuallity going on in your mind; the entire universe is then analyzed on the same level that you anaylized that 1 small piece of your life. You’ve only scratched the surface of this thing you call life. You are going to be here for a while, and that becomes the next big fear in your life that oyu may never come back from this reality. You may be stuck seeing everything for what it really is and that might very well kill you.
It’s like the story of a man who spends his entire life in prison, he is then released to the "free" world and the stress is just too much. He just dies 2 years later from the stress of living without rules and confines... but he has the best 2 years of his life, because he is free.
That is the nature of DMT to me. That is what I learned from DMT.
I now see everything in life in the way I saw it before, but now I see it as if looking at a piece of laminate paper with life on it. I now know that something is going to be beneathe the surface of life now. Everything I touch is now different to me. I can’t sleep at night because my dreams are to incredible to even understand. So complex is life now that sometimes I just laugh at how beautiful everything is... it makes me feel like the first time I took Ecstasy. I fell asleep after I took the pill and I woke up to what can be described as the most in love I have ever been with life. For the first time in life I finally understood what everything really should mean to me.
It kinda goes back to what Alexander Shulgin said about MDMA the time he took it in the mountains... he turned around and couldn’t look at the mountains because it would make him cry to see something so beautiful. I am crying right now while typing this. I’m so torned in my life. I think drugs have done such great things for me. They’ve really shaped the kind of person I want to be... they’ve also hindered me in the search of how to become that person. I mean, I love them. I’m addicted to them. And I know that I must quit. But I’m scared because I really do receive great gifts from them. I’m so much more open than I used to be.
I will talk to anyone now. And I never fear telling someone how I feel anymore. I’m so much a different person than I used to be, and I like that. I like the kind of person that I have the potential to be. But it seems drugs may also stand in the way of that. I think that some drugs may be ok to continue to use and also not hinder me in this path to becoming a man. I’m not sure which ones the may be.
I know that coke in any form that I’ve been doing it is not going to help me in any way. I know that one has to go. I know that heroin is a beautiful thing; far to beautiful to be doing, especially when you’d sell your family for heroin and it wouldn’t phase you in the slightest to hear em say that if you were a heroin user. You’d nod in simple agreement. Heroin isn’t a good thing at all. NOONE can control it. It may allow you some degree of control, but only enough to fool yourself into thinking you have control. You don’t!
Acid and Mushrooms will never leave my side. I have learned so many things from LSD and Psylocibin and their analogues that it’s unbelieveable the things I have discovered on them. I am indeed a better person not because I use them, but because of the ways that I discover life can be lived while on these wonderful tools.
Ecstasy has already been described here, obviously it’s got perks, but I take it enough that I don’t get depressed for 2 days... it’s more like a week of downward spirals, until then and after a week it’s a big climb back to normalcy. At which time I do it again.
That needs to stop.
Now I’ve reached the 3rd minute of my trip...
Now you see why DMT cannot be, nor would you ever wwant to read about, explained.
I’ve left out about 12831236132163712 trillion ideas which have flashed in my head. and I could recall from memory EVERY SINGLE ONE.
They are stuck with me, and life is different both for the better and for the worse because of it.
If you ever feel like you’re "READY" for this, then you are NOT ready for ACID, let alone DMT.
And god damn the man that thinks that Salvia can’t do the same things for you that DMT can. It has shattered me much in the same way that DMT just did. It will change you. And if you’re one of those type who doesnt like to see both the good and bad in the world, do NOT take this.
If you are NAIVE in any way, it will take that NAIVETY and rip you a new blackhole. In a universal and monstumental way. The experience will be bad for you. I don’t recommend that and Kandy Kids try this one. I don’t recommend that ANYONE try this one. It does you, not the other way around.
-Rolie-
