That's quite A LOT of gear you are using. Anything beyond 500mg of Test (any ester) on it's own needs serious evaluation. And then when you throw in extra compounds it becomes about essentially playing your own performance coach and asking yourself why these particular compounds are needed. I'll bet you would find out that if people actually evaluated their steroid use, 90% of their cycle would be overkill. I'm applying this to casual, non-competitive everyday folk. If you're eyeballing subjective benefits based on simply how you feel, you're heading down the wrong path. You can feel great at 150mg of Test E every week. It's a scientifically proven protocol called TRT. You can feel great on one compound. If it's 'feels' you're after I would say be very careful because steroids are not 'feels' substances, they are performance enhancing drugs and they are serious business. Everytime you inject steroids you are interfering with the biological makeup of your body, and not in the same way you smoke some weed with friends. You are taking away natural production of something critical to your health and wellbeing and then swapping it for the same hormone you get in a bottle. This is a huge risk in and of itself. You are compromising your body to get more of something your body already produces but then taking what it does already produce (called HPTA shutdown) and replacing it was synthethic hormones probably made in a bath tub somewhere by an underground lab. In that process you are making serious changes to your body, something that eventually can become permanant in that the changes you make may change the way your body works forever, especially in the male hormone area. This is not good news man. Now? Maybe it seems great. Later? Do you want to be in your forties and having to inject steroids just to function? What will the 'feels' be like when you cannot live your life without needing a vial wherever you go to make you feel normal?
This is why steroids ARE dangerous. And it's okay to admit it. They do not pose immediate harms to people like other drugs and their effects are different to other drugs in that they devastate communities and the affects are everywhere you look, but they are dangerous in that they do something to your body basically no other drug can do in the same way, and that's interfere with the very makeup of your physical existence. So yeah, it's pretty big. People don't realize that because they inject it and everything seems fine, even better. But they are bringing themselves closer to making long term changes to their body every single time they take it and the risk increases the longer you use them. The prolonged use of steroids is what becomes a slow destructive force that happens behind the scenes. This is a big difference between whipped up hysteria and stigma from superficial propaganda, and the actual facts.
I've used all sorts of compounds and have been taking gear for nearly 7 years so not a lifetime but long enough to have got my feet wet. I already feel the difference now between being off cycle and on cycle. Life is noticeably different. What I'm seeking is the high, not just the benefits of what taking steroids brings in terms of gym gains etc. And that's also one of the dangerous components to steroids. They are seriously addictive. And with addiction comes harms, obviously. And when you get to this point, you crave the up instead of the down and here you are right down addiction avenue only you're looking at yourself and seeing lower testosterone you and most of the time not accepting what you see. It's not about that extra 20kg on the bench press anymore. It's not about a few more lbs of LBM. It's about the fix; what they do psychologically to you, emotionally, mentally. Now you're in a whole new realm but many people deny this and simply pretend everything is about the gym and achieving some goal but deep down, there are much more darker forces at work pushing them to take these drugs that go beyond entering a gym and lifting weight.
I'm now on 150mg every week. I up the dose for a few months to a maximum of 300mg every 3 days, thats my max. Most of the time I just do 300mg a week instead. Then I reduce back down to 150mg. I've been on 800mg+ cycles, 1000mg+ cycles, orals, seriously strong compounds etc. It did nothing for me. Sure I felt different but it wasn't real. A man who HAS to live on 1000mg of steroids every week and fools himself into believing he is healthy and normal for not being able to live life without them is already in a bad place. And I've been there and faced that truth. I now ask - For what? Not much, in all honesty. For the 'feels' if I'm being brutally honest. I took SERIOUS amounts of steroids for the 'feels'. That's absurd when you see it for how it is. I'm actually sacrificing my own natural functioning of my body for a high dose hit of steroids. I'd rather risk serious heart problems, destroy my natural production of testosterone, put strain on my entire body - just so I can get a fix. And so when you see it like that, it's a serious addiction and has serious consequences.
Looking at the brief details of your cycle, you're on anywhere from 800mg-1000mg every week. Maybe even more, maybe 1100-1300mg with orals involved. Unless you are a competitive bodybuilder, powerlifter, strongman, strength athlete - what has an average user of steroids got to do with such a HUGE cycle? Unless you're jacked, bench pressing 200kg+, squatting 300kg+, deadlifting 300kg+ etc you really have no need to be on such a heavy cycle. There are NO benefits at this dose, but they are way more risks, way more. Plus you are WASTING the compounds because above a certain point they don't provide differing effects. I'm on 150mg a week right now and I can take 300mg of just one compound and get ALL the effects you are getting at 800mg and beyond. You are drinking several bottles of vodka to get the same effect that a few shots can give, plus you're still conscious and able to function. There are people weighing 100kg+ of sheer muscle mass who take cycles like this, many of them who are competing.
Be very careful. It's a very serious path you are taking and unless there is a gold medal at the end of it, a contract with sponsors worth tens maybe even hundreds of thousands of (your currency here), reaching the hall of fame, getting to a pro/elite level etc you have to ask yourself WHY EXACTLY are you taking these drugs? The answer will likely be quite humbling, as it has been for me, and it's answering that call when it comes down the line and choosing to do the right thing. For me that meant no longer going beyond 600mg a week ever again. 600mg being an extreme dose now, not a flirtation with the dawn of yet more dosing. That's the ceiling. Not that I have had serious side effects, you don't need to look that far to see the reality of steroid abuse in society and the damage is causes. It's not as blatant as other street drugs but the damage is pretty shocking, especially after prolonged use. It becomes a case of asking yourself whether reaching 40-50 and beyond is what you want and when you get there, do you want to be there with some advanced stage illness that can come as a result of taking them. Some do fine. Some don't. The risks are increased every week, month, year you abuse steroids at extreme levels like you are doing.
Edit: Also bare in mind we live in a world nowadays that puts OVERKILL at the top of our priorities. Why take this normal Monster energy drink when you can have 200MG+ MORE CAFFEINE!!!???? Why have just one coffee when you can have 10+ IN ONE SINGLE SERVING???!!! Why just take 300mg of Test E when you can have a SUPER HIGH STRENGTH MULTI ESTER!!!???? Why have normal size when you can have SUPERSIZE???!!! Why have 150mg of MDMA in a pill when you can have 300-400MG!!!!???? The consequences of living in a society like this are quite apparent when you look at how it affects people. Supersize meals are great once in a blue moon, right? Who actually lives on supersize meals everyday and isn't competing and utilizing all that energy? Then look at the aftermath of those that DO live a lifestyle like that who can't handle it. It's no different with steroids. We live in an excessive society that only thinks of the short term while we are expertly marketed way beyond what we will ever need. Who benefits? Really?
Take care man
