undertow13
Greenlighter
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- Oct 2, 2012
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So, I was addicted to opiates for a long time and it was a hell of a struggle but I've managed to stay clean from all opioids except Suboxone for the past 6 years (prescribed by a doc). I used many things, but my DOC was Opana (oxymorphone). I'm doing my groups, meetings, therapy, working out, I've cut off people who use any drugs (though that unfortunately doesn't leave many people to hang out with, but better than being around it). But these cravings I've been getting are a bit troubling.
I know cravings are normal to a degree but I keep having cravings for Opana specifically (not for other opioids I used)-- and they are so random like, I'll be browsing the web or playing guitar or be at a concert or just whatever and suddenly get an intense craving that lasts a good 30-60 minutes. My typical methods to fight/ignore cravings are not effective for these. Luckily it's not easy to find because I feel like if I knew where to find them now while I was in that state, I would get some. I don't ever want to go back though but that's how intense they are. Not sure how to stop these cravings -- usually there's some trigger I can identify and find some way to work on it, but like I said, these are just so random. I feel like these cravings should've lessened in intensity after 6 years on sub and it's a bit discouraging when I get them. I've been around dope and other things since being on sub, even dilaudid which was easily my "second" DOC-- but the cravings I had were just fleeting thoughts that were easy to fight and I was able to cut those people off without a second thought. So I don't know what's up with these, or why they are so intense, or how I can stop cravings I can't identify a trigger for. I mean is it normal to have cravings this bad this long into sobriety? I'm taking 16mg / sub a day -- I'm planning on talking to my doctor about upping my dose or something, or whatever he thinks, but other than that I'm at a loss. Anyone go through anything similar? Any advice is much appreciated.
I know cravings are normal to a degree but I keep having cravings for Opana specifically (not for other opioids I used)-- and they are so random like, I'll be browsing the web or playing guitar or be at a concert or just whatever and suddenly get an intense craving that lasts a good 30-60 minutes. My typical methods to fight/ignore cravings are not effective for these. Luckily it's not easy to find because I feel like if I knew where to find them now while I was in that state, I would get some. I don't ever want to go back though but that's how intense they are. Not sure how to stop these cravings -- usually there's some trigger I can identify and find some way to work on it, but like I said, these are just so random. I feel like these cravings should've lessened in intensity after 6 years on sub and it's a bit discouraging when I get them. I've been around dope and other things since being on sub, even dilaudid which was easily my "second" DOC-- but the cravings I had were just fleeting thoughts that were easy to fight and I was able to cut those people off without a second thought. So I don't know what's up with these, or why they are so intense, or how I can stop cravings I can't identify a trigger for. I mean is it normal to have cravings this bad this long into sobriety? I'm taking 16mg / sub a day -- I'm planning on talking to my doctor about upping my dose or something, or whatever he thinks, but other than that I'm at a loss. Anyone go through anything similar? Any advice is much appreciated.
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