Been having some really good days recently. I noticed yesterday that I pretty much forgot how everything felt. The sound of birds singing, the feel of a nice fresh breeze. Most people on here, their main concern is will I ever get drunk or high again. That's the least of my concerns. I want to feel what it's like to be alive again. To be aware of my surroundings and of myself. I've been dead for two years and I'm just starting to see a light at the end of the tunnel. Another month and a half it will be a year since I've had my last invega shot. I turn 30 today, and I never imagined my life turning out this way. The last ten years are examples of what not to do. Hopefully the next ten will be a lot smoother sailing.