Antidepressants don't work on you because an antagonist has a higher affinity to receptors than its agonists. Maybe paliperidone doesn't block serotonin receptors that much, idk, but I still think that SSRIs won't work until there's no Invega left in your bloodstream. I know, for instance, that Abilify blocks serotonin levels to a great degree, because my anxiety is 10 times worse than before the shot.
Idk about xanax, you obviously shouldn't take it everyday, but taking it ad hoc should be alright. Yeah, me saying that I won't take any type of drugs ever again in my life seems funny to me now, lol. I just can't live my life the way it is, if I can't have my serotonin and dopamine for now, even in small amounts, them let's make use of GABA. I'll have a prescription for pregabalin on Thursday, so I'll probably take it for a month or so, then withdrawal and switching to some kind of benzo for a week, then coming back to pregabalin.