No improvement at all. After a few months after the injection I was having multiple windows, but then I was just stuck feeling terrible all the time and it stays that way. I don't know when I can expect an improvement, maybe I'll feel better when there's no amount of the drug left, or maybe it will take a lot more than that.
Don't worry about being an extreme case, cause I'm an extreme case too. Severe anxiety, OCD, depression, different sorts of neurosis, almost no speech, no motivation or joy, I can't enjoy anything even a bit, music used to make me feel good, now listening to music hurts, it's like I'm listening to screams and pointless words, so I don't turn it on.it's been 5 months and I still experience extreme cognitive difficulty, I feel my brain burn if I think too much, it feels like dementia, maybe I am an extreme case and I don't want to discourage others, just sharing that you are not alone, nearly every second of the day I miss my old brain with its creativity and imagination and artistry, brilliance, sensitivity, passion, intuition, drive... I don't know how to live without those things, my soul is trapped / buried, it's like the 'self' part of my brain is gone, I am 30 and cannot bear to live this way for 50 years
it got postponed to tomorrow because i asked for a second examiner. but it's looking like it's gonna get extended for up to 12 months.
how'd the talk with your therapist go?
That's so stressful. I hope the therapist is good and supportive.
So I was extremely nervous before the phone call. I was at first reading everything from sheets of paper, I wrote two pages with size 8 font, so there was a lot of reading. I was really scared at first, then my reading out loud wasn't so bad, but after a couple of minutes I started to stutter a bit and my voice cracked, it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be though. The therapist was quite understanding, but I felt like she was being a little cold towards me, but that may be because she's a professionalist and she didn't want to show her emotions. She said that there's definitely a problem, especially with doctors misdiagnosing me which caused me a lot of trouble. To my surprise, my speech wasn't so bad when I talked to her, that was really, really weird. She noticed that, because I told her I'm extremely dumb after this drug, so she said that if she didn't know about my illness, she wouldn't have ever thought that I have such problems with speech and said that my statements were very logical. She asked me if it's tough talking to her, I said it's extremely tough. I explained that if I talk to my family I don't really know what to say and that I say a few words at most, but when I try to talk to her (therapist) or my psychiatrist, I tend to pretend that I'm not so mentally ill, I subconsciously try to look healthy, because I'm scared of what other people think of me, so even when it's extremely difficult for me to talk, I try to act like there's not so much problem, because I'm scared of being judged and I'm ashamed of my problems with speech and stupidity. Of course when we spoke for about 20-30 minutes already, I started to lose my words etc, I was getting more dumb with time, because my brain was sick of trying to look normal. She agreed that I probably am right about my hypothesis, but in the end she said that I need a therapist "face to face" and that phone calls will not be enough for me, she's from a city far distant from mine, so I can't visit her personally. She said that my psychiatrist seems like a really nice and trustful person, so I can ask her for some therapist around my place. I was looking around the Internet for a therapist around me and haven't found a single person that would admit patients face to face, so I have to stick to Skype with a camera, so a person can see my face and my emotions. A friend of mine recommended me a really good therapist from around my area, I called her yesterday and looked at her profile on the Internet, she really seems like a good and wise person, so I'll have an online chat on Friday or Monday.
I’m responding to you because you were the only one to reach out to me. Listen warrior you will get better in time I promise. I thought I was going to suffer forever. Well at 8 months my suffering stopped. I no longer suffer or think about blue light. I was bed ridden for 8 months. I was dying everyday. I know you are suffering everyday but please hang on. People do commit suicide from invega, but you won’t because you are listening to me. I made it threw the torture phase and you will to. I’m watching you on blue light on the sidelines. No I have not recovered yet. I wish I was recovered, but I’m not. I feel better I’m not suffering but I have a long ways to go to heal. I started Wellbutrin everyday now and it helps but keeps you up all night sometimes. I need to find a sleep medication badly. I want you to stay strong. Sbar25 is getting better to because his post are finally positive now. I’m still praying for god to heal me everyday. Like I said I’m not healed not even close, but I’m not suffering. I can wait everyday now without being drives insane by invega. Guys listen I went from 145lbs to 117lbs now. I lost all my invega weight. My sex drive is almost back but my emotions are dull but I do feel some emotions but not strong emotions. My boyfriend left me which was best. Invega is deadly and I truly hope you all stays strong. It does get better. Read my post I thought I would never get better, but when I do heal I promise to let invega warriors know that I did. I don’t check blue light everyday so if you have any questions message me and I’ll check it soon. Good luck guys and again hold on. Shot I hate invega I’m still got invega in my system. I pray I recover soon. Good luck ixi I’m your friend always until you recover or I recover. Don’t give up girl. GODSPEED
well i'm happy you were able to do it despite the struggle. hopefully this next one can help. i understand how shitty it is. i went through severe speech and social anxiety before a couple years back and it sucked. could barely be myself around my friends and typing a paragraph took me 20 minutes, and i had to pre meditate responses. it was just so unnatural and painful.
glad you're feeling better Paula! was it the wellbutrin?
How many shots did you get.?I read well over 100 pages in a book today. First time I've done that in almost two years. I can feel my brain fog lifting. My libido isn't back yet but my vision has definitely improved. Colors are brighter! Stay focused guys, all will end well!
alot of people do return to their previous weight but online it says that some people don't. but i believe the majority do. i think you gain weight because APs interfere with your metabolism and prolactin. so once the medication is gone your prolactin levels and metabolism should return to normal and burn off the unnatural weight. diet and exercise i believe is necessary if you originally have trouble losing weight. i didn't read about it raising lipids levels though, is that what actually causes the weight gain? cause what i found was metabolism and prolactin interference.
A years worth, so around 11 or 12