SWIM ,18 y/o, has used LSD 2 times in total so far, each with around ~220-300mcg of some of what he has reason to believe, is among the purest "high-end" LSD avaliable on the market. SWIM's first experiment with the substance was around the end of May, and the second one, about 30 days later.
SWIM's first experience, was happy,insightful, and quite enjoyiable , and the second one, while not being as pleasureable as the first one, was still not to be definied as "a bad trip" ,in his opinion , having been just somewhat more overwhelming , and with a distinct jaw pain that lasted about 36 hours, which he thought was from the dopamine agonism caused by LSD.
SWIM hasn't touched LSD since then, since he recently discovered that his uncle, was diagnosed with Catatonic schizophrenia, something that if he had known, would have made him stay away all sorts of psychedelics and other drugs.
As soon as SWIM discovered the fact, he became obviously quite scared, given what he had previously read about psychedelics triggering schizophrenia. So anyway, after some research,and as far as SWIM understood, it seems that those at greater risk, are people with direct blood relatives (which as far as SWIM undestood are just parents,siblings ang grandparents), having had schizophrenia, and being swim's uncle not in that circle, he believes to be at lesser risk.
And also, according to some governement drugs-prevention websites, the type of the relative's schizophrenia that would put swim at risk, would be "Paranoid schizophrenia", with Catatonic schizophrenia nowhere to be mentioned.
So anyway, given SWIM's panic, he immediately googled up the early signs of developing schizophrenia, that may usually be experienced ,and found this: http://www.schizophrenia.com/earlysigns.htm, of which, he seems to be having the following:
So anyway, I thank those of you who have taken time to read so far, and now comes the question swim would have to have answered.
Do you guys think that SWIM is indeed doomed, and should enjoy his last weeks as a "normal" person, and wait for voices telling him to do stuff to appear, non-existing entities to appear out of thin air, or thoughts about NWO dominating the world? [delirium]
And if not, do you think that there is a reasonable risk for SWIM to abstain from further LSD use?
In SWIM's opinion , LSD was indeed a remarkably interesting and fascinating experience, which he would definitely like to be able to try again, but if that would risk in him resulting to develop Schizophrenia (hoping that it's not already too late) , he would toss everything in the garbage, and never touch any substances again.
PS: As a foot note, SWIM has never done any other drugs, not even prescription ones, having always tried to avoid them to the maximum extent.
Thanks in advance to anyone who will take time to answer SWIM's concerns.
SWIM's first experience, was happy,insightful, and quite enjoyiable , and the second one, while not being as pleasureable as the first one, was still not to be definied as "a bad trip" ,in his opinion , having been just somewhat more overwhelming , and with a distinct jaw pain that lasted about 36 hours, which he thought was from the dopamine agonism caused by LSD.
SWIM hasn't touched LSD since then, since he recently discovered that his uncle, was diagnosed with Catatonic schizophrenia, something that if he had known, would have made him stay away all sorts of psychedelics and other drugs.
As soon as SWIM discovered the fact, he became obviously quite scared, given what he had previously read about psychedelics triggering schizophrenia. So anyway, after some research,and as far as SWIM understood, it seems that those at greater risk, are people with direct blood relatives (which as far as SWIM undestood are just parents,siblings ang grandparents), having had schizophrenia, and being swim's uncle not in that circle, he believes to be at lesser risk.
And also, according to some governement drugs-prevention websites, the type of the relative's schizophrenia that would put swim at risk, would be "Paranoid schizophrenia", with Catatonic schizophrenia nowhere to be mentioned.
So anyway, given SWIM's panic, he immediately googled up the early signs of developing schizophrenia, that may usually be experienced ,and found this: http://www.schizophrenia.com/earlysigns.htm, of which, he seems to be having the following:
Now, the thing that gives SWIM a sparkle of hope , is that he's been having such "symptoms" years before even trying LSD or any other drug, and he believes that they might be as well be caused by MDD, which I seem to have all signs of, according the "DSM-IV definition" of such disorder. And also, being SWIM an INTx according the MBTI, such symptoms may as well be caused by his personality ,rather than any specific disease.--A blank, vacant facial expression. An inability to smile or express emotion through the face is so characteristic of the disease that it was given the name of affective flattening or a blunt affect.
--Staring, while in deep thought, with infrequent blinking.
--The inability to experience joy or pleasure from activities
--Sometimes feeling nothing at all
--Feeling indifferent to important events
--Depression- feeling discouraged and hopeless about the future
--Low motivation, energy, and little or no enthusiasm
--Rapidly changing mood- from happy to sad to angry for no apparent reason
--Inability to form or keep relationships
--Social isolation- few close friends if any. Little interaction outside of immediate family.
--Increased withdrawal, spending most of the days alone.
--Becoming lost in thoughts and not wanting to be disturbed with human contact
--Functional impairment in interpersonal relationships
--Inappropriate responses- laughing or smiling when talking of a sad event, making irrational statements.
--Ruminating thoughts- these are the same thoughts that go around and round your head but get you nowhere. Often about past disappointments, missed opportunities, failed relationships.
--Making up new words (neologisms)
--In conversation you tend to say very little
--Trouble with social cues- i.e. not being able to interpret body language, eye contact, voice tone, and gestures appropriately. --Often not responding appropriately and thus coming off as cold, distant, or detached.
--Poor concentration/ memory. Forgetfulness (note- While I have concentration problems, my memory is well above averge)
--Overpowering, intense feeling you are being watched, followed, and spied on (tracking devices, implants, hidden cameras) [NOTE- Well, SWIM wouldn't say that he believes to have either tracking devices nor implants, but he is however always trying to anonymize myself on the internet, blocking ADS,trackers,social widgets and the such, since he doesen't like the idea of social networks/ad trackers having any sort of "archive" profiling him, his likes and targetting him with ads according to their "profiling".]
So anyway, I thank those of you who have taken time to read so far, and now comes the question swim would have to have answered.
Do you guys think that SWIM is indeed doomed, and should enjoy his last weeks as a "normal" person, and wait for voices telling him to do stuff to appear, non-existing entities to appear out of thin air, or thoughts about NWO dominating the world? [delirium]
And if not, do you think that there is a reasonable risk for SWIM to abstain from further LSD use?
In SWIM's opinion , LSD was indeed a remarkably interesting and fascinating experience, which he would definitely like to be able to try again, but if that would risk in him resulting to develop Schizophrenia (hoping that it's not already too late) , he would toss everything in the garbage, and never touch any substances again.
PS: As a foot note, SWIM has never done any other drugs, not even prescription ones, having always tried to avoid them to the maximum extent.
Thanks in advance to anyone who will take time to answer SWIM's concerns.