I have a long history with mental illness (Bipolar I), ADHD, 2 episodes of psychosis and a variety of psychoactive drugs (mainly weed, psychedelics, MDMA, and amphetamines) as well as lots and lots of prescribed psychiatric drugs. Rather than an essay I’ll try with bullet points:
1. Teenage use of weed potentiated what was likely latent and genetically coded Bipolar Illness. Trauma a contributing factor.
2. Undiagnosed mental illness led to lots of self-medicating with stimulants and MDMA for years - life a total fucking roller coaster
3. Diagnosis and Rx pharmaceuticals brought stability, happiness and prosperity but lots and lots of negative side-effects
4. Periodically stopping Rx pharmaceuticals to stop side effects led to binging on stimulants and a lonely fucked up life
5. Psychological treatment rather than psychiatric medication gradually allowed me to safely stop Rx meds
6. Same psychological treatment allowed me to more safely take drugs without totally de-railing my life BUT
7. Also greatly reduced need/desire to get fucked up on drugs.
If I were very young and diagnosed with bipolar or another serious psychiatric illness, I would aim to be on psychiatric meds for maybe 4 years only while I undertook lots of therapy to learn about my own thoughts, behaviours, triggers etc etc. Then I would gradually wean myself off all psychiatric meds and see how I coped for a year or so. Only then would I think about getting into trying drugs for fun. A degree of mania and depression would be inevitable, so I’d mentally set some boundaries about what I would accept in terms of my feelings and behaviour changing before I (a) stopped fucking with drugs or (b) went back on my meds.
I’d also be wary of taking too much advice from people who put enjoying drugs at the top of their priorities if I was the kind of young person with career, family or other serious ambitions.