So basically I did something very stupid. I started abusing baclofen on dec 27th, started by taking about 100 miligrams that day. It felt amazing.
I have severe depression and anxiety disorders one of them is paruresis which is the inability to urinate in the presence of others or if people are close the the bathroom. Baclofen seemed to help all of this and for about a week I was taking it every day in varying doses at most in the 200mg range although I'm not sure.
I stopped taking it on Jan 2nd because I ran out and had a bit of anxiety but didn't really know why. I found a few baclofen on jan 5th and took 60mg along with a little bit of tramadol and felt fine. then on the 7th i came across a bunch more and started another 4 day binge, one day losing count how many I took.
On the 11th I said enough and started reading about the withdrawal syndrome and a whole bunch of horror stories on forums, my anxiety got worse and worse the more I read about baclofen. I was able to keep it under control by playing games with my friends online and talking with them, but at night when everyone was asleep and I was alone I would get waves and waves of near panic attacks and an underlying constant anxiety. I made it about 4 days until sleeping only a few hours a day and constant anxiety wore me down. I literally thought I was going to die or have a seizure, my muscles were tense in the neck and arms and the anxiety made it feel much worse. I though I would have to confess to my family about being an addict and go to the ER. So yesterday I took about 200mg to get high, stop the anxiety and was able to sleep all evening and night. So here I am with only 30 10mg tablets left, but I'm still afraid I'm going to die. I haven't taken any today but I want to start tapering. Today i'm going to the metal health office to try to get on medicaid for my already serious anxiety/depression and paruresis and go to the doctor for help.
To complicate things at the beginning of last month I ended up in the ER after a week long drinking binge, I thought I was going to die and had my first full blown panic. Not even a day in the ER and I now have almost 7,000$ in medical bills with no way to pay. So suffice it to say I don't want to go back to the ER, I'm completely TERRIFIED because the last time I was there I couldn't urinate and they had to put a catheter in me. I just want to get through this somehow, but I'm really afraid I'm going to die.
To sum things up I basically went on a baclofen binge off and on for about 2 weeks and I need advice on how to taper as fast as possible and maybe some solace that I'm not going to die from this.
I have severe depression and anxiety disorders one of them is paruresis which is the inability to urinate in the presence of others or if people are close the the bathroom. Baclofen seemed to help all of this and for about a week I was taking it every day in varying doses at most in the 200mg range although I'm not sure.
I stopped taking it on Jan 2nd because I ran out and had a bit of anxiety but didn't really know why. I found a few baclofen on jan 5th and took 60mg along with a little bit of tramadol and felt fine. then on the 7th i came across a bunch more and started another 4 day binge, one day losing count how many I took.
On the 11th I said enough and started reading about the withdrawal syndrome and a whole bunch of horror stories on forums, my anxiety got worse and worse the more I read about baclofen. I was able to keep it under control by playing games with my friends online and talking with them, but at night when everyone was asleep and I was alone I would get waves and waves of near panic attacks and an underlying constant anxiety. I made it about 4 days until sleeping only a few hours a day and constant anxiety wore me down. I literally thought I was going to die or have a seizure, my muscles were tense in the neck and arms and the anxiety made it feel much worse. I though I would have to confess to my family about being an addict and go to the ER. So yesterday I took about 200mg to get high, stop the anxiety and was able to sleep all evening and night. So here I am with only 30 10mg tablets left, but I'm still afraid I'm going to die. I haven't taken any today but I want to start tapering. Today i'm going to the metal health office to try to get on medicaid for my already serious anxiety/depression and paruresis and go to the doctor for help.
To complicate things at the beginning of last month I ended up in the ER after a week long drinking binge, I thought I was going to die and had my first full blown panic. Not even a day in the ER and I now have almost 7,000$ in medical bills with no way to pay. So suffice it to say I don't want to go back to the ER, I'm completely TERRIFIED because the last time I was there I couldn't urinate and they had to put a catheter in me. I just want to get through this somehow, but I'm really afraid I'm going to die.
To sum things up I basically went on a baclofen binge off and on for about 2 weeks and I need advice on how to taper as fast as possible and maybe some solace that I'm not going to die from this.
