DistyBoi
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Right so I've got myself in a very sticky situation at the moment. I'll make it breif. Been at uni 3 yrs and every single deadline and work was done with the use of 4fa binges over weeks period, it worked a charm, got all work done to high standard.
However now in my final year (with the last hand in date within 3-4 weeks now) i've stupily done the same procrastinating with the work and I've got so much more work to do than other years that I've already spent a good 2 weeks using it nearly daily, with quite frequent day long binges mixed in too. Now I'm at the point where do any work at all I feel I need to use some, and my tollerence is going up and up for diminishing returns, and have generally decreased physiological signs when I do take it (heart rate always stable but doesn't rise much) I have been taking concomitantly with etizolam to stop the anxiety, muscle tension and too high BPM which has been a saviour to me. I'm more than happy to sacrifice a month or so of amphet and benzo withdrawal hell to pass a degree ive worked on for four years. I'll roughly exaplin my doses and useage habit below in a sec, but having read through the amazingly informative Amphetamine - The Drug You Learn to Hate I really am curious how different 4fa should be the effects of normal amphet?
Since amphets binges is usually a monthly thing for me I need a highish dose to start anyway, 120mg in the morning is perfect for work without too much stimulation, then 50xmg bumps every 3-4 hours as needed lasted about five days.
On 4-5 day 120mg basically gave nothing, or marginal effects (heart rate not effected at all) so I topped up to 200mg, same the previous 120mg. Bumps needed were rising to 75 now.
On tenth day after a few binges (side note: Throughout I have gotten lots of sleep and maintained a very healthy diet) in total from seven in the morning to nine at night I needed an entire gram simply to maintain my focus on my work, with a couple of etiz to calm the jitters, and extra to sleep.
Well now it's day 14 and im at the point now where 250-300mg will give me a decent initial boost of motivation (I drink it over 20-30 mins), and top ups every 1-2 hours of 100mg are needed (stuff wears off sooo quickly now). So I'm pushing a gram a day. Oddly even when buzzing and concentrating my heart rate is nearly normal, but when I move around and exercise I get very out breath very quickly. This effect recovers after a nights sleep.
So the issue is I have another two weeks where I am going to have to be concentrating daily on work to pass my degree. But never having done an amphetamine for this long, or gotten to this level tollerance, I have no idea if what I'm doing is just silly or actually dangerous. Any feedback from oher amphet addicts here on how it effected you would be greatly appreciated. I've no idea if people often use amphets daily, morning to night, for this long, with such such tollerance, so dont know if this is a typial amphetamine addiction or more serious. Extrapolating the above rising dosage with time by the end of the next 2-3 weeks I could be using 2-3 4fa a day?!
So just a two few breif questions that will really help me work out what I am to do:
Tollerence can not rise forever until something physiological gives signs of strain, or gives up entirely, so what would be the first warning signs the amount I'm using should go no higher?
What advise would you give to me for my situation, either important advise or just a suggestion, any recommendations would be appreciated.
Thanks.
However now in my final year (with the last hand in date within 3-4 weeks now) i've stupily done the same procrastinating with the work and I've got so much more work to do than other years that I've already spent a good 2 weeks using it nearly daily, with quite frequent day long binges mixed in too. Now I'm at the point where do any work at all I feel I need to use some, and my tollerence is going up and up for diminishing returns, and have generally decreased physiological signs when I do take it (heart rate always stable but doesn't rise much) I have been taking concomitantly with etizolam to stop the anxiety, muscle tension and too high BPM which has been a saviour to me. I'm more than happy to sacrifice a month or so of amphet and benzo withdrawal hell to pass a degree ive worked on for four years. I'll roughly exaplin my doses and useage habit below in a sec, but having read through the amazingly informative Amphetamine - The Drug You Learn to Hate I really am curious how different 4fa should be the effects of normal amphet?
Since amphets binges is usually a monthly thing for me I need a highish dose to start anyway, 120mg in the morning is perfect for work without too much stimulation, then 50xmg bumps every 3-4 hours as needed lasted about five days.
On 4-5 day 120mg basically gave nothing, or marginal effects (heart rate not effected at all) so I topped up to 200mg, same the previous 120mg. Bumps needed were rising to 75 now.
On tenth day after a few binges (side note: Throughout I have gotten lots of sleep and maintained a very healthy diet) in total from seven in the morning to nine at night I needed an entire gram simply to maintain my focus on my work, with a couple of etiz to calm the jitters, and extra to sleep.
Well now it's day 14 and im at the point now where 250-300mg will give me a decent initial boost of motivation (I drink it over 20-30 mins), and top ups every 1-2 hours of 100mg are needed (stuff wears off sooo quickly now). So I'm pushing a gram a day. Oddly even when buzzing and concentrating my heart rate is nearly normal, but when I move around and exercise I get very out breath very quickly. This effect recovers after a nights sleep.
So the issue is I have another two weeks where I am going to have to be concentrating daily on work to pass my degree. But never having done an amphetamine for this long, or gotten to this level tollerance, I have no idea if what I'm doing is just silly or actually dangerous. Any feedback from oher amphet addicts here on how it effected you would be greatly appreciated. I've no idea if people often use amphets daily, morning to night, for this long, with such such tollerance, so dont know if this is a typial amphetamine addiction or more serious. Extrapolating the above rising dosage with time by the end of the next 2-3 weeks I could be using 2-3 4fa a day?!
So just a two few breif questions that will really help me work out what I am to do:
Tollerence can not rise forever until something physiological gives signs of strain, or gives up entirely, so what would be the first warning signs the amount I'm using should go no higher?
What advise would you give to me for my situation, either important advise or just a suggestion, any recommendations would be appreciated.
Thanks.
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