Nagelfar, going walking use to be one of my favorite things to do too. This is coming from an agoraphobic, lazy, anxiety ridden person.
But as soon as I'd feel my heroin or my tramadol, I would immediately grab my headphones and off I'd go to go walking for hours & hours. Never being bothered by the pains of existence at all. I really miss it.
My situation sounds like yours kind of. I originally was buying my buprenorphine off the street long before I ever got my own prescription. And back then, I would go on heroin binges off and on and usually I would take the subs when my tolerance was super low. Usually like a corner of a strip, maybe 1mg sublingual. And it would last all day and actually felt GOOD. It had almost identical effects to the other opiates I love, just with it's own flavor. Plus it was cheaper and longer lasting than heroin.
That was back in 2016-2017. I got on them for real in 2017 and been on them daily ever since, with little vacations and breaks here or there. And my experience mirrors yours, in that the longer I've been on them, the shittier they feel.
Bupe is TOO long acting for me. And I say that because even if it does give me some good feelings after I take it, they only last maybe an hour and then I'll just feel lethargic, tired, dulled down the rest of the day. And even a bit sore and uncomfortable. Usually dosing more subs doesn't even do anything for me either except extend the duration of shitty feelings. I would almost compare the feelings suboxone gives me to being on some kind of psychiatric drug that dulls me down. I don't like it at all, but I don't think I could get off of them either, not without replacing them with some other form of opioid.
I think the shorter acting opioids retain their positive benefits much better than long acting ones. The long acting ones continue to build upon each dosages until your just fully saturated all the time. Where as with the shorter acting opioids, I would get a boost every time I dosed. I could get away with living on 3-4 good sized doses of quality heroin a day if I had the choice.
I feel pretty stuck where I'm at honestly. And I even stick to low doses of bupe everyday, none of this 8mg-24mg stuff.
@allone, maybe those H addicts weren't aware that taking suboxone too soon would throw them into withdrawal? Lol Maybe that pissed them off?
I have experience using brand name Suboxone for years and then having to switch to Dr Reddy's strips and now finally my insurance only covers the tablets, but G_Chem & I aren't on good speaking terms. lol I've actually run tests and taken both brand name and generic in the same day and haven't noticed too much of a difference except that the Dr. Reddy's strips feel less potent.
I agree with the consesus though. We need free heroin clinics. Or they need to loosen the restrictions on methadone, cause this is bullshit.
I will give bupe some credit in the beginning. They helped me stay away from alcohol and they almost completely eliminated my self destructive behavior and suicidal behavior. At least for awhile. But now those issues are starting to return, since bupe feels like shit now and leaves me craving all day long.
I find bupe to only really be enjoyable if I use cannabis or meth with it. Which I don't want to have to do.
I completely agree with
@Nagelfar, that heroin's only issue is it's legal status, which causes a myriad of other issues that people wouldn't have to deal with if they could just get their drugs without hassle. But alas, we still have these people who think drug users are less than human out there running things.