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Hello friends, I had an interesting experience the other day. This is my first trip report. I ingested my maintenance dosage of 10 g kratom, 5 g phenibut, and also 17 mg of miprocin and went to AA. I had no intention of chairing this meeting as I never have before.
I go to AA because I'm an alcoholic, of course, and I benefit from the free therapy and fellowship with other people trying to improve their lives. I have been taking psychedelics again, I hadn't taken many in recent years, to get to the root of my alcoholism. It was destroying my life and I want to be done with it. I quit hard drugs on my own in recent years but alcohol has been a different beast. It's a much more pervasive addiction in my opinion because of legality and social acceptance. Not many people will ask you if you wanna smoke a few rocks or get your nod on after a hard day at work to socialize, but many people will ask if you want to get a drink afterwards.
My use of psychedelics has helped me to abstain from alcohol and has curbed the constant thirst for it. I had been struggling very badly with it before the last few years. I am the kind of person who has been fired by religious librarians from a temp job at the American Theological Society in Chicago for drinking most of a handle of cheap vodka and passing out at the desk I attended. I was unresponsive and I was carried out by EMS on a stretcher. I once drank a bunch of Everclear and was taken to the hospital for alcohol poisoning with a .39 BAC, afterwards accepted into the psych ward. Not proud of this, I just want to give some background information.
I have been mostly abstinent from alcohol lately and I have been looking for a trancendental experience and I got one for ya.
Substances ingested: Approx. 30 grams of kratom total, 5 grams phenibut, and 17 mg 4-HO-MIPT.
I decided to dose 17 mg miprocin and go to AA riding my bicycle. The day after would be Bicycle Day, but I didn't remember that until today. I thought if I felt uncomfortable that I could leave. Not this time. I showed up to a small meeting and the chairperson was clearly not going to arrive. We needed someone to chair the meeting. Someone who has 10 years sobriety suggested that I chair the meeting. He volun-told me to do it and sat the chairperson's folder in front of me. I've never chaired a meeting as I still take psychedelics and kratom. They would disagree with my methods, but as a former hard opiate addict, alcoholic, benzo-head, recovered tweaker/crackhead, DXM addict....I figure that the maintenance drugs of phenibut and kratom are the lesser of the evils.
Kratom and phenibut have helped me lead a normal life where I'm not crushed by anxiety. I've been able to make and keep friends, hold a job, be a caring and compassionate person, and a hell of a hard worker with the aid of these drugs and psychedelics. I don't care if it's not classic "sobriety"...I refuse to be suicidally depressed, which was exacerbated by alcohol. I will recover by any means necessary.
So, the miprocin was taken 15 minutes before the meeting and by the time we finished the preamble I was already "up" but not feeling the peak effects by any means. I suggested a topic as no one else had any suggestions. These are lost people and many of them are in early sobriety and feel empty inside. It was such a golden opportunity/teaching experience to lead them and tell what I had learned in my journey and how events that we think have ruined our lives have in actuality presented us with the opportunity of starting anew. They were all literally looking at me directly as they shared/confessed their experiences. It was catharsis for me and for them as well, I think. Like a snake that is shedding it's skin, we're irate and milky eyed and don't want to be touched...you'd be in danger to do so actually. Afterwards we can be "happy snakes" when the painful shedding process is over. The phoenix from the ashes thing.
They were looking to me for some hope and recovery and I provided my experience, strength, and hope to the best of my abilities. I am not allowed to recommend my personal way of coming into faith and healing because of stigma which is unfortunate. However, it's important to remember that the founder of AA, Bill W. whom they venerate almost as a deity, took LSD multiple times, advocated it as a cure for addiction, and actually came to his hot flash spiritual awakening under the influence of belladonna! It's all true and verifiable. He was heavily criticized for his advocacy of psychedelics by the very group that he created.
I am in a process of cultivating my spirituality again. The field has lain fallow for many years. It was not all a waste for it has brought me to the place I am in now. I am planning on using my knowledge of addiction and recovery to help others. I didn't see myself finding my life's purpose by becoming a crackhead and cough syrup junkie, among other addictions, and it's a complete surprise but it makes total sense to me now.
So...the miprocin opened me up to a spiritual experience I would not have felt so deeply otherwise. I want to help others recover from addiction. Of course there are some pretty colors, but the inspiration is what I feel to be noteworthy about this compound combined with a good mindset/set/setting. Afterwards I listened to music, called my father, grandmother, cousin, and apologized to a co-worker for treating him badly.
I've never experienced anything quite like this. Nothing that helps people re-discover their true potential and reconnect with family/humanity should ever be illegal but I'm sure someday it will be. I'm so grateful for this experience. Thanks for reading.
I go to AA because I'm an alcoholic, of course, and I benefit from the free therapy and fellowship with other people trying to improve their lives. I have been taking psychedelics again, I hadn't taken many in recent years, to get to the root of my alcoholism. It was destroying my life and I want to be done with it. I quit hard drugs on my own in recent years but alcohol has been a different beast. It's a much more pervasive addiction in my opinion because of legality and social acceptance. Not many people will ask you if you wanna smoke a few rocks or get your nod on after a hard day at work to socialize, but many people will ask if you want to get a drink afterwards.
My use of psychedelics has helped me to abstain from alcohol and has curbed the constant thirst for it. I had been struggling very badly with it before the last few years. I am the kind of person who has been fired by religious librarians from a temp job at the American Theological Society in Chicago for drinking most of a handle of cheap vodka and passing out at the desk I attended. I was unresponsive and I was carried out by EMS on a stretcher. I once drank a bunch of Everclear and was taken to the hospital for alcohol poisoning with a .39 BAC, afterwards accepted into the psych ward. Not proud of this, I just want to give some background information.
I have been mostly abstinent from alcohol lately and I have been looking for a trancendental experience and I got one for ya.
Substances ingested: Approx. 30 grams of kratom total, 5 grams phenibut, and 17 mg 4-HO-MIPT.
I decided to dose 17 mg miprocin and go to AA riding my bicycle. The day after would be Bicycle Day, but I didn't remember that until today. I thought if I felt uncomfortable that I could leave. Not this time. I showed up to a small meeting and the chairperson was clearly not going to arrive. We needed someone to chair the meeting. Someone who has 10 years sobriety suggested that I chair the meeting. He volun-told me to do it and sat the chairperson's folder in front of me. I've never chaired a meeting as I still take psychedelics and kratom. They would disagree with my methods, but as a former hard opiate addict, alcoholic, benzo-head, recovered tweaker/crackhead, DXM addict....I figure that the maintenance drugs of phenibut and kratom are the lesser of the evils.
Kratom and phenibut have helped me lead a normal life where I'm not crushed by anxiety. I've been able to make and keep friends, hold a job, be a caring and compassionate person, and a hell of a hard worker with the aid of these drugs and psychedelics. I don't care if it's not classic "sobriety"...I refuse to be suicidally depressed, which was exacerbated by alcohol. I will recover by any means necessary.
So, the miprocin was taken 15 minutes before the meeting and by the time we finished the preamble I was already "up" but not feeling the peak effects by any means. I suggested a topic as no one else had any suggestions. These are lost people and many of them are in early sobriety and feel empty inside. It was such a golden opportunity/teaching experience to lead them and tell what I had learned in my journey and how events that we think have ruined our lives have in actuality presented us with the opportunity of starting anew. They were all literally looking at me directly as they shared/confessed their experiences. It was catharsis for me and for them as well, I think. Like a snake that is shedding it's skin, we're irate and milky eyed and don't want to be touched...you'd be in danger to do so actually. Afterwards we can be "happy snakes" when the painful shedding process is over. The phoenix from the ashes thing.
They were looking to me for some hope and recovery and I provided my experience, strength, and hope to the best of my abilities. I am not allowed to recommend my personal way of coming into faith and healing because of stigma which is unfortunate. However, it's important to remember that the founder of AA, Bill W. whom they venerate almost as a deity, took LSD multiple times, advocated it as a cure for addiction, and actually came to his hot flash spiritual awakening under the influence of belladonna! It's all true and verifiable. He was heavily criticized for his advocacy of psychedelics by the very group that he created.
I am in a process of cultivating my spirituality again. The field has lain fallow for many years. It was not all a waste for it has brought me to the place I am in now. I am planning on using my knowledge of addiction and recovery to help others. I didn't see myself finding my life's purpose by becoming a crackhead and cough syrup junkie, among other addictions, and it's a complete surprise but it makes total sense to me now.
So...the miprocin opened me up to a spiritual experience I would not have felt so deeply otherwise. I want to help others recover from addiction. Of course there are some pretty colors, but the inspiration is what I feel to be noteworthy about this compound combined with a good mindset/set/setting. Afterwards I listened to music, called my father, grandmother, cousin, and apologized to a co-worker for treating him badly.
I've never experienced anything quite like this. Nothing that helps people re-discover their true potential and reconnect with family/humanity should ever be illegal but I'm sure someday it will be. I'm so grateful for this experience. Thanks for reading.
