Wow. 1mg of acid up yer bum? How the fuck was that?
I'll let you know? Lol.
Heavy. I've "done" some things. But that was the singularly most impactful, life altering drug administration I can personally report.
I entered it in the worst ever set/setting. Like, no HR advice could ever resemble anything unlike- DON'T do it. You will likely have a bad time, although the Town Hospital, where I have visited (A & E) on a bad trip on 2.5 mg's oral, March 2012, is now 100 metres from house.
But I had zero fear of a bad trip, mentally.
I wasn't concerned about usual digestive and respiratory symptoms from high doses of Lysergamides, as plugging negates that and provides a much deeper effect for me, I'd say more than twice as potent, but it's really a qualitative thing, like administration by eye vs oral.
Plugging hits much harder than eye though IME.
I never had a bad trip. I had no interest in going there even. I know how to steer that ship now. I needed adrenaline and shock, distraction and I was sure that would do it. It was intensely stimulatory to my nervous system though, during.
But no bad time.
60 hours later, Tuesday morning, I was still tripping pretty full on. Like 450 ug level but more, as this was new frontier in terms of depth of mind alteration.
So my head was good, really. But then my nervous and immune system literally physically crashed. In real OD style. Most damaged and unrested I've ever felt from psycoactives, and not something that ever happens usually with LSD, which outside this, I have never felt has actually damaged me in any way, nor taken anything from me before.
I had a chiropractic treatment 7 days later, which was pinpointed to treat the very apparent, widespread physical effects of the effective overdose.
I couldn't have gone far in life without that reset. It was no mind over matter either, because that is my skillset with these things.
Somehow, I was patching up good. I half lost my tongue for about 10 days, just assimilating and integrating, then regained a new, more refined, sharper tongue, which was as fully functional as ever, verbal wise an upgrade, (I also tripped pretty full on for over a week from the plug, never experienced a "stuck" trip before.)
Within 2 weeks, but only thanks to the treatment and time, the paint was drying fast.
Emotions have really tipped the apple cart up again though, last week.
I always have cleared any PTSD from a bad trip, by tripping again.
"Acid burns", like a CD. Its better to lay a new fresh template over the top of one that left scars.
So I took an insanely deep 400 ug oral trip last week, with a tonne of cannabis edibles, lots of vapor and 2 day's worth of kava to really potentiate it.
For a reset, because I had PTSD not from the MG trip itself, but the unexpected after effects, body crashing, nerves overstimulated, which was a trauma, while still tripping.
So it was a bad "out"-trip.
The in-trip was fine.
The trip last week was succesful. But set, setting were far from ideal with situational dangers, resulting in an unexpected late night row of overbearing propensity for very specific stimuli (my mum lol atm) sensitised nerves.
Stress is a killer. It was too much stress. Last time that happened, instead of allowing that stress to manifest(er), I plugged a Milligram.
Wasn't an option this time. So my biology has been put right out again, direct result of stress.
I see the chiropractor again in 8 days. She will again, reset the systems. I will be able to digest food again, produce energy, just make progress.
She only visits Bedford once a month or I would have already been "fixed", as I can't eat or digest anything for now, mechanically, and my Tinnitus went through the roof too from the impact of stress last week, my blood literally boiling.
I just need to reach this appointment now. And then somehow avoid any further eruptive arguments with my mum who has really lost plots last 12 months, not my own doing, and she just can't reason or see wood from trees at points, as rage from stress takes hold.
I did pick up though, just an unfortunate un-reset. But not irreparable, not easy for the mo.
Good news, I'm about 63 kg's now, vs 50 two years ago.
I fasted voluntarily in 2012 for 160 hours. Just over a week.
I could probably fast solid for a week now, but I need to draw a line between burdening a non functioning digestive system, and starvation of nutrients and energy.
I fast a lot already, 36-45 hours, but is harder lately.
I have grit in my corner always. Vs the Laws of physics, and luck definitely plays a part too.
Wish me luck? Lol.
