Heavy... 7 posts isn't enough to make it reasonable paranoia. BUt def more reasonable than my page breaks LOL!Talk about paranoia...how about when the same guy comments after you on nearly every post you make. Just reviewed some of my posts and guess Whosajiggawaaa?! LMFAO!
Great post. How did you end up quitting? Did you get in a program or just do it with self-discipline?Last year I met a girl who made no secret of her habit but after three years of use was still beautiful both inside and out. She got my number one night from a friend and text me to see what I was up to and ask me if I wanted to come over. I drove the twenty minutes to her apartment thinking the whole way about whether or not I would accept a request, if offered, to try some h. I decided to invoke the worlds strongest prayer...fuck it. I had to be at work early the next day so I didn't plan on staying the night but as soon as I walked in the door she tossed a loaded pen at me and asked if I needed help "with that". Up to this point needles freaked me the fuck out so I said yeah, laid my arm on the table, turned my head, closed my eyes, clenched my jaw and waited for the prick of the point. "Tell me if it starts to burn", she said. But after a quick pinch she bent my arm back to stop the bleeding and said "All done". I started, "That was qui........" and fuck me I felt good. From the center of my chest radiating outward my body became warm and ecstasy took hold of every square inch. (Que hard cock) Needless to say the sex was fan-fucking-tastic. So good in fact we were up all night and I called in sick to work. 10am sharp there was a knock at the door and it was her dealer dropping off her daily 1g supply. Service with a smile. She asked for an extra half and we commenced to nod, and fuck, the rest of the day. The following day I didn't even bother calling in. I had found Narnia and fuck off if you thought I was going back to the land of the living.
(Skip ahead three months)
"What in the fuck am I doing?" I thought on a daily basis. I had a 15 year plan, and getting strung out on H spending every waking moment counting the minutes until my next shot was not a part of it. I had been through cotton fever twice (which is basically like dying a slow painful death), began to ignore all my friends, lost my job, had to wear long sleeves if I wanted to go out and was completely annoyed with the hot young girl I was now spending 24/7 with. Obviously as far as junky stories go mine isn't that extreme, and for some people it sounds like a fantasy, but to have this substance control every aspect of my life was not okay with me and was the worse possible thing i could imagine. This girl was like a siren sucking my life force out of me. I could have stayed there indefinitely...she begged me not to go..."I'll do anything" she said...but it was destroying me, so I left. Little did I know, aside from viewings of Requiem for a Dream and Trainspotting, what the next couple weeks would be like. Gdamn misery my friends. Gdamn misery. Look up heroin WD and get an idea. That shit is too painful to even think about.
(Fast forward to present)
I'm clean. Not even smoking weed anymore. Being clean is like being alive. Either you are or you arent. I'm about to make a big move to O-high-O where the fent laced junk is in abundance and man-o-man am I tempted. I can do a shot or two a week, right? Space it out, don't let myself get strung out again...These thoughts are not uncommon to a former addict. I expect to deal with them for the rest of my life. Some days I just want to go OT, but for now I haven't. For now, I'm clean...for now...
That makes absolutely no sense. That's not how it works. If you put heroin in a cigarette and then light it... you are burning it.. it has nothing at all do with vaporizing.I don't plan on injecting it. when i said i consider it vaporization i meant that the heat of the lit end of the cigarette is enough to vaporize the morphine or heroin before it is burned.
uhh.... no.im on some prescription meds which are giving me premature ejaculations. Have you you ever had one? its the weirdest thing bro
Ha. Where are you coming up with this? By adding direct flame to something and lighting it on fire.. you are not vaporizing it. It is burning. Anyway, whatever, keep doing it that way, be my guest.im trying to keep my exposure to a minimum. if that makes any sense what so ever.
AND TO YOU "MODERATOR" IT MAKES PERFECT SENSE. I will explain. a cigarette is a tube filled with combustible plant matter. when the tip is lit the plant matter starts to combust. you are right about waste at this point how ever when you begin to drag air through the combustion of plant matter you draw very hot air through the plant mater causing vaporization to occur. it may not be as efficient as a glass dick but it still works.
LSDMDMA&12129758 said:We do heroin and were telling you youre literally doinitrong.
Id snort a bag worth then wait if i were you. A bag being like .06-.08 most of the time, at least out here
This is true, but at the same time, not *all* of what you "burn" is actually destroyed, unless you're doing an excellent job mixing air in (e.g. automotive engines). This is why people can smoke cannabis and still get THC delivered (THC is a burnable hydrocarbon) - some fraction of it vaporises and is carried as an aerosol to the user's lungs.Ha. Where are you coming up with this? By adding direct flame to something and lighting it on fire.. you are not vaporizing it. It is burning. Anyway, whatever, keep doing it that way, be my guest.
Congrats on the sobriety. It's not easy. Who are you worried about finding out about your addiction?Self-discipline mostly, it hasn't been long enough to really brag about though. Then again if you told me I still wouldn't be using three months from now when I first quit I would have laughed in your face. I didn't realize a day could last 8765.81 hours until I stopped shooting and went cold turkey. It's gdamn hilarious to me that all those hours of torture are but a distant memory and I'm still so tempted to use again, SMH. I can't attend meetings, join a 'done program or participate in anything that might become public so my best bet at staying sober is to just keep posting. It's the only way I can get support and for that bloolight I thank you.