I have what they think to be a ganglion cyst on my wrist right now. Right hand. And now probably inflammation.
It's very identifiable ! Painful. I am Fucking dammiting about it all the time too. But it's kind of common to have I guess it seems. Usually it can get drained by some kind of needle or surgery it's been said.
I feel despair and crying but I don't. I used today. Just to feel better and to feel normal. It worked. Oh I used pain medication. ( fyi info.)
I bumped it up to the total of 8mg's in the time frame of around 36 hours.
(yes a fucking A opioid)
I wouldn't have got through responsibilities without it. I am still sick though, however.
And still very ashamed. Not so much embarrassed just ashamed but at the same time not wanting to apologise for being (pain, chronic) sick.
Now.
Too weak for tears or despair anymore. Just waiting for it to all end in just one more day. I hope.
Tired all of the time but just knowing I
can get better. Hopefully sooner and not instead, never. Seems to be the theme for years now.
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I hate being sick. And yes. Is awful.
♡
I used to know those who would get good medication prescribed for less than all of this that I have to endure through and go through and all.
What a different world I seem to be dealing with right now. It is so sad. Prayers have helped through so much too. ♡ But pain was on a fucked level today too.
It's always tough to describe, explain. Especially when it has to take 30 paragraphs to do so. Either way it's hopefully worth an effort.
I am still trying to learn the reason why medicine can be so bad. Because of course it can. Everything seems to be a downfall of trying to get the fuck back up again. And. On a daily basis as usual again today.