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RDP89

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Universe conspires to make addicts relapse!! Just kidding, though it does feel that way at times.

Regardless, I have 12 days after just a minor flirtation with DXM and cannabis after a 75 day clean run. Which was 3 days off my free world record(as opposed to jail/prison record which was 15 months off of everything(besides caffeine obviously lol)) of 78 days.

I also am coming up on 23 months of no alcohol which is huge for me. Have a psych appointment coming up and hopefully end up on decent meds as I definitely need it.
 

Zephyn

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Well, I just broke 3 days of sobriety. I don't plan on being totally abstinence, ever, but am looking to avoid benzos, alcohol, amphetamines, crack and heroin. I've just been taking benzos and alcohol for a few months now, but had gone 3 days without any.
 

Zephyn

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Universe conspires to make addicts relapse!! Just kidding, though it does feel that way at times.

Regardless, I have 12 days after just a minor flirtation with DXM and cannabis after a 75 day clean run. Which was 3 days off my free world record(as opposed to jail/prison record which was 15 months off of everything(besides caffeine obviously lol)) of 78 days.

I also am coming up on 23 months of no alcohol which is huge for me. Have a psych appointment coming up and hopefully end up on decent meds as I definitely need it.
This is true, I've had people come up to me and introduce themselves as drug dealers. I've been given free meth plenty of times. Another time when I used to do more opiates I had left the country for 6 months to clear my head, upon landing, without anyone knowing where I was or if I was coming back not 5 minutes after landing old dope dealer called
 

RDP89

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Well, I just broke 3 days of sobriety. I don't plan on being totally abstinence, ever, but am looking to avoid benzos, alcohol, amphetamines, crack and heroin. I've just been taking benzos and alcohol for a few months now, but had gone 3 days without any.
Try not to be too hard on yourself and just try again. I think it takes most of us many, many times and use of something we’re trying to avoid only has to be a minor setback.

The fact that you’re recognizing problem substances and setting goals regarding them is a big step in a good direction!! Best of luck to you!!
 

chinup

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well done to everyone getting any clean time whatsoever.

i have not consumed alcohol the past 2 nights and hoping not to tonight. i have been taking codeine every day though, i have a habit now. i get one even if i use the recommended dose for legit reasons for more than one day in a row, but my reasons this time weren't legit. i will kick it after my dental surgery next week, no point trying before then.

Universe conspires to make addicts relapse!! Just kidding, though it does feel that way at times.
it really does. every lapse i've had was totally the universes fault and not mine..... (sarcasm, but i completely identify with your sentiment there).

just over an hour left of 'work' this week..... really up and down mood wise, in very rapid cycles. think i'm emotionally exhausted from the past 2 weeks. hoping to feel better next week, have an interesting and socially useful task to do but my brain isn't up to it right now.
 

Pumpkin2021

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well i did not drink last night but i was in a stinking mood. not particularly about not drinking. then couldn't get to sleep. gonna try a long run and then a nap.

happy saturday folks! i hope everyone has a great weekend, or at least not a totally shit one.
Thanks chinup. Right back 'atcha. Hope the run and the nap restore you so you can win the battle again tonight.
 

Zephyn

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day 2 of starting drinking at 9am. I havent been doing this long enough to become dependent, but the cravings are getting more, need to stop. Going to push through this next week completely sober so as to prepare for my psychedelic experience next weekend, which will hopefully ameliorate the cravings like it used to do.
 

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there was a moment yesterday I almost went out and scored some coke or heroin, but I know where that leads, and was able to fight it and the feeling passed in 10 minutes. first time ive come close to having that sort of craving in months
 

JessFR

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there was a moment yesterday I almost went out and scored some coke or heroin, but I know where that leads, and was able to fight it and the feeling passed in 10 minutes. first time ive come close to having that sort of craving in months

In my experience, what you describe is similar to what I do to try and manage cravings.

Essentially I tell myself "OK, before even considering acting on this craving, let's just wait a half an hour. Just a half an hour."

And the vast majority of the time the craving is significantly lessened or gone by then. I learned this when I quit smoking but it's not a terrible strategy for some other cravings. It doesn't always work but it helps a lot of the time.

Also congrats on resisting, whatever works for you keep it up. <3
 

Pumpkin2021

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In my experience, what you describe is similar to what I do to try and manage cravings.

Essentially I tell myself "OK, before even considering acting on this craving, let's just wait a half an hour. Just a half an hour."

And the vast majority of the time the craving is significantly lessened or gone by then. I learned this when I quit smoking but it's not a terrible strategy for some other cravings. It doesn't always work but it helps a lot of the time.

Also congrats on resisting, whatever works for you keep it up. <3
Spot on Jess. That's exactly how I keep from buying pills. I wait through the craving and know it will pass. It's the only way for me. When I am really really wanting a warm fuzzy opioid pill I smoke a joint and the craving passes as soon as I take 3 hits. I know it doesn't work for everyone and I am just thankful it works for me. Also helps that I deleted all my connects a year ago. Funny how those deleted people never call to just say Hi or have a coffee. Friends, my ass ! :cool:
 

chinup

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Thanks chinup. Right back 'atcha. Hope the run and the nap restore you so you can win the battle again tonight.
thank you. i did 15k!! but not planning on not drinking tonight, my boyf and i are going to try 1 night a week. i still would prefer complete abstinence but i think i will stick better with something he will do with me, unless i chuck him out (he doesn't technically live here or even pay any rent/bills lol) but him being here is what stopped me buying heroin recently so i can't.

also i kinda like him. without him here i'm outnumbered by fuzzy doofuses.

day 2 of starting drinking at 9am. I havent been doing this long enough to become dependent, but the cravings are getting more, need to stop. Going to push through this next week completely sober so as to prepare for my psychedelic experience next weekend, which will hopefully ameliorate the cravings like it used to do.
urgh i really hope you manage to call it quits. my experience of being addicted to a variety of drugs is that when you start doing it in the morning, that is when real addiction sets in, it gets so hard to stop so quickly. though i also think taking a drug at 9am is in itself a sign of addiction so i guess i'm a little confused on that issue. i guess i mean that's when it starts taking over your life.

poo i was just about to go out to the shop to start drinking and it is snowing hard ffs. it'll do me good to leave it another hour.
 

JessFR

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Spot on Jess. That's exactly how I keep from buying pills. I wait through the craving and know it will pass. It's the only way for me. When I am really really wanting a warm fuzzy opioid pill I smoke a joint and the craving passes as soon as I take 3 hits. I know it doesn't work for everyone and I am just thankful it works for me. Also helps that I deleted all my connects a year ago. Funny how those deleted people never call to just say Hi or have a coffee. Friends, my ass ! :cool:

It's amazing how effective a strategy is. Cravings usually don't last very long. Even if you just tell yourself to just give yourself 20 minutes, that IME can help with a lot of cravings.

The mild random cravings anyway. The dangerous ones are when something has gone wrong, where life has thrown you a curve ball. Those cravings are more intense and tend to last longer.
 
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