wow i hope your scalp isn't too painful
@SunriseChampion! i am surprised you got burned. i've seen people get burned heads once in summer time in Namibia but not in winter in northen climes!
Nah, it's not bad...it IS January after all, so the sun is quite low in the sky, though overhead still....Toronto is pretty far south....same latitude as southern France and northern California! It's only cold here because of the jet stream which allows Arctic air to come this far south in this part of the continent, and actually, the Great Lakes provide a very mild micro climate which is why he have great wine regions here in spite of it sometimes getting Arctic cold.
I've burnt my nut in the summer before and that was the REAL deal.
I'd love to visit Namibia!
i honestly wouldn't worry too much about having a few beers with your friends if you know it won't result in a lapse back to heavy drinking.
Well, it will be heavy drinking hahaha, but no, it defo won't lead to regular drinking right after. I don't get triggered like that at all.
but, if its making you feel bad, then that's another thing entirely, and may mean you'd be better not to drink until you read your goal of being sober in March.
See, it's kind of like me and exercise....I think I make myself feel bad for no good reason sometimes. I think I have standards that I impose on myself that are not necessarily desirable nor beneficial. I think it stems from my childhood and being a "disappointment" to every adult in my life which lead to later depression and self-esteem issues which I still deal with today.
And in any case, drinking once now and then not again til the second week of March would still be a decent state of being, I reckon.
. i was not happy about that so talked him down to drinking once in feb, which given its a short month would be once every two weeks and thus less drinking than he did in january. if i can drink once a fortnight i'll be happy.
Sorry, I think I missed this but how often were you drinking? Like, daily/almost daily? Once a fortnight is a fine way to be if that was the case.
if it leads back to drinking every night and not being able to sleep sober then i'll give in and go back to complete abstinence.
Yeah, that wouldn't be good. Near the end of the holidays, I was getting to this point as well. I was able to sleep but had massive problems falling asleep. Took a while. This has been getting progressively worse over the years after drinking. Ten years ago, no problem getting to sleep on Sunday evening.
In my case though, I can't tell if it's the drinking or the fact that I stay up laaaate (like all night) when I drink which fucks with my circadian rhythm.
Yes. I’m really surprised about the condition I and my life are in. Shocked might be a better worse for it.
Shocked!
That's a good fucking surprise though, eh? ...in this case.
I could not have imagined it even 3 months ago, when it felt like I would never get of out my bedroom or the grip of meth. In recovery they talk about ‘doing geographicals’ in a really negative way - but a change of scenery and perspective can do wonders. I only moved across town and got some minor distance from some toxic habits and people and it was all I needed to start thinking in a really fresh way about the possibilities of my life.
This is interesting and I think it may have to do with your age and the wisdom in terms of self-awareness that comes with that.
I have many many friends who have tried to solve their personal problems by moving somewhere new. Including the one who lives in Perth, WA now!
I found through people in my life that you always bring the problems with you.
And all you had to do was move across town! Maybe it's a function of you knowing exactly what your issue was/is and were able to clearly see how to deal with it?
I’m can definitely still feel the effects of the last year though. I kind of feel a bit disorientated all of the time and concentration is sometimes a bit challenging. I also feel quite a bit run down and nauseous most of the time. Like I’m aching in my bones.
I can't imagine I'd feel any better after what you went through.
But I don’t really have any anxiety or depression - that’s the surprise and what I was really afraid of for so long. I either feel neutral and quite productive or genuinely happy and enthusiastic.
That's great! You were so worried about that based on previous experience. Glad you're not dealing with that fuckery! :D
Except a lot of time on BL - but I can’t seem to let that go as easily as the meth for some reasons.
Hey, mate.....some addictions are at least not acutely dangerous to your health.
It was like -5 and windy so much colder but I still managed to get a slight burn on my scalp (I'm a skinhead) which is interesting for a January day.